7 Weird/Random Things About MnM
Okay...this is late in coming. Got tagged by Twin Rho, but it being hell without the luxury of internet AND the fact that I've had to really think about my responses is what took me so long. 'Tis a funny thing about the internet...I feel so DISconnected without it and when I do have access to it, I feel all my time is semi-wasted as I try and "catch up." Yet, without it, I have caught up with other luxuries that I've let fallen by the wayside for too long...like reading. Oh yes, and sleeping...eating...correcting papers. But I digress...
A few rules about this random facts thingy...and c'mon, play along, won't you?
1. Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird things about yourself.
3. Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
1. Whenever I'm driving anywhere, I'm always looking at license plates. I think it started around the time when I started driving. But after looking at the license plates, I take it one step further by committing it to memory by coming up with some random mnemonics. Extra points if there happens to be out-of-state cars in the area and whoa, let's not forget about personalized plates...then it becomes even MORE interesting (in my mind anyways...). As bizarre as it may sound, it's almost an obsession.
2. I seriously cannot stand the fact that people do not know how to drive on the Great Highway. 35mph people...no freakin' need to tail my ass...you ain't goin' nowhere but forward on this two lane road and really, stop wasting gas by braking- the lights are TIMED!
3. I HAVE to make sure the closet doors are securely closed before going to bed. Credit that damn "Poltergeist" movie for this one, shit, I won't even go into WHY. Hell...the same goes for my reason for not liking clowns.
4. I'm a big crybaby. I cry at everything- commercials, movies, cards, books, songs, sunsets, sunrises, memories. What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic, I'm corny, and I'm easily touched...so sue me...but can you pass the tissue?
5. I'm proud to have called Minnesota my home for a few years. It may not have seemed like it at the time (because I was SO homesick for CA). I loved that I got to experience living in the Midwest and everything that came with it- from the weather to the God-lovin' peoples to the living out in the boonies thing. I miss it every now and then...and I sure do wish I was able to have a white Christmas.
6. I'm a fast typist. Even I impress myself! Lol!
7. I have ESP. Not in the sense that I could predict tomorrow's Lotto numbers, but call it my "6th Sense" if you will. Thoughts of an event or a person or something totally random will "pop" into my mind and whaddaya know, it will happen. But it's usually immediate, like within the first couple of seconds of the thought. It's pretty eerie, but it happens SO OFTEN that many times, I think nothing of it. Some people call it coincidence, but in the 25+ years that it's been happening, I embrace it as my ESP.
Okay...even though I know ya'll won't do it, I have to choose seven people...and seeing that Twin Rho and J would've been part of that group, I choose you: Ethan's Mommy, Mrs. Voodoo, Keyopes, the Weekender, RyceGirlie, msbLiSs, and BFF.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Friday, December 28, 2007
National Treasure: Book of Secrets
Two thumbs up! If you liked the first National Treasure movie, you'll love this movie. When it comes to movies, I'm pretty easy about 'em. There really aren't many movies that I don't like...aside from all of the movies that I simply REFUSE to see that includes all horror/slasher movies. It's funny because growing up, I never had much of a liking for history. It wasn't until my last year in high school that I became so engrossed in our study of the Vietnam War. From there, I began to notice how fascinating the past was...and of course there's the learning from the past so as not to commit the same mistakes twice, etc, but seriously, I regret not paying more attention in school back in the day.
Without going into the storyline, I will say how I love how the story jumps around to the different locations - from Paris to London to Mt.Rushmore in South Dakota. Yes, yes, a giggly MnM sat there excitedly saying, "I was there! I was there!" Out of all the states that I was able to pass through during my cross-country drive from MN to CA, South Dakota was- hands down- the most interesting state....compared to Wyoming and Nebraska, that is. Mt. Rushmore is truly a sight to behold!
In any case, as it is with enjoyable movies, I was sad to see it end. I wish all movies were at least 3 hours long! lol! OH...I forget to mention....saw the preview for Prince Caspian...the return to NARNIA! I'm so excited!
'Twas a nice relaxing day to spend with my sis, BADMama and the fam....plus, we also ran into Triple D and BeBeBallerina's parents...so really, it was a family affair all around!
Two thumbs up! If you liked the first National Treasure movie, you'll love this movie. When it comes to movies, I'm pretty easy about 'em. There really aren't many movies that I don't like...aside from all of the movies that I simply REFUSE to see that includes all horror/slasher movies. It's funny because growing up, I never had much of a liking for history. It wasn't until my last year in high school that I became so engrossed in our study of the Vietnam War. From there, I began to notice how fascinating the past was...and of course there's the learning from the past so as not to commit the same mistakes twice, etc, but seriously, I regret not paying more attention in school back in the day.
Without going into the storyline, I will say how I love how the story jumps around to the different locations - from Paris to London to Mt.Rushmore in South Dakota. Yes, yes, a giggly MnM sat there excitedly saying, "I was there! I was there!" Out of all the states that I was able to pass through during my cross-country drive from MN to CA, South Dakota was- hands down- the most interesting state....compared to Wyoming and Nebraska, that is. Mt. Rushmore is truly a sight to behold!
In any case, as it is with enjoyable movies, I was sad to see it end. I wish all movies were at least 3 hours long! lol! OH...I forget to mention....saw the preview for Prince Caspian...the return to NARNIA! I'm so excited!
'Twas a nice relaxing day to spend with my sis, BADMama and the fam....plus, we also ran into Triple D and BeBeBallerina's parents...so really, it was a family affair all around!
The Gifts of Christmas
Another Christmas has come and gone. With New Year's just around the corner, one can't help but think about how the year has been. December alone has been a busy month- not just because of last minute shopping or the chaotic rush of the last few weeks of school- but because this month has brought about so many emotions dealing with everything from news of a new baby, divorce (not mine for a change...), and death. But despite all of the changes that we have to deal with concerning each one, there's something to be learned and to be thankful for, isn't there?
After going through my own divorce, it's definitely something that I would never ever wish upon anyone. It's messy, difficult, and just downright sad. Of course, each couple has their own set of reasons as to what leads them down this path and I'm not one to say that we all fall into the same category, but understandably so, I can sympathize at how painful that decision could be. After being married, I realize that it doesn't matter how long or how short the relationship was, pain is pain...heartache is heartache. It's taken me a long time to get over that part of my life and I think in some way, it will always BE there. But as they say, time is the great healer. I've accepted what has happened and the fact that it HAD to happen. What's done is done...it's time to move on. After four years of dealing with my marital issues, I can say that I've finally let it go. It was time.
While some are just emotionally stronger than others, again, I don't wish the big D on anyone. Seeing any loved one dealing with this brings back the pain of my own, but it's not with sadness anymore. It's more like lessons learned. It's my hope that my experience can only help in the dealing of it...perhaps even be an example that yes, through time, the days won't seem so dark, life won't be so sad, and that things WILL get better.
In an earlier post, I mentioned the passing of Lolo Buddy. His death right before the holidays just seemed cruel, but at the same time, seemed apropos. In many ways, his passing brought so many people together, albeit it was under sad circumstances, still. I'm just thankful that his family was with him during his final moments.
As they say, with a death comes new life...when one passes, another is born. I think that's definitely the case here! My newly married auntie announced at Christmas that she is expecting a baby! Our clan continues to grow...lol. Talk about a surprise and wow...what a wonderful gift.
I pray that ya'll had a wonderfully blessed Christmas...and just because I think it's a beautiful story, here's the story of the Birth of Christ.
The Birth of Jesus
In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. (This was the first census that took place while Quirinius was governor of Syria.) And everyone went to his own town to register.
So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.
The Shepherds and the Angels
And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."
When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about."
So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told. ~Luke 2 (NIV)
Another Christmas has come and gone. With New Year's just around the corner, one can't help but think about how the year has been. December alone has been a busy month- not just because of last minute shopping or the chaotic rush of the last few weeks of school- but because this month has brought about so many emotions dealing with everything from news of a new baby, divorce (not mine for a change...), and death. But despite all of the changes that we have to deal with concerning each one, there's something to be learned and to be thankful for, isn't there?
After going through my own divorce, it's definitely something that I would never ever wish upon anyone. It's messy, difficult, and just downright sad. Of course, each couple has their own set of reasons as to what leads them down this path and I'm not one to say that we all fall into the same category, but understandably so, I can sympathize at how painful that decision could be. After being married, I realize that it doesn't matter how long or how short the relationship was, pain is pain...heartache is heartache. It's taken me a long time to get over that part of my life and I think in some way, it will always BE there. But as they say, time is the great healer. I've accepted what has happened and the fact that it HAD to happen. What's done is done...it's time to move on. After four years of dealing with my marital issues, I can say that I've finally let it go. It was time.
While some are just emotionally stronger than others, again, I don't wish the big D on anyone. Seeing any loved one dealing with this brings back the pain of my own, but it's not with sadness anymore. It's more like lessons learned. It's my hope that my experience can only help in the dealing of it...perhaps even be an example that yes, through time, the days won't seem so dark, life won't be so sad, and that things WILL get better.
In an earlier post, I mentioned the passing of Lolo Buddy. His death right before the holidays just seemed cruel, but at the same time, seemed apropos. In many ways, his passing brought so many people together, albeit it was under sad circumstances, still. I'm just thankful that his family was with him during his final moments.
As they say, with a death comes new life...when one passes, another is born. I think that's definitely the case here! My newly married auntie announced at Christmas that she is expecting a baby! Our clan continues to grow...lol. Talk about a surprise and wow...what a wonderful gift.
I pray that ya'll had a wonderfully blessed Christmas...and just because I think it's a beautiful story, here's the story of the Birth of Christ.
The Birth of Jesus
In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. (This was the first census that took place while Quirinius was governor of Syria.) And everyone went to his own town to register.
So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.
The Shepherds and the Angels
And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."
When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about."
So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told. ~Luke 2 (NIV)
Friday, December 21, 2007
P.S. I Love You
Talk about a tear-jerker!
First off, I already knew, without a doubt, that I was going to see this film on opening day. Second, loved the fact that I got to see it with my sis, BADMama...couldn't imagine seeing it with anyone else at the moment who would really understand inner goings of MnMz mind. Third, so glad that I had read the book FIRST...and although I have to re-read it again, it may very well be that the movie is better than the book....a rarity, I know! (Plus, I just HAD to buy another copy of the book with the movie poster of Gerard Butler on it....'cuz hell, I could look at him all day...). Fourth....well, let me just say (and this may sound somewhat ironic), but while I do believe that all things happen for a reason because God intended, I can still be superstitious in ways in which I believe in SIGNS...however big or small they may be. So fourth, this movie points to some signs...not sure whether they are significant or what, but still, signs they are to me. Lastly.....it's IRELAND. As many of you know, I am in love with IRELAND. Just seeing the backdrop of the amazingly beautiful landscape of the Irish countrysides just takes my breath away! And Lordy...the accent, oh damn, the accent....just melts my insides.
For those of you who haven't seen the preview or read the book, the basic premise is about a couple (Hilary Swank and Gerard Butler) who are totally in love with each other....but tragedy hits and Gerard Butler's character passes away. He was "the cute Irish guy who likes to sing." As his wife deals with his death, she is surprised to find that he had arranged letters to be sent to her with specific instructions...even after his passing. The entire movie goes on as she follows the wishes of her dead husband. It's sweet, really....awfully romantic....to the point of tears flowing down with each scene. Yah, I'm a sucker...I know.
And dammit, did I mention how FINE Gerard Butler is?! He's not even Irish, but d-a-m-n....he makes me melt!
Anyways, the storyline has total chickflick written all over it. I'm determined more than ever to go to Ireland now....of course along with the plan to go to Italy and France, that is. It was a crying movie, for sure (and sometimes everyone needs a good cry)....so plan on bringing some tissue.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
It's Been A While....
Yes, so apparently I have the habit of being MIA these days. To be quite honest, it really is out of my hands! Being in my own lil' crib, I have all the time in the world to blog, but danggit, if only my internet connection was on 24/7! Same old story, I know, but limited funds don't allow for me to subscribe just yet. It's ghetto, I know! So if you can imagine, I wake up each morning, head to my laptop, do a little "oh please work, oh please work" lil' chant, and wait those agonizing seconds as the green bar at the bottom of my screen loads. More often than not, it gets to about bar five before that dreaded "cannot display page- please check internet connection" pops up. Hate that shit. It really isn't cool to wake up all anxious like that only to get all frustrated and peeved...gets me swearing up a storm, I tell you! As it is, whenever I DO get connection, I never know for how long the gift will last...lol...and so, let me type away as fast as I can in order to get a posting up....
December Review
School is out for Christmas vacation...thank God! In December alone, we only really had two weeks in session....but those two weeks were pure hell! The last week alone was torture- we had our 3rd Grade Christmas program on Wednesday, our Christmas luncheon on Thursday, and of course, the last day on Friday where all the kiddies are just hyped for vacation to come. 'Tis almost as bad as the actual last day of school...almost.
Christmas programs in itself are a lot of work- so much to prepare, so much practice, and quite honestly, not enough teaching time in the classroom. When I first started teaching, there were six 3rd grade classes. That's a grip of lil' kids, I tell you! But it was also six teachers who each took a responsibility to help make it a success. This year, we have four classes...you'd think it would be easier to organize. You'd THINK. Think again!
I'd rather not get into the details...as it is, the program is over anyways. (Praise the Lord!) But I just had to share the task that I put upon myself. Each year, we've had to borrow costumes from different grade levels and the same old costumes were in rotation. I really don't think these costumes were ever cleaned and it makes me uncomfortable to have my students wear them, know what I'm saying? SO...I took it upon myself and brought the idea up to the other teachers: why don't I sew a whole set of costumes for our grade level? WHAT WAS I THINKING?
Ok...it really wasn't so terrible....and it really is MY BAD for starting the damn project so late. BUT nevertheless, I was able to punch out an entire Nativity scene that included costumes for Mary, Joseph, three wisemen, and three shepherds. Count 'em...EIGHT! Hey...nevermind that I was still staying late afterschool to work with the drama kids......nevermind that I still had to plan activities for my class....and shit, nevermind that I do have a life to lead...HELLO?
AND.....it would've helped if ALL FOUR teachers in our grade level were around to put in some time and effort. 3 out of 4 helps....but dammit, all 4 would've been fabulous. Anyways....moving on.
Even though the Nativity scene took center stage for about 10 minutes near the end of the program, I have to say....they looked GOOD! Let me boast for a sec, but there was a moment during the show when I just stared at how awesome they looked...and I swear, I wanted to give myself a pat on the back! Now let me just say...those costumes are far from perfect. If you looked at the seams and the hems, they were crooked and coming apart. Hell....I did my best at 3am! Seriously though....sleep was something totally foreign to me for those two weeks....and again, let me just say that I'm SO GLAD I'm done.
Another Moment to Share....
Since we're on the topic of MnM being so glad to be on vacation...there was a day where I completely lost it at school. Lost it, as in, I was brought to tears!
Now I've had bad days with my kids.....in fact, I've had some downright shitty days...but NEVER in all the years that I've taught have I been pushed to the limit to tears! I had to leave my classroom and let it out...OMG, it was so bad. I've never felt so disappointed, angry, frustrated, and lost with a bunch of kids before...and that really makes me sad. It doesn't help when I have one kid who equals 10 bad kids.
I can't put one finger on it, on what make me explode and what made me lose it. It could be a combination of everything- the show, lack of sleep, kids not listening- but at the same time, it could be the fact that these kids are just so spoiled. They don't get it! I mean, yes, yes, they are in school so that I could teach them how to be, but shit, it's like they cannot do anything unless it is word for word instruction. It's as if these kids are freakin' spoon-fed at home...and the worst thing is...the kids have their parents wrapped around their little fingers. So conniving! Argh! Oh yes, I forget to mention that I do have some liars in my class (...and I despise liars....), kids who forge their parents' signatures, and kids with the most rotten attitude. Yes, I'm talkin' about 3rd graders here....and it's pushing me to the limit.
Ya'll know I'd never, but some of them just need a good ass-whoopin', if you ask me!
How many more months until the end of school??? Pray for me....
Saying Goodbye....
This past Monday, my family said goodbye to Lolo Buddy. He passed away on Dec. 11th from cancer and various complications. Lolo had been in the V.A. hospital for almost three years now and each time we visited him, it seemed like he was getting worse. Last last Saturday, my mom, two aunties, and my sis came to visit my lil' place and together, we took the 5-minute drive to visit him. We didn't know that it would be the last time we'd see him alive. His body had deteriorated even more since the last time and because of all the pain he was suffering, was on a morphine drip. They tell me that he was also suffering from dementia, but I know that he did recognize us all when we were there. I did have a moment with him and again, I know that he knew who I was...and gosh, I was so very thankful to have that brief exchange with him.
We had gotten word that his health had turned for the worse and that he probably wouldn't make it to Christmas. On Dec. 11th, my mom was waiting for her younger sis to drive her to visit him. But before they headed to the hospital, they made a quick stop at McDonalds for my lil' cousin. They arrived at the V.A. Hospital twenty minutes after Lolo passed....they just missed his final moments.
The funeral was very emotional...and yet, while everyone was sad to see him go, we were all happy to see his suffering end. A few of us were able to say a few words about Lolo Buddy, myself included.
It's always hard to lose a loved one, but especially at special times of the year like Christmas. But his death brought so many family together.....family we rarely see, if but once a year. Instead of being sad over his passing, I am thankful to have had Lolo Buddy a part of my life. His memory will never fade and he will be missed....and I know that I will see him again someday.
Rest in peace, Lolo Buddy....we miss you and love you....
Yes, so apparently I have the habit of being MIA these days. To be quite honest, it really is out of my hands! Being in my own lil' crib, I have all the time in the world to blog, but danggit, if only my internet connection was on 24/7! Same old story, I know, but limited funds don't allow for me to subscribe just yet. It's ghetto, I know! So if you can imagine, I wake up each morning, head to my laptop, do a little "oh please work, oh please work" lil' chant, and wait those agonizing seconds as the green bar at the bottom of my screen loads. More often than not, it gets to about bar five before that dreaded "cannot display page- please check internet connection" pops up. Hate that shit. It really isn't cool to wake up all anxious like that only to get all frustrated and peeved...gets me swearing up a storm, I tell you! As it is, whenever I DO get connection, I never know for how long the gift will last...lol...and so, let me type away as fast as I can in order to get a posting up....
December Review
School is out for Christmas vacation...thank God! In December alone, we only really had two weeks in session....but those two weeks were pure hell! The last week alone was torture- we had our 3rd Grade Christmas program on Wednesday, our Christmas luncheon on Thursday, and of course, the last day on Friday where all the kiddies are just hyped for vacation to come. 'Tis almost as bad as the actual last day of school...almost.
Christmas programs in itself are a lot of work- so much to prepare, so much practice, and quite honestly, not enough teaching time in the classroom. When I first started teaching, there were six 3rd grade classes. That's a grip of lil' kids, I tell you! But it was also six teachers who each took a responsibility to help make it a success. This year, we have four classes...you'd think it would be easier to organize. You'd THINK. Think again!
I'd rather not get into the details...as it is, the program is over anyways. (Praise the Lord!) But I just had to share the task that I put upon myself. Each year, we've had to borrow costumes from different grade levels and the same old costumes were in rotation. I really don't think these costumes were ever cleaned and it makes me uncomfortable to have my students wear them, know what I'm saying? SO...I took it upon myself and brought the idea up to the other teachers: why don't I sew a whole set of costumes for our grade level? WHAT WAS I THINKING?
Ok...it really wasn't so terrible....and it really is MY BAD for starting the damn project so late. BUT nevertheless, I was able to punch out an entire Nativity scene that included costumes for Mary, Joseph, three wisemen, and three shepherds. Count 'em...EIGHT! Hey...nevermind that I was still staying late afterschool to work with the drama kids......nevermind that I still had to plan activities for my class....and shit, nevermind that I do have a life to lead...HELLO?
AND.....it would've helped if ALL FOUR teachers in our grade level were around to put in some time and effort. 3 out of 4 helps....but dammit, all 4 would've been fabulous. Anyways....moving on.
Even though the Nativity scene took center stage for about 10 minutes near the end of the program, I have to say....they looked GOOD! Let me boast for a sec, but there was a moment during the show when I just stared at how awesome they looked...and I swear, I wanted to give myself a pat on the back! Now let me just say...those costumes are far from perfect. If you looked at the seams and the hems, they were crooked and coming apart. Hell....I did my best at 3am! Seriously though....sleep was something totally foreign to me for those two weeks....and again, let me just say that I'm SO GLAD I'm done.
Another Moment to Share....
Since we're on the topic of MnM being so glad to be on vacation...there was a day where I completely lost it at school. Lost it, as in, I was brought to tears!
Now I've had bad days with my kids.....in fact, I've had some downright shitty days...but NEVER in all the years that I've taught have I been pushed to the limit to tears! I had to leave my classroom and let it out...OMG, it was so bad. I've never felt so disappointed, angry, frustrated, and lost with a bunch of kids before...and that really makes me sad. It doesn't help when I have one kid who equals 10 bad kids.
I can't put one finger on it, on what make me explode and what made me lose it. It could be a combination of everything- the show, lack of sleep, kids not listening- but at the same time, it could be the fact that these kids are just so spoiled. They don't get it! I mean, yes, yes, they are in school so that I could teach them how to be, but shit, it's like they cannot do anything unless it is word for word instruction. It's as if these kids are freakin' spoon-fed at home...and the worst thing is...the kids have their parents wrapped around their little fingers. So conniving! Argh! Oh yes, I forget to mention that I do have some liars in my class (...and I despise liars....), kids who forge their parents' signatures, and kids with the most rotten attitude. Yes, I'm talkin' about 3rd graders here....and it's pushing me to the limit.
Ya'll know I'd never, but some of them just need a good ass-whoopin', if you ask me!
How many more months until the end of school??? Pray for me....
Saying Goodbye....
This past Monday, my family said goodbye to Lolo Buddy. He passed away on Dec. 11th from cancer and various complications. Lolo had been in the V.A. hospital for almost three years now and each time we visited him, it seemed like he was getting worse. Last last Saturday, my mom, two aunties, and my sis came to visit my lil' place and together, we took the 5-minute drive to visit him. We didn't know that it would be the last time we'd see him alive. His body had deteriorated even more since the last time and because of all the pain he was suffering, was on a morphine drip. They tell me that he was also suffering from dementia, but I know that he did recognize us all when we were there. I did have a moment with him and again, I know that he knew who I was...and gosh, I was so very thankful to have that brief exchange with him.
We had gotten word that his health had turned for the worse and that he probably wouldn't make it to Christmas. On Dec. 11th, my mom was waiting for her younger sis to drive her to visit him. But before they headed to the hospital, they made a quick stop at McDonalds for my lil' cousin. They arrived at the V.A. Hospital twenty minutes after Lolo passed....they just missed his final moments.
The funeral was very emotional...and yet, while everyone was sad to see him go, we were all happy to see his suffering end. A few of us were able to say a few words about Lolo Buddy, myself included.
It's always hard to lose a loved one, but especially at special times of the year like Christmas. But his death brought so many family together.....family we rarely see, if but once a year. Instead of being sad over his passing, I am thankful to have had Lolo Buddy a part of my life. His memory will never fade and he will be missed....and I know that I will see him again someday.
Rest in peace, Lolo Buddy....we miss you and love you....
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Born a Fool...Always a Fool...just the story of my life...
Fool Again by Westlife
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dx2mUkZcFpI
Fool Again by Westlife
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dx2mUkZcFpI
Monday, November 26, 2007
The Popeye's Chicken Did It!
...so I was talking to Sha last night...catching up a bit on how she's been doing, how her Thanksgiving went, and how she's been feeling since, well, her baby is due anyday now. Last week, she was already dilated a centimeter and according to some veteran moms, many believe that the other 9 cm would be quick. As we were chatting, she was chowing down on some Popeye's chicken and she was saying how spicy whatever it was that she was eating. I told her, "Spicy? Girl, that's going to make the baby come out for sure!"
I got a text early this morning at 5:15am:
"I'm @ Stanford. Still in labor. Drugs- great!"
Wouldn't you know it...girlfriend went into labor not too long after we talked! Lol!
A huge congratulations to the Sha and Vic on your lil' bundle of joy...after 9 hours of labor, Lauren Paige was born at 10:11am, 6lbs 6oz and 19in long. Yay...I'm an auntie! =)
...so I was talking to Sha last night...catching up a bit on how she's been doing, how her Thanksgiving went, and how she's been feeling since, well, her baby is due anyday now. Last week, she was already dilated a centimeter and according to some veteran moms, many believe that the other 9 cm would be quick. As we were chatting, she was chowing down on some Popeye's chicken and she was saying how spicy whatever it was that she was eating. I told her, "Spicy? Girl, that's going to make the baby come out for sure!"
I got a text early this morning at 5:15am:
"I'm @ Stanford. Still in labor. Drugs- great!"
Wouldn't you know it...girlfriend went into labor not too long after we talked! Lol!
A huge congratulations to the Sha and Vic on your lil' bundle of joy...after 9 hours of labor, Lauren Paige was born at 10:11am, 6lbs 6oz and 19in long. Yay...I'm an auntie! =)
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Much to be Thankful For...
A happy belated Thanksgiving to all! Just when I thought I was getting pretty good at updating, I had to go and get my own place...and as my luck would have it, I am still without internet connection! I tell you, you really don't know how dependent you are on the internet until you are without it...I've felt so disconnected to everything for the past few days, it's driven me crazy!
Thanksgiving has come and gone...and many are still recovering from the craziness of Black Friday...lol...not me! Not this year anyways. While Turkey Day is traditionally a big family party day, this year was the exception. This year found many of us scattered about doing different things and being in different places....and to be quite honest, I was depressingly alone for the most of it. There was a lunch gathering at my Apu's house...and yes, I did have my fill of turkey and mashed potatoes...it was a short, but sweet visit with a few relatives in attendance. For the rest of the night, I spent it quietly at home lying under the covers in my still new bed reading a book. I had this urge to be out and about, to be among family and friends eating until we couldn't eat anymore, drinking up and laughing the night away talking story...but being in my new place wasn't so bad.
A lot of things have been on my mind lately...and of course, with it being Thanksgiving and all, it's the perfect time to reflect about life.
Last Saturday, I headed to Stonestown for some last minute shopping for my godson's baptism where I happened to run into one of my co-worker friends. We chatted briefly, but there was something about the way she looked at me that caught me off guard. She had this sympathetic look and even asked me if I was okay. Confused, I answered that yah, I was feeling fine. When I saw her at school on Monday, she asked me again if I was okay. I had to ask why she was so concerned. And she told me that she was worried how I was handling the upcoming holidays...because she remembered how hard it was for me last year to even take a simple stroll through the mall.
I literally had to take a moment to think back and it hit me, wow...she was right. In fact, it just wasn't the holidays that was difficult, it was the entire year!
2006 was the year of FIRSTS....the first New Year's, Valentine's Day, my birthday, Easter, July 4th, Thanksgiving, and Christmas....all without the hubby. Each holiday that passed was like a knife cutting through my heart...and as Thanksgiving and Christmas rolled around, I just wanted to disappear and die. I was exhausted from the pain and I was tired of trying to act like everything was okay when it really wasn't. Leaving him was, hands down, the hardest decision I have ever made in my life thus far...and as 2006 creeped by day to day, everything about it was "another day without him."
It was rough, I won't lie. My family, friends, and co-workers will attest to that. And I tried...really tried...to move on the best that I could. Each day was a struggle. Getting up every morning in my parents' house was a reminder of what I had left behind in Minnesota....and every night would end in tears and a desperate plea for a sign that I did the right thing.
Thanksgiving 2006: a family-filled evening....and lots and lots of wine. Lol. I pretty much had it in my mind to drink my sorrows away. I didn't get mad drunk, but I did have one glass too many that I remember just feeling chill and relaxed. This time last year, I was still very bitter about the divorce, but on that night, I didn't want to think about my sorry situation. I just wanted to drink...and I did.
2005 was a bad year....but 2006 was just plain shit. 2007 started off awful....even though I spent New Year's with my family, I felt so alone and depressed. I have often thought that I needed a shrink. Perhaps seeking psychological counseling would do me some good...but wouldn't you know it, it was always the financial part of it that held me back. Damn Rando for screwing up our finances! And of course it is me, myself, and I who is taking care of this financial shithole that he was dug us into...thanks dude.
But somewhere along the way, the pain began to hurt a little less each day. It's true when they say that time is the healer It's not a cure-all of any sort because the pain still remains, but the blows are not as damaging as it was when everything first went down. I still cried at night, but it wasn't as frequent; I'd still get melancholy hearing a song on the radio, but I wouldn't dive into the deep depression of before. Things were beginning to look up...and I believe it was only because I allowed it to.
I HAD to go through the shitty stages of depression. I HAD to withdraw from social interactions because at the time, I couldn't handle being around people...much less married couples. The trouble with me is that when my troubles with the hubby first began, I automatically wanted to fix it and by wanting that so badly, I forced myself to accept things as they were. I went from "WTF?" to "Okay dear..." I never let it truly sink in until it was too late. So 2006 was the year of just dealing with it...and again, what a screwed up year that was.
But as Thanksgiving 2007 has come and gone, and with my co-worker's sympathetic concerns fresh in my mind, I realized something so very important...
I'm OKAY.
2007 started off slow, but it quickly gained momentum. Moreso since the big D was finalized, everything else has somehow found its place. The divorce is official; I ran a half-marathon; AND I moved out. Dipping into the waters of the dating pool has been fun and interesting, to say the least, but dammit, the fact that I'm putting myself out there says a lot. OH...and plus, now I've got stories to tell! LOL!
I'm damn proud of where I am today...and not only that, but I am a much happier person. I know that all things happen for a reason and that God has a bigger plan for me. I had to go through what I did for a purpose....and starting from scratch, with literally $20 in my pocket, has helped me appreciate even the littlest things that I used to take for granted. I have been given a second chance at happiness and I'm not going to waste one second of it.
The last time I spoke to now ex-hubby, it started off bad...tempers flared, things were said, blah blah, blah...but one of the last things I said to him was that I forgave him. And I meant it with my whole heart. It takes so much energy to be and stay angry with someone...it's literally exhausting! But I was tired of being angry and bitter....and I didn't want to have all of these negative vibes inside of me. What was done was done...it was now time to move on. I will always be sad as to how things ended, but there's no use in living in the past and wishing for what if's. As I said the words, "I forgive you," it was like a burden was miraculously lifted; it was as if the dark cloud that had been permanently planted above my head finally gave way to the sun. While I may have said it before, saying it this time around felt different. I don't wish him ill-will anymore...lol...yes, wished many things upon him for a while. Hey, I was entitled! But now, all I wish him is good luck.
So Ran, if you're reading this or if your peoples are reading this, maybe you could pass the message along. Ran, I hope you are well. I hope you're moving on and doing something with your life. I hope and pray that you will be able to forgive yourself and concentrate on the three greatest things you have in your life- your kids. I wish they could know how much I love them still and how I would have loved to be part of their lives. We all live and learn...and I hope that you find your happiness one day.
Again, there is much to be thankful for...I'm grateful for my family and friends who have supported me throughout this entire process- I seriously would not have stayed sane without you. I would not have been able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Last, but definitely not least, all praise and thanks goes to God above...my source of strength, of comfort, and of love. With you, all things are possible...
Happy belated Thanksgiving ya'll...hope you enjoyed the long weekend, ate and drank plenty, and gave thanks for all the blessings...peace.
A happy belated Thanksgiving to all! Just when I thought I was getting pretty good at updating, I had to go and get my own place...and as my luck would have it, I am still without internet connection! I tell you, you really don't know how dependent you are on the internet until you are without it...I've felt so disconnected to everything for the past few days, it's driven me crazy!
Thanksgiving has come and gone...and many are still recovering from the craziness of Black Friday...lol...not me! Not this year anyways. While Turkey Day is traditionally a big family party day, this year was the exception. This year found many of us scattered about doing different things and being in different places....and to be quite honest, I was depressingly alone for the most of it. There was a lunch gathering at my Apu's house...and yes, I did have my fill of turkey and mashed potatoes...it was a short, but sweet visit with a few relatives in attendance. For the rest of the night, I spent it quietly at home lying under the covers in my still new bed reading a book. I had this urge to be out and about, to be among family and friends eating until we couldn't eat anymore, drinking up and laughing the night away talking story...but being in my new place wasn't so bad.
A lot of things have been on my mind lately...and of course, with it being Thanksgiving and all, it's the perfect time to reflect about life.
Last Saturday, I headed to Stonestown for some last minute shopping for my godson's baptism where I happened to run into one of my co-worker friends. We chatted briefly, but there was something about the way she looked at me that caught me off guard. She had this sympathetic look and even asked me if I was okay. Confused, I answered that yah, I was feeling fine. When I saw her at school on Monday, she asked me again if I was okay. I had to ask why she was so concerned. And she told me that she was worried how I was handling the upcoming holidays...because she remembered how hard it was for me last year to even take a simple stroll through the mall.
I literally had to take a moment to think back and it hit me, wow...she was right. In fact, it just wasn't the holidays that was difficult, it was the entire year!
2006 was the year of FIRSTS....the first New Year's, Valentine's Day, my birthday, Easter, July 4th, Thanksgiving, and Christmas....all without the hubby. Each holiday that passed was like a knife cutting through my heart...and as Thanksgiving and Christmas rolled around, I just wanted to disappear and die. I was exhausted from the pain and I was tired of trying to act like everything was okay when it really wasn't. Leaving him was, hands down, the hardest decision I have ever made in my life thus far...and as 2006 creeped by day to day, everything about it was "another day without him."
It was rough, I won't lie. My family, friends, and co-workers will attest to that. And I tried...really tried...to move on the best that I could. Each day was a struggle. Getting up every morning in my parents' house was a reminder of what I had left behind in Minnesota....and every night would end in tears and a desperate plea for a sign that I did the right thing.
Thanksgiving 2006: a family-filled evening....and lots and lots of wine. Lol. I pretty much had it in my mind to drink my sorrows away. I didn't get mad drunk, but I did have one glass too many that I remember just feeling chill and relaxed. This time last year, I was still very bitter about the divorce, but on that night, I didn't want to think about my sorry situation. I just wanted to drink...and I did.
2005 was a bad year....but 2006 was just plain shit. 2007 started off awful....even though I spent New Year's with my family, I felt so alone and depressed. I have often thought that I needed a shrink. Perhaps seeking psychological counseling would do me some good...but wouldn't you know it, it was always the financial part of it that held me back. Damn Rando for screwing up our finances! And of course it is me, myself, and I who is taking care of this financial shithole that he was dug us into...thanks dude.
But somewhere along the way, the pain began to hurt a little less each day. It's true when they say that time is the healer It's not a cure-all of any sort because the pain still remains, but the blows are not as damaging as it was when everything first went down. I still cried at night, but it wasn't as frequent; I'd still get melancholy hearing a song on the radio, but I wouldn't dive into the deep depression of before. Things were beginning to look up...and I believe it was only because I allowed it to.
I HAD to go through the shitty stages of depression. I HAD to withdraw from social interactions because at the time, I couldn't handle being around people...much less married couples. The trouble with me is that when my troubles with the hubby first began, I automatically wanted to fix it and by wanting that so badly, I forced myself to accept things as they were. I went from "WTF?" to "Okay dear..." I never let it truly sink in until it was too late. So 2006 was the year of just dealing with it...and again, what a screwed up year that was.
But as Thanksgiving 2007 has come and gone, and with my co-worker's sympathetic concerns fresh in my mind, I realized something so very important...
I'm OKAY.
2007 started off slow, but it quickly gained momentum. Moreso since the big D was finalized, everything else has somehow found its place. The divorce is official; I ran a half-marathon; AND I moved out. Dipping into the waters of the dating pool has been fun and interesting, to say the least, but dammit, the fact that I'm putting myself out there says a lot. OH...and plus, now I've got stories to tell! LOL!
I'm damn proud of where I am today...and not only that, but I am a much happier person. I know that all things happen for a reason and that God has a bigger plan for me. I had to go through what I did for a purpose....and starting from scratch, with literally $20 in my pocket, has helped me appreciate even the littlest things that I used to take for granted. I have been given a second chance at happiness and I'm not going to waste one second of it.
The last time I spoke to now ex-hubby, it started off bad...tempers flared, things were said, blah blah, blah...but one of the last things I said to him was that I forgave him. And I meant it with my whole heart. It takes so much energy to be and stay angry with someone...it's literally exhausting! But I was tired of being angry and bitter....and I didn't want to have all of these negative vibes inside of me. What was done was done...it was now time to move on. I will always be sad as to how things ended, but there's no use in living in the past and wishing for what if's. As I said the words, "I forgive you," it was like a burden was miraculously lifted; it was as if the dark cloud that had been permanently planted above my head finally gave way to the sun. While I may have said it before, saying it this time around felt different. I don't wish him ill-will anymore...lol...yes, wished many things upon him for a while. Hey, I was entitled! But now, all I wish him is good luck.
So Ran, if you're reading this or if your peoples are reading this, maybe you could pass the message along. Ran, I hope you are well. I hope you're moving on and doing something with your life. I hope and pray that you will be able to forgive yourself and concentrate on the three greatest things you have in your life- your kids. I wish they could know how much I love them still and how I would have loved to be part of their lives. We all live and learn...and I hope that you find your happiness one day.
Again, there is much to be thankful for...I'm grateful for my family and friends who have supported me throughout this entire process- I seriously would not have stayed sane without you. I would not have been able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Last, but definitely not least, all praise and thanks goes to God above...my source of strength, of comfort, and of love. With you, all things are possible...
Happy belated Thanksgiving ya'll...hope you enjoyed the long weekend, ate and drank plenty, and gave thanks for all the blessings...peace.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
The Longest Shortest Week
It shouldn't make sense, but it does. Monday was Veteran's Day, a day in which MnM took advantage of the beautiful weather to go running. As Queen Procrastinator, I took the liberty of waiting until Monday to work on my report cards. As chance would have it, Mrs. Voodoo and her Mango Man called and asked if I wanted to head to IKEA. Seeing that I haven't hung out with them in a while AND knowing what endless bargains lay in store for me there, I had to go. Lol! Keeping in mind that I am on a budget, I had to resist that temptation of putting this or that in the cart and stick to only the necessities. To my surprise, Mrs. Voodoo would NOT let me pay and insisted that my pick of the litter would be their housewarming gifts to me...THANKS YOU GUYS!!!
After we were IKEA'd out, we headed to the Bay Street shopping area in Emeryville...and wow! This was really the first time I've walked around and it really is nice. Plus with Christmas coming up, everything is all lit up so beautifully. Hahah...me and pretty lights! (I'm easily impressed...). Once the shopping, browsing, and talking story was done, we headed back into da city.
Sometime after the IKEA run, I started to feel really hot. My head started pounding, my stomach was hurting, and my energy level just dropped. I worked on report cards for a bit, but after a while, I couldn't take it anymore and headed to bed. The following morning, I woke up freezing! Even with two blankets AND a space heater, my entire body felt chilly.
I called work and told them I wasn't coming in. As nice as it would've been to relax, this week was SO NOT the week to be sick because of Parent-Teacher conferences. I basically had to reschedule the entire day which means that this coming Monday and Tuesday, I am in for a long day after school. Oh joy...
The conferences that I did have after returning to school on Wednesday were actually very cool. I think I speak for all the teachers in that we can only hope for supportive parents. Having that ONE difficult one could easily make or break the school year. I'm dreading one conference with a parent who has the potential to be THAT parent...
I don't care who you are...no one is perfect in this world. But if you throw the fact that you are a Christian in my face and tell me that your son can do no wrong because he is a Christian, but at the same time find the energy to talk shit about another kid in the class? I'm sorry, the respect factor has been lost. This "holier-than-thou" attitude of some Christians really piss me off! Your kid may seem "perfect" in your eyes, but he's still 8 years old. A child so young cannot discern right from wrong ALL THE TIME just because he is a Christian. Goodness gracious me...
On a lighter note, while it's the mother who can be a handful, the father is actually really nice. Nice, but beginning to be that creepy, sorta nice. Lol! I've basically known this family for quite a while from my afternoon program days. I taught the oldest daughter and I would see the dad pick her up almost every day. Throughout the years, he'd always say hello and we'd have little conversations here and there. But now that his youngest and only son is in my class, he's in my classroom often. Sometimes I'll be writing the homework on the board (and I have to use a step-stool 'cuz I'm so damn short...), and when I'm about to step down, he'll be right behind me! I mean, I wouldn't even know he was there and he'll just say "Good morning" and walk away. Strange, I tell you! I actually try and avoid unnecessary conversation if at all possible now. But just this past Friday, he came up to me and handed me an envelope. Turns out that he works for Gap and gave me a whole bunch of Friends & Family Discount! That was really nice of him, right? Now if only his wife could be so cool... In any case, this conference just so happens to be my last one on Tuesday. Wish me luck, ya'll!
Ireland
As of late, I've had this affinity towards anything having to do with Ireland. Hmmm...I wonder why??? Ha. My sis, BADMama, told me about this music group from Ireland- WESTLIFE. I feel like I've heard of them, but never took the time to see what they were about. Turns out that Simon Cowell put them together years ago! (hmmm...just like IL DIVO!). Anyways, they're a pop band that many would probably compare to the BSB and they've got some really good songs (if you like pop...) AND goshdarnit...they are fine! Lol...a little eye candy don't hurt anyone, right? I've been spending time on youtube just watching their videos and man...hubba hubba! Plus watching their interviews and hearing their accents....hothothothothot!
....totally random factoid from my sis and BruthaMan....they seem to think that WHEN (not if...) I do find that someone special, it's going to be someone non-Filipino...now if there's ever a time that they had ESP, I have to say- I'm down with that....and hell, if he happens to be from Ireland...all the better! ;-)
It shouldn't make sense, but it does. Monday was Veteran's Day, a day in which MnM took advantage of the beautiful weather to go running. As Queen Procrastinator, I took the liberty of waiting until Monday to work on my report cards. As chance would have it, Mrs. Voodoo and her Mango Man called and asked if I wanted to head to IKEA. Seeing that I haven't hung out with them in a while AND knowing what endless bargains lay in store for me there, I had to go. Lol! Keeping in mind that I am on a budget, I had to resist that temptation of putting this or that in the cart and stick to only the necessities. To my surprise, Mrs. Voodoo would NOT let me pay and insisted that my pick of the litter would be their housewarming gifts to me...THANKS YOU GUYS!!!
After we were IKEA'd out, we headed to the Bay Street shopping area in Emeryville...and wow! This was really the first time I've walked around and it really is nice. Plus with Christmas coming up, everything is all lit up so beautifully. Hahah...me and pretty lights! (I'm easily impressed...). Once the shopping, browsing, and talking story was done, we headed back into da city.
Sometime after the IKEA run, I started to feel really hot. My head started pounding, my stomach was hurting, and my energy level just dropped. I worked on report cards for a bit, but after a while, I couldn't take it anymore and headed to bed. The following morning, I woke up freezing! Even with two blankets AND a space heater, my entire body felt chilly.
I called work and told them I wasn't coming in. As nice as it would've been to relax, this week was SO NOT the week to be sick because of Parent-Teacher conferences. I basically had to reschedule the entire day which means that this coming Monday and Tuesday, I am in for a long day after school. Oh joy...
The conferences that I did have after returning to school on Wednesday were actually very cool. I think I speak for all the teachers in that we can only hope for supportive parents. Having that ONE difficult one could easily make or break the school year. I'm dreading one conference with a parent who has the potential to be THAT parent...
I don't care who you are...no one is perfect in this world. But if you throw the fact that you are a Christian in my face and tell me that your son can do no wrong because he is a Christian, but at the same time find the energy to talk shit about another kid in the class? I'm sorry, the respect factor has been lost. This "holier-than-thou" attitude of some Christians really piss me off! Your kid may seem "perfect" in your eyes, but he's still 8 years old. A child so young cannot discern right from wrong ALL THE TIME just because he is a Christian. Goodness gracious me...
On a lighter note, while it's the mother who can be a handful, the father is actually really nice. Nice, but beginning to be that creepy, sorta nice. Lol! I've basically known this family for quite a while from my afternoon program days. I taught the oldest daughter and I would see the dad pick her up almost every day. Throughout the years, he'd always say hello and we'd have little conversations here and there. But now that his youngest and only son is in my class, he's in my classroom often. Sometimes I'll be writing the homework on the board (and I have to use a step-stool 'cuz I'm so damn short...), and when I'm about to step down, he'll be right behind me! I mean, I wouldn't even know he was there and he'll just say "Good morning" and walk away. Strange, I tell you! I actually try and avoid unnecessary conversation if at all possible now. But just this past Friday, he came up to me and handed me an envelope. Turns out that he works for Gap and gave me a whole bunch of Friends & Family Discount! That was really nice of him, right? Now if only his wife could be so cool... In any case, this conference just so happens to be my last one on Tuesday. Wish me luck, ya'll!
Ireland
As of late, I've had this affinity towards anything having to do with Ireland. Hmmm...I wonder why??? Ha. My sis, BADMama, told me about this music group from Ireland- WESTLIFE. I feel like I've heard of them, but never took the time to see what they were about. Turns out that Simon Cowell put them together years ago! (hmmm...just like IL DIVO!). Anyways, they're a pop band that many would probably compare to the BSB and they've got some really good songs (if you like pop...) AND goshdarnit...they are fine! Lol...a little eye candy don't hurt anyone, right? I've been spending time on youtube just watching their videos and man...hubba hubba! Plus watching their interviews and hearing their accents....hothothothothot!
....totally random factoid from my sis and BruthaMan....they seem to think that WHEN (not if...) I do find that someone special, it's going to be someone non-Filipino...now if there's ever a time that they had ESP, I have to say- I'm down with that....and hell, if he happens to be from Ireland...all the better! ;-)
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
I Got Tagged!
Thanks Twin!
1. Name one person who made you laugh last night. --my sis, BADMama
2. What were you doing at 0800? --Walking with Ethan's Mommy down to our classrooms with coffee and breakfast in hand.
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? --Getting frustrated with the "free" internet connection...lol.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? --"For the love of God!" and "Are you kidding me?" (in reference to this internet connection...)
6. How many beverages did you have today? --three (coffee, Powerade, and chocolate soy milk)
7. What color is your hairbrush? --I use a comb
8. What was the last thing you paid for? --some groceries from Safeway
9. Where were you last night? --home...although I did leave to get some El Burrito for din-din
10. What color is your front door? --brown
11. Where do you keep your change? --in my wallet, but when it gets too full, I put 'em all in a vase
12. What's the weather like today? --it was actually a really nice day- sunny and warm
13. What's the best ice-cream flavor? --Mitchell's Mango...duh!
14. What excites you? --finding parking close to my new place in the Sunset...lol.
15. Do you want to cut your hair? --i do need a trim, so yes.
16. Are you over the age of 25? --I've been honey...
17. Do you talk a lot? --yes, i think so.
18. Do you watch the O.C.? --no
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? --plenty of 'em!
20. Do you make up your own words? --yes
21. Are you a jealous person? --unfortunately
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'. --Ana
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'. --Kai
24. Who's the first person on your received call list? --Ethan's Mommy
25. What does the last text message you received say? --"Got it today...pity I missed that now!"
26. Do you chew on your straw? --ha, i do...bad habit
27. Do you have curly hair? --no, but it's naturally wavy (same as Twin Rho!)
28. Where's the next place you're going to? --um...the bathroom..lol
29. Who's the rudest person in your life? --gee...the list goes on...lol
30. What was the last thing you ate? --toast bread with peanut butter
31. Will you get married in the future? --i hope so!
32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks? --Love Actually
33. Is there anyone you like right now? --yes
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? --about an hour ago
35. Are you currently depressed? --nah...no reason to be
36. Did you cry today? --almost...got a paper cut!
37. Why did you answer and post this? --'cuz I'm a s-u-c-k-e-r for these surveys! lol!
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey.--Ethan's Mommy, Sha, RyceGirl, Triple D, and Triangoolar.
Thanks Twin!
1. Name one person who made you laugh last night. --my sis, BADMama
2. What were you doing at 0800? --Walking with Ethan's Mommy down to our classrooms with coffee and breakfast in hand.
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? --Getting frustrated with the "free" internet connection...lol.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? --"For the love of God!" and "Are you kidding me?" (in reference to this internet connection...)
6. How many beverages did you have today? --three (coffee, Powerade, and chocolate soy milk)
7. What color is your hairbrush? --I use a comb
8. What was the last thing you paid for? --some groceries from Safeway
9. Where were you last night? --home...although I did leave to get some El Burrito for din-din
10. What color is your front door? --brown
11. Where do you keep your change? --in my wallet, but when it gets too full, I put 'em all in a vase
12. What's the weather like today? --it was actually a really nice day- sunny and warm
13. What's the best ice-cream flavor? --Mitchell's Mango...duh!
14. What excites you? --finding parking close to my new place in the Sunset...lol.
15. Do you want to cut your hair? --i do need a trim, so yes.
16. Are you over the age of 25? --I've been honey...
17. Do you talk a lot? --yes, i think so.
18. Do you watch the O.C.? --no
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? --plenty of 'em!
20. Do you make up your own words? --yes
21. Are you a jealous person? --unfortunately
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'. --Ana
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'. --Kai
24. Who's the first person on your received call list? --Ethan's Mommy
25. What does the last text message you received say? --"Got it today...pity I missed that now!"
26. Do you chew on your straw? --ha, i do...bad habit
27. Do you have curly hair? --no, but it's naturally wavy (same as Twin Rho!)
28. Where's the next place you're going to? --um...the bathroom..lol
29. Who's the rudest person in your life? --gee...the list goes on...lol
30. What was the last thing you ate? --toast bread with peanut butter
31. Will you get married in the future? --i hope so!
32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks? --Love Actually
33. Is there anyone you like right now? --yes
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? --about an hour ago
35. Are you currently depressed? --nah...no reason to be
36. Did you cry today? --almost...got a paper cut!
37. Why did you answer and post this? --'cuz I'm a s-u-c-k-e-r for these surveys! lol!
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey.--Ethan's Mommy, Sha, RyceGirl, Triple D, and Triangoolar.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Damn Them All!
...the Internet for keeping me up late last night...
...my new bed for being so comfy that I slept in two more hours than I should have...
...the weather for being so perfect that I HAD to take advantage of it to take a light jog...
...my eagerness to run that I forgot to apply sunblock...shiet, I'm going to pay for that one...
...my stupidity for not bringing any water/Powerade with me...I saw stars again!...
...the corner store with the $5 credit card minimum...dude, I just need a drink so I don't pass out!...
...the corner store (again!) for having the NEW Peanut Butter Twix candy that I had to buy TWO...there goes my workout! Double Damn!...
...the 6 blocks I live from the beach...just when you think the workout is done, there's still that extra distance to get back home...ugh...
...the break that I took after the marathon...the couple of weeks of NOT running has made a huge difference! I feel that I'm almost back to square one...almost. Must....keep...up...with...it...
...the report cards...double, triple, quadruple d-a-m-n...
*Why the hell are these things conspiring against me??? I need a coffee to think this through...LOL!*
...the Internet for keeping me up late last night...
...my new bed for being so comfy that I slept in two more hours than I should have...
...the weather for being so perfect that I HAD to take advantage of it to take a light jog...
...my eagerness to run that I forgot to apply sunblock...shiet, I'm going to pay for that one...
...my stupidity for not bringing any water/Powerade with me...I saw stars again!...
...the corner store with the $5 credit card minimum...dude, I just need a drink so I don't pass out!...
...the corner store (again!) for having the NEW Peanut Butter Twix candy that I had to buy TWO...there goes my workout! Double Damn!...
...the 6 blocks I live from the beach...just when you think the workout is done, there's still that extra distance to get back home...ugh...
...the break that I took after the marathon...the couple of weeks of NOT running has made a huge difference! I feel that I'm almost back to square one...almost. Must....keep...up...with...it...
...the report cards...double, triple, quadruple d-a-m-n...
*Why the hell are these things conspiring against me??? I need a coffee to think this through...LOL!*
MnM's NOT Holiday
I admit it. I procrastinate. Big time. And that is why on this Veteran's Day holiday...while others are relaxing, doing their thang, going shopping, playing at the park, and whatnot, MnM will be (SHOULD be...) working on report cards. Parent-teacher conferences are all this week...and honestly, there are a couple of parents whom I am d-r-e-a-d-i-n-g to meet with.
Apparently not everyone has the day off...lol...a perk of being a teacher.
I am hoping that it will rain tomorrow. That way, I won't be tempted to head to the beach. lol! I'm in for a couple of all-nighters...wish me luck ya'll...
I admit it. I procrastinate. Big time. And that is why on this Veteran's Day holiday...while others are relaxing, doing their thang, going shopping, playing at the park, and whatnot, MnM will be (SHOULD be...) working on report cards. Parent-teacher conferences are all this week...and honestly, there are a couple of parents whom I am d-r-e-a-d-i-n-g to meet with.
Apparently not everyone has the day off...lol...a perk of being a teacher.
I am hoping that it will rain tomorrow. That way, I won't be tempted to head to the beach. lol! I'm in for a couple of all-nighters...wish me luck ya'll...
Sunday, November 11, 2007
The Most Confusing Day...
Today had the potential to be one of those really great days. After an entire day of rain yesterday, I was surprised to wake up to sunny skies. This weather has been so unpredictable lately...even more, it's disillusioning...gads, is that a word? Anyways, as nice as it looked out, it felt freakin' cold.
My bed was delivered today...thanks Mom! Not that I minded sleeping on the couch...it's mighty comfy. I did, however, really hate sleeping on the daybed at my parent's house. The mattress lost its firmness years ago and every move, every turn, every breath, it would creak! Yes, yes, be thankful that I even had anything to sleep on, but still, it wasn't the most comfortable for my already bad back.
So I was supposed to hang out with a friend today...but because of miscommunication via texting (..."miscommunitexting..?"), it went from yes, we're hanging out today to the totally opposite end of the spectrum. Within a few hours time, I seriously thought this person didn't want anything to do with me! WTF went wrong? It all started with a text gone awry...WHY we didn't just call each other up to confirm plans is beyond me! What was supposed to be a cool day to hang out turned out to be back-and-forth texts from hell. Lol...I laugh about it now, but at the time, each time I'd get a text, my reaction would be like, "Where the hell did THAT come from?"
I tell you, as convenient texting is, it's impossible to distinguish tone. Just like instant messaging, right? A completely innocent text could easily be construed for something totally different than from what you originally meant it to mean. That is exactly what happened today...and it wasn't cute. It was damn near confusing and I'll admit, disheartening.
I decided to see this person anyways...and we both admitted that we were confused as to WHAT exactly went down. After talking about it and laughing it off the next minute, it hit me how much time we wasted all because of miscommunitexting...ha, I should coin that term...that is, if it hasn't been invented yet! It was a useless and unnecessary "argument"...if we can even call it that. While it could've been a great day to hang out, the day wasn't completely wasted. We ended up going to dinner and laughing about the whole thing over drinks. Still...for that brief period, I was in a complete state of confusion.
The lesson? Do not rely on texting...CALL the person up. It will avoid any unnecessary miscommunication.
And hell, it will probably save time and heartache in the end...LOL!
Today had the potential to be one of those really great days. After an entire day of rain yesterday, I was surprised to wake up to sunny skies. This weather has been so unpredictable lately...even more, it's disillusioning...gads, is that a word? Anyways, as nice as it looked out, it felt freakin' cold.
My bed was delivered today...thanks Mom! Not that I minded sleeping on the couch...it's mighty comfy. I did, however, really hate sleeping on the daybed at my parent's house. The mattress lost its firmness years ago and every move, every turn, every breath, it would creak! Yes, yes, be thankful that I even had anything to sleep on, but still, it wasn't the most comfortable for my already bad back.
So I was supposed to hang out with a friend today...but because of miscommunication via texting (..."miscommunitexting..?"), it went from yes, we're hanging out today to the totally opposite end of the spectrum. Within a few hours time, I seriously thought this person didn't want anything to do with me! WTF went wrong? It all started with a text gone awry...WHY we didn't just call each other up to confirm plans is beyond me! What was supposed to be a cool day to hang out turned out to be back-and-forth texts from hell. Lol...I laugh about it now, but at the time, each time I'd get a text, my reaction would be like, "Where the hell did THAT come from?"
I tell you, as convenient texting is, it's impossible to distinguish tone. Just like instant messaging, right? A completely innocent text could easily be construed for something totally different than from what you originally meant it to mean. That is exactly what happened today...and it wasn't cute. It was damn near confusing and I'll admit, disheartening.
I decided to see this person anyways...and we both admitted that we were confused as to WHAT exactly went down. After talking about it and laughing it off the next minute, it hit me how much time we wasted all because of miscommunitexting...ha, I should coin that term...that is, if it hasn't been invented yet! It was a useless and unnecessary "argument"...if we can even call it that. While it could've been a great day to hang out, the day wasn't completely wasted. We ended up going to dinner and laughing about the whole thing over drinks. Still...for that brief period, I was in a complete state of confusion.
The lesson? Do not rely on texting...CALL the person up. It will avoid any unnecessary miscommunication.
And hell, it will probably save time and heartache in the end...LOL!
School Update
School on Friday was "interesting." It was apparent that everyone was on edge and more alert as usual. Turns out that employee was "let go," but something tells me that this isn't the end. While the school staff has not been formally told about what's going on, I did talk to one of the higher-ups of Administration...and I do not agree with how everything was handled. First of all, it's been established that this employee has not been taking her perscribed medication. This has resulted in major mood shifts and bouts of paranoia where she believes that everyone is against her. I wasn't aware, but earlier in the year, her husband passed away. She had been seen talking to herself, but some are thinking that she is talking to her deceased spouse. She has also been warning people to stop bugging her husband because he's so busy...this showing that perhaps she has not accepted or is still trying to deal with the loss of her husband. With this mental and emotional instability, I do believe that her presence at school puts the safety of the students and staff in jeopardy.
At the same time, I firmly believe that she is in need of some serious help and support....her being fired (in the presence of a police officer) doesn't make matters better. She probably feels betrayed after having worked at school for so many years, too. I think suspension would've been better...give her a mini-vacation, use that time to hold an emergency staff meeting, and really look into any possible solutions. But now, on top of her instability, we're thinking anger, bitterness, and possibly hate. Okay, they asked for her keys upon terminating her, but does that guarantee that she won't be back? That's what I'm worried about.
Thankfully we have this three-day holiday...maybe emotions will cool down, maybe not. All I know is that Admin could've handled this better. As thankful as I am knowing that she won't be around the students, I am saddened for her. I continue to pray that she gets the proper help through the right channels and that she will not take her anger out on anyone.
MnM's Crib
I spent the night at my place for the very first time on Friday...I was stoked! As I slowly move the rest of my belongings in, the place gets a tad cozier each time. Spending the night was an impulsive decision and I wasn't quite prepared...for example, it would've been PERFECT if I had brought my lil' portable heater because it was DAMN COLD. Lol!
I woke up with the intention of going running (since I'm so close to the beach and all...), but dude, it was raining! Rain the entire day isn't a total loss- to be honest, it's actually romantic. Just makes you want to stay in your pj's all day lounging in bed...
Blockbuster Night
Not that I go to Blockbuster anymore...hell, I don't even do the NetFlix thing...but I have built up my own lil' DVD collection and tonight was the perfect night to hang out and watch. While I may not have my own TV and DVD player, my laptop has served its purpose well in that department. I popped in "Best Man"- always a good laugh out loud comedy with some drama and a kick ass soundtrack. I can't tell you how many times I've watched this movie, but somehow, I haven't gotten sick of it.
"Love Actually" was my other choice. I swear, I love this movie! It would seem perfect to watch this during Christmas...and I'll probably watch it again next month. But man..."...love is all around me..." could be somewhat depressing. But not as depressing as it was LAST Christmas! No, there really is nothing for me to be depressed about simply because this year, 2007, has been MY year...and 2008 is going to be even better.
It's such a feel good movie...and it gets me every time. I ESPECIALLY love that one scene with Keira Knightly where her husband's best friend comes to the door with all of the written signs that basically declares his love for her. And he does it without any hope or expectation in return...he does it because it's Christmas (and at Christmas, you tell the truth...). It melts my heart! Make me wish that someone could look at me the way he looks at her...
When I first watched "Love Actually" for the first time, I remember thinking that there were too many little stories to follow...but it just goes to show how LOVE can be felt on so many different levels and capacities.
Anyways...with the Christmas holidays coming up, it makes me wonder what things I should share "because it's Christmas." I would definitely be putting myself out there...and yet, I should do so without hope or agenda. No matter what the outcome, I should take the chance...just because.
School on Friday was "interesting." It was apparent that everyone was on edge and more alert as usual. Turns out that employee was "let go," but something tells me that this isn't the end. While the school staff has not been formally told about what's going on, I did talk to one of the higher-ups of Administration...and I do not agree with how everything was handled. First of all, it's been established that this employee has not been taking her perscribed medication. This has resulted in major mood shifts and bouts of paranoia where she believes that everyone is against her. I wasn't aware, but earlier in the year, her husband passed away. She had been seen talking to herself, but some are thinking that she is talking to her deceased spouse. She has also been warning people to stop bugging her husband because he's so busy...this showing that perhaps she has not accepted or is still trying to deal with the loss of her husband. With this mental and emotional instability, I do believe that her presence at school puts the safety of the students and staff in jeopardy.
At the same time, I firmly believe that she is in need of some serious help and support....her being fired (in the presence of a police officer) doesn't make matters better. She probably feels betrayed after having worked at school for so many years, too. I think suspension would've been better...give her a mini-vacation, use that time to hold an emergency staff meeting, and really look into any possible solutions. But now, on top of her instability, we're thinking anger, bitterness, and possibly hate. Okay, they asked for her keys upon terminating her, but does that guarantee that she won't be back? That's what I'm worried about.
Thankfully we have this three-day holiday...maybe emotions will cool down, maybe not. All I know is that Admin could've handled this better. As thankful as I am knowing that she won't be around the students, I am saddened for her. I continue to pray that she gets the proper help through the right channels and that she will not take her anger out on anyone.
MnM's Crib
I spent the night at my place for the very first time on Friday...I was stoked! As I slowly move the rest of my belongings in, the place gets a tad cozier each time. Spending the night was an impulsive decision and I wasn't quite prepared...for example, it would've been PERFECT if I had brought my lil' portable heater because it was DAMN COLD. Lol!
I woke up with the intention of going running (since I'm so close to the beach and all...), but dude, it was raining! Rain the entire day isn't a total loss- to be honest, it's actually romantic. Just makes you want to stay in your pj's all day lounging in bed...
Blockbuster Night
Not that I go to Blockbuster anymore...hell, I don't even do the NetFlix thing...but I have built up my own lil' DVD collection and tonight was the perfect night to hang out and watch. While I may not have my own TV and DVD player, my laptop has served its purpose well in that department. I popped in "Best Man"- always a good laugh out loud comedy with some drama and a kick ass soundtrack. I can't tell you how many times I've watched this movie, but somehow, I haven't gotten sick of it.
"Love Actually" was my other choice. I swear, I love this movie! It would seem perfect to watch this during Christmas...and I'll probably watch it again next month. But man..."...love is all around me..." could be somewhat depressing. But not as depressing as it was LAST Christmas! No, there really is nothing for me to be depressed about simply because this year, 2007, has been MY year...and 2008 is going to be even better.
It's such a feel good movie...and it gets me every time. I ESPECIALLY love that one scene with Keira Knightly where her husband's best friend comes to the door with all of the written signs that basically declares his love for her. And he does it without any hope or expectation in return...he does it because it's Christmas (and at Christmas, you tell the truth...). It melts my heart! Make me wish that someone could look at me the way he looks at her...
When I first watched "Love Actually" for the first time, I remember thinking that there were too many little stories to follow...but it just goes to show how LOVE can be felt on so many different levels and capacities.
Anyways...with the Christmas holidays coming up, it makes me wonder what things I should share "because it's Christmas." I would definitely be putting myself out there...and yet, I should do so without hope or agenda. No matter what the outcome, I should take the chance...just because.
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Say a Lil' Prayer...
So there's drama unfolding at work...and it's gotten to the point where paranoia has begun to set in on people's nerves. Apparently there is an employee who has become emotionally and mentally unstable as of late...and because of this, her work has suffered. Administration has taken note and as far as I believe, she was going to be let go soon. This person has been found talking to herself, being belligerent to co-workers, and muttering sinister-like comments. All of this is news to me...I do see this person around school, but my interactions with her consist of everyday greetings of hello and how are you. Until yesterday, others have commented that they have noticed a change in her- unfriendly and almost mean demeanor, lots of dark colored clothing, rapid loss of weight, and disinterest in doing her job. The more people talked about it, the more nervous I began to feel about this particular person being around children.
More so, the nervousness has led me to think of the worst. It's like what we hear in the news...a disgruntled worker returns to the place of employment and unleashes her rage. Then people would be interviewed and would only have nice things to say or how they would never in a million years believe she could do such something so horrific. I'm hoping that I'm jumping the gun here. But with the MOST recent events - she tried to slap someone during lunch today AND she muttered the comment "...just you wait and see..." Egads! What does that mean? It's downright scary!
I'm troubled that Administration "knew" of her instability and yet, failed to inform the teachers. What the hell were they waiting for? Were they waiting for something serious to happen? You would THINK that the safety of the children would be the first priority, right???
There was a period of about 20 minutes where a few of us teachers began to panic. After recess, we bring the students back down to their classes. A fellow 3rd grade teacher wasn't in her room. Okay, no big deal, she was probably in the restroom. After 5 minutes, she had not returned yet. Hmmmm...strange. She's usually in her room. Ten minutes pass and still no sign of her. I call the Front Office to see if she was there, but no one has seen her. Ethan's Mommy suggests we call her cell, but I rarely see her carry it around with her. We check the other floors and ask passing teachers if they've seen her. Negative! Okay....15 minutes have passed and we really start to worry. By this time, the one thing that kept popping in my head was, "Goodness gracious...she's been "taken" by so-and-so and she's in trouble." In a sick way, I was almost expecting to hear someone scream that she's been "found." Ugh. Luckily, she finally turned up- all safe and sound! She had been talking to an administrator in a downstairs office...and even said that she saw me walk by! Girl, I was looking for you, I told her!
This is NOT the way to feel at work! It's nerve-racking and again, it's downright scary! I hope and pray that Admin takes care of this matter...not just for that person's sake, but for the safety of our students. I would hate to see anything happen to these innocent kids...so say a prayer, ya'll....hope that Friday will be a smooth and uneventful day....and that this person will receive the proper help and treatment necessary.
So there's drama unfolding at work...and it's gotten to the point where paranoia has begun to set in on people's nerves. Apparently there is an employee who has become emotionally and mentally unstable as of late...and because of this, her work has suffered. Administration has taken note and as far as I believe, she was going to be let go soon. This person has been found talking to herself, being belligerent to co-workers, and muttering sinister-like comments. All of this is news to me...I do see this person around school, but my interactions with her consist of everyday greetings of hello and how are you. Until yesterday, others have commented that they have noticed a change in her- unfriendly and almost mean demeanor, lots of dark colored clothing, rapid loss of weight, and disinterest in doing her job. The more people talked about it, the more nervous I began to feel about this particular person being around children.
More so, the nervousness has led me to think of the worst. It's like what we hear in the news...a disgruntled worker returns to the place of employment and unleashes her rage. Then people would be interviewed and would only have nice things to say or how they would never in a million years believe she could do such something so horrific. I'm hoping that I'm jumping the gun here. But with the MOST recent events - she tried to slap someone during lunch today AND she muttered the comment "...just you wait and see..." Egads! What does that mean? It's downright scary!
I'm troubled that Administration "knew" of her instability and yet, failed to inform the teachers. What the hell were they waiting for? Were they waiting for something serious to happen? You would THINK that the safety of the children would be the first priority, right???
There was a period of about 20 minutes where a few of us teachers began to panic. After recess, we bring the students back down to their classes. A fellow 3rd grade teacher wasn't in her room. Okay, no big deal, she was probably in the restroom. After 5 minutes, she had not returned yet. Hmmmm...strange. She's usually in her room. Ten minutes pass and still no sign of her. I call the Front Office to see if she was there, but no one has seen her. Ethan's Mommy suggests we call her cell, but I rarely see her carry it around with her. We check the other floors and ask passing teachers if they've seen her. Negative! Okay....15 minutes have passed and we really start to worry. By this time, the one thing that kept popping in my head was, "Goodness gracious...she's been "taken" by so-and-so and she's in trouble." In a sick way, I was almost expecting to hear someone scream that she's been "found." Ugh. Luckily, she finally turned up- all safe and sound! She had been talking to an administrator in a downstairs office...and even said that she saw me walk by! Girl, I was looking for you, I told her!
This is NOT the way to feel at work! It's nerve-racking and again, it's downright scary! I hope and pray that Admin takes care of this matter...not just for that person's sake, but for the safety of our students. I would hate to see anything happen to these innocent kids...so say a prayer, ya'll....hope that Friday will be a smooth and uneventful day....and that this person will receive the proper help and treatment necessary.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Finding the Inspiration
Can I get an AMEN?
Last week, I attended a Christian concert in Fremont sponsored by KFAX (1100 AM radio). The featured artist was the Hillsong praise and worship team from London. Hillsong is well-known and when I found out that they would be here in the Bay, I knew that I had to see them. In fact, my very first Christian/praise & worship cd that I ever bought was from Hillsong. I had actually gone to a Christian warehouse and spent some time at a listening station until I found one that "spoke" to me...and this was before I "discovered" Christian rock...yes, there IS such a thing! The cd that I bought was very mellow, yet powerful.
Some people don't realize that Christian music can be "cool" and that you can totally rock out to it. If some outsider were to describe the vibe of the night, they would tell you how people were on their feet jumping around and how the energy in the room was electric. At the same time, you see people "getting their praise on" with arms lifted high and closed eyes. One can't help but let the music touch your soul and the words of the song speak to your heart. Plus, there really is something about being at a Christian concert. Not to say that all the people in attendance believe that they are all perfect; rather, we are all there because we know that we are IMperfect and in need of Him. When that realization of us being a broken people hits me, I can't help but feel grateful that we're not left alone in this world to deal on our own. It's enough to bring tears to my eyes thinking of the grace He gives us to go on, despite how unworthy we are. We don't deserve His goodness...yet He gives it to us for free. We are all different in how we walk with God, in how we pray to God, and in how we worship Him...it's all good. And for many people, listening to Christian music may be "too much" for them. To each his own, right? But it's interesting how a concert or a person's testimony could speak volumes...and even moreso that if feels that it's being directed to me as if God knew that I HAD to hear those particular words at this particular time. Haha, it sounds so hokey and folksy, right....but shoot, God works in mysterious ways. I believe that for a fact.
It's been a while since I've cried...and crying for a commercial, movie, or laughing doesn't count. Lol! But wow...sometimes everyone needs a good cry now and then...not only does it do wonders for you emotionally and psychologically...but there is a definite physical release of sorts, too. The crazy thing about that night was knowing was that I wasn't the only one who had to let it out. I mean, you could hear people around the church just surrendering it all...and I wish everyone could experience that sort of freedom when you just let everything go. Talk about having that burden lifted from your shoulders!
Apparently there was an earthquake that night...and I didn't even feel it! But it was during one song that I noticed the screen shaking, but I thought it was because everyone was out of their seats jumping around! There was an announcement afterwards and the entire church prayed together for the safety of those affected. That, in itself, is powerful stuff...hearing the church auditorium suddenly become deafeningly quiet while we are led in prayer...and then to hear a thunderous "AMEN!" at the end...
It's so amazing how things work out...how we are led to be in some places at certain times...not even knowing what the outcome would be...and yet having faith that God knows what He is doing when He leads us to that moment, that place, and that experience. I continue to be wowed. With the busyness of school and upcoming events, this concert was enough to give me the inspiration I needed...to slow down, think ahead, reflect, change, and move on.
Can I get an AMEN?
Last week, I attended a Christian concert in Fremont sponsored by KFAX (1100 AM radio). The featured artist was the Hillsong praise and worship team from London. Hillsong is well-known and when I found out that they would be here in the Bay, I knew that I had to see them. In fact, my very first Christian/praise & worship cd that I ever bought was from Hillsong. I had actually gone to a Christian warehouse and spent some time at a listening station until I found one that "spoke" to me...and this was before I "discovered" Christian rock...yes, there IS such a thing! The cd that I bought was very mellow, yet powerful.
Some people don't realize that Christian music can be "cool" and that you can totally rock out to it. If some outsider were to describe the vibe of the night, they would tell you how people were on their feet jumping around and how the energy in the room was electric. At the same time, you see people "getting their praise on" with arms lifted high and closed eyes. One can't help but let the music touch your soul and the words of the song speak to your heart. Plus, there really is something about being at a Christian concert. Not to say that all the people in attendance believe that they are all perfect; rather, we are all there because we know that we are IMperfect and in need of Him. When that realization of us being a broken people hits me, I can't help but feel grateful that we're not left alone in this world to deal on our own. It's enough to bring tears to my eyes thinking of the grace He gives us to go on, despite how unworthy we are. We don't deserve His goodness...yet He gives it to us for free. We are all different in how we walk with God, in how we pray to God, and in how we worship Him...it's all good. And for many people, listening to Christian music may be "too much" for them. To each his own, right? But it's interesting how a concert or a person's testimony could speak volumes...and even moreso that if feels that it's being directed to me as if God knew that I HAD to hear those particular words at this particular time. Haha, it sounds so hokey and folksy, right....but shoot, God works in mysterious ways. I believe that for a fact.
It's been a while since I've cried...and crying for a commercial, movie, or laughing doesn't count. Lol! But wow...sometimes everyone needs a good cry now and then...not only does it do wonders for you emotionally and psychologically...but there is a definite physical release of sorts, too. The crazy thing about that night was knowing was that I wasn't the only one who had to let it out. I mean, you could hear people around the church just surrendering it all...and I wish everyone could experience that sort of freedom when you just let everything go. Talk about having that burden lifted from your shoulders!
Apparently there was an earthquake that night...and I didn't even feel it! But it was during one song that I noticed the screen shaking, but I thought it was because everyone was out of their seats jumping around! There was an announcement afterwards and the entire church prayed together for the safety of those affected. That, in itself, is powerful stuff...hearing the church auditorium suddenly become deafeningly quiet while we are led in prayer...and then to hear a thunderous "AMEN!" at the end...
It's so amazing how things work out...how we are led to be in some places at certain times...not even knowing what the outcome would be...and yet having faith that God knows what He is doing when He leads us to that moment, that place, and that experience. I continue to be wowed. With the busyness of school and upcoming events, this concert was enough to give me the inspiration I needed...to slow down, think ahead, reflect, change, and move on.
Monday, November 05, 2007
I'm a Lover...
Thought this was cute because as I read through each month, I thought of someone I knew who was born in that month...and in many ways, I think this is true! Read on!
★JANUARY = SLUT
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boys/girls LOVE you.You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.Takes pride in oneself. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt, but takes long to recover.
★FEBRUARY =PIMP
FEBRUARY means that you're really good looking. Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.Everyone loves to be around you. You always attract attention. You are definitely the most sexiest and good looking of them all. You know how to get what you want. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislikes being at home. Restless. Having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.
★MARCH = FLIRTATIOUS
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt. Like somebody with a September birthday. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one daybecome a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!
★APRIL = LOVER
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste, but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
★MAY = SEXY
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. An awesome kisser. Sensitive. A very good girlfriend/boyfriend. Amazing Smile. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Has All The Characteristics of John Carrico Bubbly personality. Suductive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Super sexy. Extremley hot, but has brains.
★JUNE = HOTTIE
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Very easily hurt, but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Understanding. Fun to be around. Nympho-and an awesome lover too....makes you happy so that makes them happy...Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure, and travelling. Systematic. Hot, but has brains.
★JULY = PORNSTAR
Outgoing personality. Takes risks. Feeds on attention. No self control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "everything's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. In need of "that someone." Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain. " Caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "Charming"or "beautiful" to everyone. Stubborn. Curious. Independent. Strong willed.
★AUGUST = FREAK IN DANCING
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Great in dancing. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt, but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
★SEPTEMBER = THUG
Some days, You a strait up "Gangsta." Attractive personality. Very! Sexy. Affectionate & secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk a lot! Loves to get their way! Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of ANY of these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
★OCTOBER =PERFECT
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because they're one of a kind.
★NOVEMBER = GORGEOUS
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay.
★DECEMBER = ATTITUDE
Abstract thoughts. Outgoing. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Fun to be around with. Sexiest out of everyone. A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Able to cheer anyone up and make them laugh. Amazing smile. An awesome kisser. Temperamental. Honest.
What are you???
Thought this was cute because as I read through each month, I thought of someone I knew who was born in that month...and in many ways, I think this is true! Read on!
★JANUARY = SLUT
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boys/girls LOVE you.You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.Takes pride in oneself. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt, but takes long to recover.
★FEBRUARY =PIMP
FEBRUARY means that you're really good looking. Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.Everyone loves to be around you. You always attract attention. You are definitely the most sexiest and good looking of them all. You know how to get what you want. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislikes being at home. Restless. Having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.
★MARCH = FLIRTATIOUS
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt. Like somebody with a September birthday. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one daybecome a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!
★APRIL = LOVER
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste, but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
★MAY = SEXY
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. An awesome kisser. Sensitive. A very good girlfriend/boyfriend. Amazing Smile. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Has All The Characteristics of John Carrico Bubbly personality. Suductive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Super sexy. Extremley hot, but has brains.
★JUNE = HOTTIE
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Very easily hurt, but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Understanding. Fun to be around. Nympho-and an awesome lover too....makes you happy so that makes them happy...Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure, and travelling. Systematic. Hot, but has brains.
★JULY = PORNSTAR
Outgoing personality. Takes risks. Feeds on attention. No self control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "everything's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. In need of "that someone." Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain. " Caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "Charming"or "beautiful" to everyone. Stubborn. Curious. Independent. Strong willed.
★AUGUST = FREAK IN DANCING
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Great in dancing. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt, but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
★SEPTEMBER = THUG
Some days, You a strait up "Gangsta." Attractive personality. Very! Sexy. Affectionate & secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk a lot! Loves to get their way! Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of ANY of these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
★OCTOBER =PERFECT
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because they're one of a kind.
★NOVEMBER = GORGEOUS
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay.
★DECEMBER = ATTITUDE
Abstract thoughts. Outgoing. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Fun to be around with. Sexiest out of everyone. A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Able to cheer anyone up and make them laugh. Amazing smile. An awesome kisser. Temperamental. Honest.
What are you???
Chez MnM
This weekend was the big move. I say "big" simply because it was the biggest pieces of furniture that had to be trucked in. Thankfully, I've acquired a nice, comfy couch, a loveseat, and a round, kitchen table set from my sis. I shared this with a few people already, but there was a brief moment after I had signed the lease papers where I had this "Oh shit! What did I just do?!" moment. Not that I was in a state of panic, but I was left in this empty room all by myself. Just for the record, it IS small, but it's got a lot of potential...and hell, it's MY space. That's the most important thing.
It really has been a HUGE transition for me...simply because I've never been on my own before. I basically lived my entire life at home with my parents, got engaged, got married, moved out with the hubby, and that was that. I never got to experience living out on my own...something that I craved for so long. I was always so jealous of friends back in college who got to move out and roomie up with someone. I know they must've struggled, but still, they had their independence. But now that I've got my own newfound independence, I finally have a chance to see if I can make it on my own. I realize that yes, it will be hard for a while, but hell, I will say that I've already gone through worse. It will mean LESS Starbucks....LESS Jamba Juice....LESS Barnes and Nobles/Borders....LESS dvd purchases.....fine. I can deal. I will survive. I HAVE survived, yah? So yes, with some furniture now in place (and who really cares if they don't match?), the space instantly warmed up. It'll be even better once I get things up on the wall. Shoot...if I can swing it, I'd love to paint and give it some color...we shall see.
Much love and thanks to BruthaMan and Ang for trucking everything from the East Bay...and to my sis, BADMama, for going shopping, unloading, and cleaning, and of course, to Bina and Nico for making the move fun-filled. It was so great to hang out with the family at my new place...my first visitors- yay!
Anytime Now...
It was Sha's last day at work this past Friday. I tell you, that girl looks like she's going to give birth any day now! It's been such a blessing to have seen her through her pregnancy, to see her tummy grow, and just to see and hear about the different changes going on. Honestly, my respect factor grew tenfold after seeing my niece and nephew born. Talk about the most amazing experience of my life! Then of course, I see the teachers at school who are moms, too, and I am in awe. I don't know how they do it- teach at school all day and then go home and be a mom. That goes for every mom out there! It sounds like such a tough job juggling both, but seriously, it's a job that I would be so grateful to have one day, if it's part of my plan.
Sha has got until the end of the month...will she give birth early? will she be late? Stay tuned for more updates! And by the way...she's already named MnM one of the Ninangs....another ina-anak to spoil! (fyi: she's having a girl!) Until then, my love, thoughts, and prayers go out to her and baby girl...
BRRRRRR....
What is UP with this weather lately? It's cold out, but it's a different kind of cold....almost like a Minnesota cold...a cold that cuts you like a knife cold...a bone-chilling cold....it's just freakin' C-O-L-D! I used to think cold was cold, but no. I was wrong. In MN, I could distinctly feel a difference from 10 degrees and 0 degrees. And of course, let's not forget the wind chill factor. It may be 10 degrees out, but it really feels like -10. So yah...that "cold is cold" is just a myth. There's a world of difference.
I was supposed to go running today (it would've been my first since the marathon...), but I chickened out. If it's cold at work, how much colder would it have been at the beach? Maybe tomorrow I'll be braver...lol.
Stay warm, ya'll...much love.
This weekend was the big move. I say "big" simply because it was the biggest pieces of furniture that had to be trucked in. Thankfully, I've acquired a nice, comfy couch, a loveseat, and a round, kitchen table set from my sis. I shared this with a few people already, but there was a brief moment after I had signed the lease papers where I had this "Oh shit! What did I just do?!" moment. Not that I was in a state of panic, but I was left in this empty room all by myself. Just for the record, it IS small, but it's got a lot of potential...and hell, it's MY space. That's the most important thing.
It really has been a HUGE transition for me...simply because I've never been on my own before. I basically lived my entire life at home with my parents, got engaged, got married, moved out with the hubby, and that was that. I never got to experience living out on my own...something that I craved for so long. I was always so jealous of friends back in college who got to move out and roomie up with someone. I know they must've struggled, but still, they had their independence. But now that I've got my own newfound independence, I finally have a chance to see if I can make it on my own. I realize that yes, it will be hard for a while, but hell, I will say that I've already gone through worse. It will mean LESS Starbucks....LESS Jamba Juice....LESS Barnes and Nobles/Borders....LESS dvd purchases.....fine. I can deal. I will survive. I HAVE survived, yah? So yes, with some furniture now in place (and who really cares if they don't match?), the space instantly warmed up. It'll be even better once I get things up on the wall. Shoot...if I can swing it, I'd love to paint and give it some color...we shall see.
Much love and thanks to BruthaMan and Ang for trucking everything from the East Bay...and to my sis, BADMama, for going shopping, unloading, and cleaning, and of course, to Bina and Nico for making the move fun-filled. It was so great to hang out with the family at my new place...my first visitors- yay!
Anytime Now...
It was Sha's last day at work this past Friday. I tell you, that girl looks like she's going to give birth any day now! It's been such a blessing to have seen her through her pregnancy, to see her tummy grow, and just to see and hear about the different changes going on. Honestly, my respect factor grew tenfold after seeing my niece and nephew born. Talk about the most amazing experience of my life! Then of course, I see the teachers at school who are moms, too, and I am in awe. I don't know how they do it- teach at school all day and then go home and be a mom. That goes for every mom out there! It sounds like such a tough job juggling both, but seriously, it's a job that I would be so grateful to have one day, if it's part of my plan.
Sha has got until the end of the month...will she give birth early? will she be late? Stay tuned for more updates! And by the way...she's already named MnM one of the Ninangs....another ina-anak to spoil! (fyi: she's having a girl!) Until then, my love, thoughts, and prayers go out to her and baby girl...
BRRRRRR....
What is UP with this weather lately? It's cold out, but it's a different kind of cold....almost like a Minnesota cold...a cold that cuts you like a knife cold...a bone-chilling cold....it's just freakin' C-O-L-D! I used to think cold was cold, but no. I was wrong. In MN, I could distinctly feel a difference from 10 degrees and 0 degrees. And of course, let's not forget the wind chill factor. It may be 10 degrees out, but it really feels like -10. So yah...that "cold is cold" is just a myth. There's a world of difference.
I was supposed to go running today (it would've been my first since the marathon...), but I chickened out. If it's cold at work, how much colder would it have been at the beach? Maybe tomorrow I'll be braver...lol.
Stay warm, ya'll...much love.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Pinch! Punch! The 1st of the Month!
Happy new month, everyone! I'm seriously missing my niece and nephew...I feel like I haven't seen them in AGES! Everytime a new month arrives, I try my best to "pinch 'em and punch 'em." Sounds abusive, I know, but it's not what you think! lol....geez.
Anyways, I'm pretty excited for this weekend to come simply because I"ll be seeing the kiddies. They'll be coming to this side of the Bay to help me move- hooray!
Happy new month, everyone! I'm seriously missing my niece and nephew...I feel like I haven't seen them in AGES! Everytime a new month arrives, I try my best to "pinch 'em and punch 'em." Sounds abusive, I know, but it's not what you think! lol....geez.
Anyways, I'm pretty excited for this weekend to come simply because I"ll be seeing the kiddies. They'll be coming to this side of the Bay to help me move- hooray!
I Should Be Correcting Papers....
Even though I am a huge sucker for these kinds of things, I think I go through a cycle or a phase when I have this need to fill out random surveys (or slam books!) to help pass the time. And yes, as the title of my this post says, I should be correcting papers...shit. lol!
LAST
1. Friend you saw: MIM
2. Talked to on the phone: my sister, BADMama
3. Texted: MIM
4. IMed: no one...I've given up on IMing!
T O D A Y
1. Wearing: blue jeans and orange top
2. Better than yesterday: how I'm ending the night
T O M O R R O W
1. Is: FRIDAY!! WOOHOO
2. Got plans: packing
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: gathering my HUGE pile of papers to correct
F A V OR I T E
1. Number: 41
2. Color: purple
3. Season: fall
C U R R E N T L Y
1. Missing someone: my niece and nephew!
2. Mood: giddy...hee hee!
3. Wanting to be with: MIM
Q U E S T I O N S / A N S W E R S
Q: Last thing you ate and drank: clam chowder with 1/2 Italian classic sandwich from Boudins...and Starbucks mocha
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?:
A. yes...a few things
Q: What's annoying you right now?:
A: a papercut
Q: Do you support long distance relationships?:
A: yes...if it's based on TRUST
Q: Is there someone on your mind?
A:: perhaps....
Q: Do you think that person is thinking of you too?:
A: i HOPE so!
Q: Where is the last place you went?:
A: somewhere in the Sunset...
Q: Do you smile often?:
A: YES! =)
Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: I'd like to think so!
Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?:
A: mine
Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?:
A: cleaning my apartment
Q: When is the last time you saw your dad?:
A: earlier this evening
Q: Do you get mad easily?
A: sometimes...it's them crazy drivers out there!
Q: What were you thinking about before you went to sleep:
A: must.....get......sleep.....
Q: What song are you listening to right now?:
A: U2's "All I Want Is You"
Q: Rate life as of right now:
A: 7
SAD S E C T I O N
01. Have you ever really cried your heart out?
yes...many times
02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes...many times
03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
yes
04. Do you cry when you get an injury?
not like bawling crying, but i do tend to tear up!
HAPPY S E C T I O N
01. What can always make you happy?
a really good 80's flashback song
02. Do you wish you were happier?
sometimes...but i am content as is
03. Is being happy overrated?
never
04. Can music make you happy?
most definitely
LOVE S E C T I O N
Anyone besides your family ever said they loved you?
yes
Who was the last person to say "I love you" to you?
my cousin
Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
my grandmother
Have you ever told someone you loved them and not meant it?
no
Have you ever had someone tell you they loved you and know they were lying?
yes.....the scum of the earth!
HATE S E C T I O N
01. Who do you actually hate?
Hate is a strong word, but I can't stand ignorant, close-minded people with that holier-than-thou attitude
02. Have you ever made a hit list?
if i tell you, i might have to kill you...haha
E V E R :
[x] ridden in a taxi
[ ] jumped a ramp on a bike
[X] been used in some way
[ ] Been fired
[ ] celebrated New Year's in Times Square or Disney World
[x] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans.
[] been to Europe.
[ ] been to Australia
[x] been to Hawaii
[x] skipped class.
[x] had a sleepover.
[x] gone ice skating.
[ ] had your tonsils taken out
[ ] have/had a TRUCK.
[x] driven a car.
[ ] totaled a car.
C U R R E N T L Y W E A R I N G
01. black running pants and long-sleeved gray shirt
02. Shoes? socks
03. Necklace? my NIKE marathon pendant c/o Tiffany's
H A V E Y O U E V E R
01. Hugged someone? yes...of course....i am a hugger!
02. Been on the phone until the sun came up? yes.
03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour? all the time!
L A S T S
01. Last person you talked to in person?
MIM
02. Last person you texted?
MIM
04. Person who made you laugh?
Ethan's Mommy
05. Person you messaged on myspace?
sista-friend, RyceGirl
O T H E R
01. Do you get along with your parents?
i'd like to think i do! =)
C U R R E N T
01. Current Mood:
good...but getting majorly drowsy
02. Current hair:
cute! lol...thanks Chi!
03. Current Thing You Ought To Be Doing?:
correcting papers and/or sleeping
04. Current music?
U2's "All I Want Is You"....see? it's on repeat!
Even though I am a huge sucker for these kinds of things, I think I go through a cycle or a phase when I have this need to fill out random surveys (or slam books!) to help pass the time. And yes, as the title of my this post says, I should be correcting papers...shit. lol!
LAST
1. Friend you saw: MIM
2. Talked to on the phone: my sister, BADMama
3. Texted: MIM
4. IMed: no one...I've given up on IMing!
T O D A Y
1. Wearing: blue jeans and orange top
2. Better than yesterday: how I'm ending the night
T O M O R R O W
1. Is: FRIDAY!! WOOHOO
2. Got plans: packing
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: gathering my HUGE pile of papers to correct
F A V OR I T E
1. Number: 41
2. Color: purple
3. Season: fall
C U R R E N T L Y
1. Missing someone: my niece and nephew!
2. Mood: giddy...hee hee!
3. Wanting to be with: MIM
Q U E S T I O N S / A N S W E R S
Q: Last thing you ate and drank: clam chowder with 1/2 Italian classic sandwich from Boudins...and Starbucks mocha
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?:
A. yes...a few things
Q: What's annoying you right now?:
A: a papercut
Q: Do you support long distance relationships?:
A: yes...if it's based on TRUST
Q: Is there someone on your mind?
A:: perhaps....
Q: Do you think that person is thinking of you too?:
A: i HOPE so!
Q: Where is the last place you went?:
A: somewhere in the Sunset...
Q: Do you smile often?:
A: YES! =)
Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: I'd like to think so!
Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?:
A: mine
Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?:
A: cleaning my apartment
Q: When is the last time you saw your dad?:
A: earlier this evening
Q: Do you get mad easily?
A: sometimes...it's them crazy drivers out there!
Q: What were you thinking about before you went to sleep:
A: must.....get......sleep.....
Q: What song are you listening to right now?:
A: U2's "All I Want Is You"
Q: Rate life as of right now:
A: 7
SAD S E C T I O N
01. Have you ever really cried your heart out?
yes...many times
02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes...many times
03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
yes
04. Do you cry when you get an injury?
not like bawling crying, but i do tend to tear up!
HAPPY S E C T I O N
01. What can always make you happy?
a really good 80's flashback song
02. Do you wish you were happier?
sometimes...but i am content as is
03. Is being happy overrated?
never
04. Can music make you happy?
most definitely
LOVE S E C T I O N
Anyone besides your family ever said they loved you?
yes
Who was the last person to say "I love you" to you?
my cousin
Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
my grandmother
Have you ever told someone you loved them and not meant it?
no
Have you ever had someone tell you they loved you and know they were lying?
yes.....the scum of the earth!
HATE S E C T I O N
01. Who do you actually hate?
Hate is a strong word, but I can't stand ignorant, close-minded people with that holier-than-thou attitude
02. Have you ever made a hit list?
if i tell you, i might have to kill you...haha
E V E R :
[x] ridden in a taxi
[ ] jumped a ramp on a bike
[X] been used in some way
[ ] Been fired
[ ] celebrated New Year's in Times Square or Disney World
[x] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans.
[] been to Europe.
[ ] been to Australia
[x] been to Hawaii
[x] skipped class.
[x] had a sleepover.
[x] gone ice skating.
[ ] had your tonsils taken out
[ ] have/had a TRUCK.
[x] driven a car.
[ ] totaled a car.
C U R R E N T L Y W E A R I N G
01. black running pants and long-sleeved gray shirt
02. Shoes? socks
03. Necklace? my NIKE marathon pendant c/o Tiffany's
H A V E Y O U E V E R
01. Hugged someone? yes...of course....i am a hugger!
02. Been on the phone until the sun came up? yes.
03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour? all the time!
L A S T S
01. Last person you talked to in person?
MIM
02. Last person you texted?
MIM
04. Person who made you laugh?
Ethan's Mommy
05. Person you messaged on myspace?
sista-friend, RyceGirl
O T H E R
01. Do you get along with your parents?
i'd like to think i do! =)
C U R R E N T
01. Current Mood:
good...but getting majorly drowsy
02. Current hair:
cute! lol...thanks Chi!
03. Current Thing You Ought To Be Doing?:
correcting papers and/or sleeping
04. Current music?
U2's "All I Want Is You"....see? it's on repeat!
Monday, October 29, 2007
I Got Tagged!
...and we all know how MnM is a sucker for these things...
5 Things Found In My Bag
(besides my wallet)
- phone
- lotion
- tissue
- mini-SF map (it's so handy!)
- lip stuff
5 Things Found In My Wallet
- teacher discount cards
- driver's license
- Starbucks card
- CPR/1st Aid certification cards
- bank/credit cards
5 Things Found In My Room
- laptop
- suitcases and boxes filled with clothes
- half-empty water and Powerade bottles
- pile of uncorrected papers
- Bible
5 Things I've Always Wanted To Do
- travel the world...beginning with Europe
- write a book
- learn how to play the guitar and violin
- speak fluent Tagalog
- wear a bathing suit...lol...in my dreams!
5 Things I'm Currently Into
- admittedly so...MySpace
- getting into better shape
- peeled baby carrots...yummy!
- Ireland ;-)
- shopping for my new place
...and we all know how MnM is a sucker for these things...
5 Things Found In My Bag
(besides my wallet)
- phone
- lotion
- tissue
- mini-SF map (it's so handy!)
- lip stuff
5 Things Found In My Wallet
- teacher discount cards
- driver's license
- Starbucks card
- CPR/1st Aid certification cards
- bank/credit cards
5 Things Found In My Room
- laptop
- suitcases and boxes filled with clothes
- half-empty water and Powerade bottles
- pile of uncorrected papers
- Bible
5 Things I've Always Wanted To Do
- travel the world...beginning with Europe
- write a book
- learn how to play the guitar and violin
- speak fluent Tagalog
- wear a bathing suit...lol...in my dreams!
5 Things I'm Currently Into
- admittedly so...MySpace
- getting into better shape
- peeled baby carrots...yummy!
- Ireland ;-)
- shopping for my new place
Big News!
So the day has finally arrived...MnM is moving out!
Everyone knows that the past couple of years have been tough...pure hell almost...but as the new year began, I was determined to make 2007 MY year. It may not have started smooth, but the way it has been going lately, it can only get better from here on out. With the big D being official (as long as that took...), the burden was lifted from my shoulders. There was this "symbolic" part of it all that I was just waiting to happen. I kept telling myself, "...once those papers are signed..." But as the months went by and ex-hubby was nowhere to be found, I used that as an excuse to move on. I hated that...because even though I was the one who left, I allowed him to still have that hold on me. But then in a matter of days, everything fell into place. It hit me like a ton of bricks, for sure, but it was going to happen no matter what. I'm just glad it finally did. Getting divorced: check!
Last weekend, the NIKE Women's marathon took place in San Francisco. 23,000 participants from all across the country...all running for a great cause...in memory of or in honor of a loved one. Inspiring is the one word that comes to mind. Proud is another...simply because I can't believe I actually got through it! While I don't feel my three months of training was adequate, I plugged on...and geez, look at where that got me! But the aches and pains are gone and I'm ready to continue my training...Mommy Hernandez mentioned in passing that there's another marathon with NIKE happening in Chicago this coming April. Who knows? I've always wanted to see Chicago...without the snow! All in all, having completed my first marathon is a HUGE deal for me...it proved a lot of things for me...one, simply that I could finally do something for myself. Physically, I've still got a lot to work on and a lot more to lose, but now that I'm in that mode, I can definitely continue on and improve on this health trip. Completing NIKE marathon: check!
FYI: although the marathon is over, ya'll are encouraged to continue to donate to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society via my TNT page. They will accept gifts for one more month! Thanks to those who generously donated...I hope I did you proud!
One of my main goals this year was to finally get a place of my own. It's easy to dream about, but then the reality of my financial situation slaps me silly in the face. I've been incredibly lucky to have such a supportive family who took me in after I left Minnesota...and it's really through their love and good graces that I've been able to get back on my feet once again. Don't get me wrong, I've got debts up the arse, thanks to ex-hubby...he's the best, I tell you. What a guy! But why should I let his poor choices in life determine mine? If I had a choice, I would move to Foster City in a heartbeat, hands down! But Foster City being so pricey, definitely not a possibility. I searched up and down the Peninsula, but with my humble teacher's salary, no can do. For a while, I thought I was going to convert and be an "East Bay girl"...sorry BruthaMan...I've changed my mind! I would've loved to be closer to my sis and of course, the weather is gorgeous most of the time, but the commute would've bitten the big one. SOOOOO...yes, MnM tends to ramble...I've found a spot in the city...the city that I've begun to fall in love with all over again. In fact, the best part of this lil' place (and it is small...but shit, it's MINE)...is that it's just a few blocks from the beach. It can't beat that! Seems like I'm always there anyways, it just makes sense. Moving out: check!
2007 continues to surprise me...to be quite honest, there was a time when I thought that nothing would ever go my way. I believed that I just had to take things for what they were and that would be that. Man...how pathetic was I?! Hell no...not anymore. Life has been good...and it continues to be blessed. It's so awesome to be able to check things off my To Do list...little by little, I'm gaining my life back...and so far, I'm loving it.
So the day has finally arrived...MnM is moving out!
Everyone knows that the past couple of years have been tough...pure hell almost...but as the new year began, I was determined to make 2007 MY year. It may not have started smooth, but the way it has been going lately, it can only get better from here on out. With the big D being official (as long as that took...), the burden was lifted from my shoulders. There was this "symbolic" part of it all that I was just waiting to happen. I kept telling myself, "...once those papers are signed..." But as the months went by and ex-hubby was nowhere to be found, I used that as an excuse to move on. I hated that...because even though I was the one who left, I allowed him to still have that hold on me. But then in a matter of days, everything fell into place. It hit me like a ton of bricks, for sure, but it was going to happen no matter what. I'm just glad it finally did. Getting divorced: check!
Last weekend, the NIKE Women's marathon took place in San Francisco. 23,000 participants from all across the country...all running for a great cause...in memory of or in honor of a loved one. Inspiring is the one word that comes to mind. Proud is another...simply because I can't believe I actually got through it! While I don't feel my three months of training was adequate, I plugged on...and geez, look at where that got me! But the aches and pains are gone and I'm ready to continue my training...Mommy Hernandez mentioned in passing that there's another marathon with NIKE happening in Chicago this coming April. Who knows? I've always wanted to see Chicago...without the snow! All in all, having completed my first marathon is a HUGE deal for me...it proved a lot of things for me...one, simply that I could finally do something for myself. Physically, I've still got a lot to work on and a lot more to lose, but now that I'm in that mode, I can definitely continue on and improve on this health trip. Completing NIKE marathon: check!
FYI: although the marathon is over, ya'll are encouraged to continue to donate to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society via my TNT page. They will accept gifts for one more month! Thanks to those who generously donated...I hope I did you proud!
One of my main goals this year was to finally get a place of my own. It's easy to dream about, but then the reality of my financial situation slaps me silly in the face. I've been incredibly lucky to have such a supportive family who took me in after I left Minnesota...and it's really through their love and good graces that I've been able to get back on my feet once again. Don't get me wrong, I've got debts up the arse, thanks to ex-hubby...he's the best, I tell you. What a guy! But why should I let his poor choices in life determine mine? If I had a choice, I would move to Foster City in a heartbeat, hands down! But Foster City being so pricey, definitely not a possibility. I searched up and down the Peninsula, but with my humble teacher's salary, no can do. For a while, I thought I was going to convert and be an "East Bay girl"...sorry BruthaMan...I've changed my mind! I would've loved to be closer to my sis and of course, the weather is gorgeous most of the time, but the commute would've bitten the big one. SOOOOO...yes, MnM tends to ramble...I've found a spot in the city...the city that I've begun to fall in love with all over again. In fact, the best part of this lil' place (and it is small...but shit, it's MINE)...is that it's just a few blocks from the beach. It can't beat that! Seems like I'm always there anyways, it just makes sense. Moving out: check!
2007 continues to surprise me...to be quite honest, there was a time when I thought that nothing would ever go my way. I believed that I just had to take things for what they were and that would be that. Man...how pathetic was I?! Hell no...not anymore. Life has been good...and it continues to be blessed. It's so awesome to be able to check things off my To Do list...little by little, I'm gaining my life back...and so far, I'm loving it.
Monday, October 22, 2007
NIKE WOMEN'S MARATHON
October 21, 2007
I did it! My first marathon! After three months of on and off training, I was able to complete 13.1 miles...AND, I didn't have to crawl over that finish line!
Prior to the run itself, NIKE sponsored an Expotique in Union Square for all marathoon participants...and as Mommy Hernandez put it, "IT'S ALL ABOUT THE FREE STUFF!"
On Friday night, we went down and aside from picking up my running bib and packet, we also got a free manicure! Now ok, so just because it's free doesn't mean the quality is the greatest...but it was still a nice treat. There were free snacks, drinks, giveaways, and massages, but that line was way too long. Even though it was two days before the race, you could definitely feel the excitement in the air.
Along with the excitement, there was a definite anxiety that I was having. Would my training pay off? Would I give up? Could I do this? It kept me up on Saturday night into the wee hours of the morning! All in all, I must've had about 3 hours of sleep! But come Sunday morning, I was up and ready, Team in Training jersey on, bib #14735 on, sunblock, hat, shoes...I was pumped.
RACE DAY- Sunday
It's said that there was a total of 23,000 participants...that's a whole lotta people! The start line was at Union Square, but to even get to our designated areas was pure hell. They let people start according to how fast one could do a mile- we were in the 12-14 minute group. But aside from the actual runners/walkers, add in the equation all the family and friends who came to support their loved ones. And oh yes, all of the anxious runners who decided that it was okay to push and shove their way through...not cool ladies! By the time we were given the go-ahead, it was approximately 7:20am when we passed the start line.
As pathetic as this will sound, we were not even into the first mile when I started lagging behind Mommy Hernandez and CuznJ. I felt a tweak in my back and my first thought was "oh shit, not now!" I had to slow my pace even further until I found a good and comfortable groove. Maybe it was somewhat of a blessing because as the sun came up over the Bay Bridge, it made for a lot of Kodak moments that I couldn't pass up. So yes, if you can imagine, in the midst of a marathon with thousands of people running, there I was snapping away at the picturesque views of our beautiful city...and hey, I wasn't the only one!
Sunrise over the Bay Bridge
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Among the many places that we got to pass through included the following: the Embarcadero, Fisherman's Wharf, Aquatic Park and Ghiradelli Square (with clear views of the Alcatraz), the hill of Fort Mason (another awesome view of the Golden Gate Bridge), the Marina, Crissy Field, SeaCliff neighborhood (hello Robin Williams!), the Presidio, Cliff House, Golden Gate Park (near the buffalo and polo fields), and finally the end at Ocean Beach. Talk about a beautiful running course...and yet again, another chance for me to fall in love all over with our beautiful city.
A couple of things that I found funny...first of all, a guy running in a dress is always something to chuckle at! The fact that he was the center of many photo ops was pretty hilarious. Another was the fact that people were shedding clothes left and right...but leaving them in the streets! It's like that Hansel and Gretel story where the kids leave behind bread crumbs to make sure they don't lose their way...it was the same thing! After a while, the jokes kept coming..."..anyone need a new jacket?....who needs the mall?..." It was such a random thing, whether or not they would come back and retrieve their articles, I highly doubt.
Another thing that I thought was pretty awesome was the fact that there so many out-of-state participants. Because I registered with the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society, we were under the umbrella of Team in Training, San Francisco Bay Area Chapter...and our purple jerseys proudly displayed that. Amid the sea of purple, there were delegations from Ohio, Georgia, Texas, Mississippi, Minnesota and many more. It was inspiring to see pictures of loved ones pinned to their jerseys, the people they were running in honor and/or in memory of.
A big motivating factor throughout the course were the many TNT coaches and mentors. They were out and about running among the crowds, others were shouting from the sidelines that we were doing an awesome job. Plus, there were so many volunteers who were handing out drinks and as you took one, they'd tell you to keep on going. On top of that, there were so many supporters with signs, giving everyone the thumbs up, yelling that we look beautiful and that we can do it. When we were in the hills, a few supporters kept repeating, "Don't let that hill control you! You control the hill! Ya'll can do it...keep going!" At the Embarcadero, there was a Gospel choir; in GGP, there was an Irish band (go Irish- hee hee!); near the Marina, there was a Cheer Squad and near the finish, a high school cheerleading squad, along with their pom-poms, were giving everyone high fives. It was neat!
So how did I do? Like I mentioned, I backed off of Mommy Hernandez's pace almost from the start and basically did the run by myself. While I did a lot of walking to compensate for my back pain, I DID run a good portion of it...that, I'm proud of. The time limit for the entire marathon is 6.5 hours. With the training that I was doing, I originally thought that I'd be able to complete the course under 4 hours...I was averaging 15 minutes per mile. BUT, what I didn't take into consideration were the damn hills of San Francisco! OMG...the hills K-I-L-L-E-D me! There was a point, I want to say at Mile 6, that as I was making my way up slowly, I swear, I began to see stars. At first I thought it was the sun shining in my eyes, but I had my hat and shades on...and when I blinked, I just saw white. It freaked me out because I've never experienced that before and my initial thought was, "Oh my god, I'm going to pass out!" Luckily, they have water/Gatorade stations every few miles and I was right near one. After I drank some Gatorade and had a Luna gel, I was good to go...in fact, it gave me a boost of energy to run. Lol...whew! Talk about some scary shit!
At Mile 10 near the Cliff House, I had the most painful cramps in my thighs. It was so unbearable that I literally had to squat and stretch for five minutes. I've had those before, but only since I started training for the marathon...but wow, this gal does not take pain well! Knowing that I was approximately three miles from the finish, I plugged on. As I made my way down to Ocean Beach, it's such a tease because the Finish Line is in view. But with 3 more miles to go, the course takes you into Golden Gate Park and back out to the Great Highway. Mile 12 is dubbed the Chocolate Mile...lol, because that's where they give out free Ghiradelli chocolate squares for that extra boost of energy! I tell you...it helped because as I found myself back on the Great Highway, the energy in the air magnified. Family, friends, and supporters were lined up and cheering everyone on...and as tired as I was, I was determined to run it in! By the time I crossed the Finish Line, my end time was approximately 4 hours and some change.
At the Finish, you're greeted by guys in tuxes holding up silver platters with these lil' blue boxes. As a NIKE Women's Marathon participant, everyone gets a silver sterling neckace from Tiffany's! WOW! (..."It's all about the free stuff!...") Now for this simple gal, I've never had anything from there, so I was pretty stoked. It's really nice...on one side, there's a silhouette of two runners; on the back, it says, "NWM SF 07" along with the NIKE swoosh symbol and the Tiffany trademark. You also get a pink t-shirt that says "Finisher." At the TNT tent, not only did I get free lunch, but I also got a pin that says, "13.1" along with the TNT logo. Mommy Hernandez was right...it's all about the free stuff! Lol!
Needless to say, I'm damn proud of myself! As I look back at how 2007 started, I was a wreck. But as the year progressed, it only got better. The decision to do things for myself has made me stronger and more confident. Through this marathon, I wanted to prove to everyone that I AM okay...that I AM moving forward...and that divorce has not brought me down. It really did bite the big one, but with time, the hurt lessened a little bit every day. I stuck to my resolution that 2007 would be MY year..and it has been. And hey, it doesn't hurt that some of my clothes are feeling a little looser, too! ;-)
Running this marathon is a huge accomplishment for me...and I'm determined, more than ever, to do even bigger things in this second-chance-at-happiness-life of mine.
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Thanks ya'll for the support...it's meant the world to me. Much love...
p.s.
Pics to come soon!
p.p.s.
I'm S-O-R-E as hell! Didn't make it to work because, well, I just couldn't move...but I did find some energy to head to NIKETOWN for guess what...a FREE massage!
October 21, 2007
I did it! My first marathon! After three months of on and off training, I was able to complete 13.1 miles...AND, I didn't have to crawl over that finish line!
Prior to the run itself, NIKE sponsored an Expotique in Union Square for all marathoon participants...and as Mommy Hernandez put it, "IT'S ALL ABOUT THE FREE STUFF!"
On Friday night, we went down and aside from picking up my running bib and packet, we also got a free manicure! Now ok, so just because it's free doesn't mean the quality is the greatest...but it was still a nice treat. There were free snacks, drinks, giveaways, and massages, but that line was way too long. Even though it was two days before the race, you could definitely feel the excitement in the air.
Along with the excitement, there was a definite anxiety that I was having. Would my training pay off? Would I give up? Could I do this? It kept me up on Saturday night into the wee hours of the morning! All in all, I must've had about 3 hours of sleep! But come Sunday morning, I was up and ready, Team in Training jersey on, bib #14735 on, sunblock, hat, shoes...I was pumped.
RACE DAY- Sunday
It's said that there was a total of 23,000 participants...that's a whole lotta people! The start line was at Union Square, but to even get to our designated areas was pure hell. They let people start according to how fast one could do a mile- we were in the 12-14 minute group. But aside from the actual runners/walkers, add in the equation all the family and friends who came to support their loved ones. And oh yes, all of the anxious runners who decided that it was okay to push and shove their way through...not cool ladies! By the time we were given the go-ahead, it was approximately 7:20am when we passed the start line.
As pathetic as this will sound, we were not even into the first mile when I started lagging behind Mommy Hernandez and CuznJ. I felt a tweak in my back and my first thought was "oh shit, not now!" I had to slow my pace even further until I found a good and comfortable groove. Maybe it was somewhat of a blessing because as the sun came up over the Bay Bridge, it made for a lot of Kodak moments that I couldn't pass up. So yes, if you can imagine, in the midst of a marathon with thousands of people running, there I was snapping away at the picturesque views of our beautiful city...and hey, I wasn't the only one!
Sunrise over the Bay Bridge
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Among the many places that we got to pass through included the following: the Embarcadero, Fisherman's Wharf, Aquatic Park and Ghiradelli Square (with clear views of the Alcatraz), the hill of Fort Mason (another awesome view of the Golden Gate Bridge), the Marina, Crissy Field, SeaCliff neighborhood (hello Robin Williams!), the Presidio, Cliff House, Golden Gate Park (near the buffalo and polo fields), and finally the end at Ocean Beach. Talk about a beautiful running course...and yet again, another chance for me to fall in love all over with our beautiful city.
A couple of things that I found funny...first of all, a guy running in a dress is always something to chuckle at! The fact that he was the center of many photo ops was pretty hilarious. Another was the fact that people were shedding clothes left and right...but leaving them in the streets! It's like that Hansel and Gretel story where the kids leave behind bread crumbs to make sure they don't lose their way...it was the same thing! After a while, the jokes kept coming..."..anyone need a new jacket?....who needs the mall?..." It was such a random thing, whether or not they would come back and retrieve their articles, I highly doubt.
Another thing that I thought was pretty awesome was the fact that there so many out-of-state participants. Because I registered with the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society, we were under the umbrella of Team in Training, San Francisco Bay Area Chapter...and our purple jerseys proudly displayed that. Amid the sea of purple, there were delegations from Ohio, Georgia, Texas, Mississippi, Minnesota and many more. It was inspiring to see pictures of loved ones pinned to their jerseys, the people they were running in honor and/or in memory of.
A big motivating factor throughout the course were the many TNT coaches and mentors. They were out and about running among the crowds, others were shouting from the sidelines that we were doing an awesome job. Plus, there were so many volunteers who were handing out drinks and as you took one, they'd tell you to keep on going. On top of that, there were so many supporters with signs, giving everyone the thumbs up, yelling that we look beautiful and that we can do it. When we were in the hills, a few supporters kept repeating, "Don't let that hill control you! You control the hill! Ya'll can do it...keep going!" At the Embarcadero, there was a Gospel choir; in GGP, there was an Irish band (go Irish- hee hee!); near the Marina, there was a Cheer Squad and near the finish, a high school cheerleading squad, along with their pom-poms, were giving everyone high fives. It was neat!
So how did I do? Like I mentioned, I backed off of Mommy Hernandez's pace almost from the start and basically did the run by myself. While I did a lot of walking to compensate for my back pain, I DID run a good portion of it...that, I'm proud of. The time limit for the entire marathon is 6.5 hours. With the training that I was doing, I originally thought that I'd be able to complete the course under 4 hours...I was averaging 15 minutes per mile. BUT, what I didn't take into consideration were the damn hills of San Francisco! OMG...the hills K-I-L-L-E-D me! There was a point, I want to say at Mile 6, that as I was making my way up slowly, I swear, I began to see stars. At first I thought it was the sun shining in my eyes, but I had my hat and shades on...and when I blinked, I just saw white. It freaked me out because I've never experienced that before and my initial thought was, "Oh my god, I'm going to pass out!" Luckily, they have water/Gatorade stations every few miles and I was right near one. After I drank some Gatorade and had a Luna gel, I was good to go...in fact, it gave me a boost of energy to run. Lol...whew! Talk about some scary shit!
At Mile 10 near the Cliff House, I had the most painful cramps in my thighs. It was so unbearable that I literally had to squat and stretch for five minutes. I've had those before, but only since I started training for the marathon...but wow, this gal does not take pain well! Knowing that I was approximately three miles from the finish, I plugged on. As I made my way down to Ocean Beach, it's such a tease because the Finish Line is in view. But with 3 more miles to go, the course takes you into Golden Gate Park and back out to the Great Highway. Mile 12 is dubbed the Chocolate Mile...lol, because that's where they give out free Ghiradelli chocolate squares for that extra boost of energy! I tell you...it helped because as I found myself back on the Great Highway, the energy in the air magnified. Family, friends, and supporters were lined up and cheering everyone on...and as tired as I was, I was determined to run it in! By the time I crossed the Finish Line, my end time was approximately 4 hours and some change.
At the Finish, you're greeted by guys in tuxes holding up silver platters with these lil' blue boxes. As a NIKE Women's Marathon participant, everyone gets a silver sterling neckace from Tiffany's! WOW! (..."It's all about the free stuff!...") Now for this simple gal, I've never had anything from there, so I was pretty stoked. It's really nice...on one side, there's a silhouette of two runners; on the back, it says, "NWM SF 07" along with the NIKE swoosh symbol and the Tiffany trademark. You also get a pink t-shirt that says "Finisher." At the TNT tent, not only did I get free lunch, but I also got a pin that says, "13.1" along with the TNT logo. Mommy Hernandez was right...it's all about the free stuff! Lol!
Needless to say, I'm damn proud of myself! As I look back at how 2007 started, I was a wreck. But as the year progressed, it only got better. The decision to do things for myself has made me stronger and more confident. Through this marathon, I wanted to prove to everyone that I AM okay...that I AM moving forward...and that divorce has not brought me down. It really did bite the big one, but with time, the hurt lessened a little bit every day. I stuck to my resolution that 2007 would be MY year..and it has been. And hey, it doesn't hurt that some of my clothes are feeling a little looser, too! ;-)
Running this marathon is a huge accomplishment for me...and I'm determined, more than ever, to do even bigger things in this second-chance-at-happiness-life of mine.
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Thanks ya'll for the support...it's meant the world to me. Much love...
p.s.
Pics to come soon!
p.p.s.
I'm S-O-R-E as hell! Didn't make it to work because, well, I just couldn't move...but I did find some energy to head to NIKETOWN for guess what...a FREE massage!
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
ACSI Convention
Last week, along with three other teachers, I was sent to Sacramento for a teacher convention. ACSI (Association of Christian Schools International) was a 2-day event held at the Sacramento Convention Center downtown. I was pretty excited because not only have I never been sent anywhere for work before, but it's rare that I find myself up in our state capitol.
The two days were packed with attending seminar after seminar on various aspects of education. What made it so unique was the fact that everything was based and focused on the Christian perspective. It was wonderful how each speaker began with a word of prayer. I went to this convention not knowing what to expect, but coming back with many hopes and aspirations for what I can do as an educator. It was inspiring to be in this huge auditorium filled with Christian teachers! Plus, one of the highlights of the event was the free concert by an a'capella Christian group called RESCUE. They led the praise and worship time and the blend of voices was simply beautiful. Of course I had to get their cds and starstruck me had to get it signed- lol!
I felt like I was in college all over again as I traveled from class to class. Ya'll know me, I'm one of those people who has to take notes. I got to pick and choose which seminars to attend, but at the same time, I also had to consider which ones would be best suited to bring back to school. The deal with school sending teachers to conferences is that we are required to present what we learned to the rest of the faculty. Kinda like giving them the seminar material in a nutshell. In my opinion, I think it would be incredibly beneficial for all teachers to attend a conference such as this simply because we are a Christian school. In fact, there were quite a few schools who basically declared a day-off for the students so that their entire staff could attend. It just seems appropriate is all I'm saying. Talk about working in a "kuriput" school- sheesh! LOL!
Anyways, aside from RESCUE, a couple classes resonated. These had to do with serving overseas in International Schools and/or using my talents to serve as a missionary.
There is something called the 10/40 WINDOW...I never heard of it before. 10/40 is basically the degrees longitude and latitude of the equator...and the countries that fall in this window are the ones most in need of hearing the Word of God. What makes this "window" so unique is that foreign missionaries are basically banned...and more often than not, the dangers are magnified if you are not a native. There are programs to financially support native missionaries, but at the same time, the numbers just do not cut it. Incredibly, there are so many who choose to go, knowing the risks of danger, but doing it for the sole purpose of winning them to Christ...and I am inspired beyond belief that this is something that I have to do.
There has been this "burden in my heart" for the past few years...I feel that God is calling me to go and serve overseas. I can't quite explain it really. Often, I question whether or not I am suitable to be among those who serve...I don't feel that my Biblical knowledge is strong and yet, my desire to go grows stronger each time. I was reminded that God often uses the weak to do His work. My co-worker, whom I roomed with, offered a perspective that never crossed my mind. Seeing that all of my possessions were left behind in Minnesota, I was left with the basics- my clothes and my car. I always joke with people...because it really makes for a funny story now...that I'm like those immigrant stories you hear..."...when I first came to America, I only had $5.00 in my pocket!..." When I left Minnesota, I literally had $20 to my name...and boy, let me tell you, I learned quickly how to make that $20 last! But perhaps God was preparing me to live a life with just the basic necessities so that I can go overseas??? Who knows? He sure does work in mysterious ways, doesn't He?
All I know is that I feel more convicted to go more than ever. The timing couldn't be better. I don't have a husband or family to worry about...and it just seems like THIS is my moment to give back. I'm not saying that I'm leaving tomorrow...but it's definitely something I've been contemplating for the near future.
Overall, it was a great trip. On the last day, I decided to take a fun class- a tour of the state capitol. Little did I know that it was only a 5-minute walk from the convention center! The only negative thing about that was the rain...the pouring rain! But aside from the cool things to see inside, the surrounding gardens was just as beautiful and enough for me to roam around in the rain and take pictures. Hahah...crazy lady with the camera! Had a good time hanging with the teachers I went with...not a crowd I'd usually hang with, but we made for good fun and conversations nonetheless. Depending where I am next year (will I be overseas? serving in that 10/40 window?), I would love to attend ACSI again. Here are some pics of lovely Sac!
Last week, along with three other teachers, I was sent to Sacramento for a teacher convention. ACSI (Association of Christian Schools International) was a 2-day event held at the Sacramento Convention Center downtown. I was pretty excited because not only have I never been sent anywhere for work before, but it's rare that I find myself up in our state capitol.
The two days were packed with attending seminar after seminar on various aspects of education. What made it so unique was the fact that everything was based and focused on the Christian perspective. It was wonderful how each speaker began with a word of prayer. I went to this convention not knowing what to expect, but coming back with many hopes and aspirations for what I can do as an educator. It was inspiring to be in this huge auditorium filled with Christian teachers! Plus, one of the highlights of the event was the free concert by an a'capella Christian group called RESCUE. They led the praise and worship time and the blend of voices was simply beautiful. Of course I had to get their cds and starstruck me had to get it signed- lol!
I felt like I was in college all over again as I traveled from class to class. Ya'll know me, I'm one of those people who has to take notes. I got to pick and choose which seminars to attend, but at the same time, I also had to consider which ones would be best suited to bring back to school. The deal with school sending teachers to conferences is that we are required to present what we learned to the rest of the faculty. Kinda like giving them the seminar material in a nutshell. In my opinion, I think it would be incredibly beneficial for all teachers to attend a conference such as this simply because we are a Christian school. In fact, there were quite a few schools who basically declared a day-off for the students so that their entire staff could attend. It just seems appropriate is all I'm saying. Talk about working in a "kuriput" school- sheesh! LOL!
Anyways, aside from RESCUE, a couple classes resonated. These had to do with serving overseas in International Schools and/or using my talents to serve as a missionary.
There is something called the 10/40 WINDOW...I never heard of it before. 10/40 is basically the degrees longitude and latitude of the equator...and the countries that fall in this window are the ones most in need of hearing the Word of God. What makes this "window" so unique is that foreign missionaries are basically banned...and more often than not, the dangers are magnified if you are not a native. There are programs to financially support native missionaries, but at the same time, the numbers just do not cut it. Incredibly, there are so many who choose to go, knowing the risks of danger, but doing it for the sole purpose of winning them to Christ...and I am inspired beyond belief that this is something that I have to do.
There has been this "burden in my heart" for the past few years...I feel that God is calling me to go and serve overseas. I can't quite explain it really. Often, I question whether or not I am suitable to be among those who serve...I don't feel that my Biblical knowledge is strong and yet, my desire to go grows stronger each time. I was reminded that God often uses the weak to do His work. My co-worker, whom I roomed with, offered a perspective that never crossed my mind. Seeing that all of my possessions were left behind in Minnesota, I was left with the basics- my clothes and my car. I always joke with people...because it really makes for a funny story now...that I'm like those immigrant stories you hear..."...when I first came to America, I only had $5.00 in my pocket!..." When I left Minnesota, I literally had $20 to my name...and boy, let me tell you, I learned quickly how to make that $20 last! But perhaps God was preparing me to live a life with just the basic necessities so that I can go overseas??? Who knows? He sure does work in mysterious ways, doesn't He?
All I know is that I feel more convicted to go more than ever. The timing couldn't be better. I don't have a husband or family to worry about...and it just seems like THIS is my moment to give back. I'm not saying that I'm leaving tomorrow...but it's definitely something I've been contemplating for the near future.
Overall, it was a great trip. On the last day, I decided to take a fun class- a tour of the state capitol. Little did I know that it was only a 5-minute walk from the convention center! The only negative thing about that was the rain...the pouring rain! But aside from the cool things to see inside, the surrounding gardens was just as beautiful and enough for me to roam around in the rain and take pictures. Hahah...crazy lady with the camera! Had a good time hanging with the teachers I went with...not a crowd I'd usually hang with, but we made for good fun and conversations nonetheless. Depending where I am next year (will I be overseas? serving in that 10/40 window?), I would love to attend ACSI again. Here are some pics of lovely Sac!
Monday, October 15, 2007
PACE 40th Anniversary
When I look back at my SF State days, I swear, the only thing that is worth remembering are my experiences with PACE. PACE (Pilipino American Collegiate Endeavor) is where it all started for me...my college life, my college experiences, the place where I met the friends who I now call my family. The saying is true, "...the friends you meet in college are the ones you'll have for life..." It holds true for me and I know it's true for many others. To think that a tiny, little office in the Student Union could be the center of so many unforgettable moments...there were many beginnings, many endings, much drama, and above all, much laughter. Who would've thought that a closet-sized room would hold so many memories...some of which I cannot even mention here! LOL! Yes, yes, some things are meant to stay on the DL...
The organization itself has a rich history...and this year marks the 40th anniversary. I won't go into the details simply because those who read this blog already know it...but it blows my mind to think that out of a student strike in 1967 sparked a new era in which PACE was formed and where a college of Ethnic Studies was founded. While PACE has definitely had its ups and downs and its cycle of being social and political, we have to remember its roots. We have to remember the struggles that the founding members went through just to have an organization established. As was read in an email from founder Pat Salavar, he had no idea how far PACE would go. He had no idea that it would last more than three years...and look at it now- 40 years and going strong!
I will say this...I am proud to have been part of PACE. I was lucky enough be serve in the leadership as CORE (Cultural, Internship, and Finance) and even luckier still, to serve with my best friends. As I told Keyopes this past weekend, it really was my peers who inspired me to step up in those leadership roles. Never in my life would I have thought I'd be able to do it, but my friends pushed me and encouraged me...and for that, I am forever thankful.
College was most definitely the time where I was the most politically active and aware. It was the time in which I was most active in the Pilipino community, aside from my involvement in Pilipino folkdancing. I learned SO MUCH about my history and most importantly, I learned so much about myself as a person and as a Pinay. These years in PACE formed me into the person I am...along with great friends, it really was the best years of my life. I look fondly back at those days and I am proud to say that the friends that I had then are still the same friends I have today. What a blessing!
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It amazes me that it's been 10 years since the 30th Anniversary! I think what made that event so wonderful was the fact that we actually had many of the founding members present: Pat Salavar, Judge Ronald Quidachay, Alex Soria, and of course, Dan Begonia and Dan Gonzalez to name a few. This time around, only the Dans were in attendance...and they were presented with a Lifetime Achievement Award.
The oldest CORE in attendance were actually Keyopes, Dr. C, and myself. We had a good time reminiscing, but all the same, wishing that more of the gang was there. The event was held at Ristorante Portofino in Pacifica...a nice lil' restaurant right by the water. It was a night of appetizers, drinks, slideshows, stories, and lots of laughter....lot of networking going on as well. It's neat to see how much PACE has grown (and well, how much has changed...).
Here a few pics!
Ristorante Portofino in Pacifica
Setting sun.JPG)
Keyopes, Uncle Dan Gonzalez, Uncle Dan Begonia, MnM, and Dr. C
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the Camantigues and Prof. Begonia
.JPG)
Pictorials...should we have done a PROM pose?!.JPG)
Generation gap, my ass! We still look GOOD! Lol!
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When I look back at my SF State days, I swear, the only thing that is worth remembering are my experiences with PACE. PACE (Pilipino American Collegiate Endeavor) is where it all started for me...my college life, my college experiences, the place where I met the friends who I now call my family. The saying is true, "...the friends you meet in college are the ones you'll have for life..." It holds true for me and I know it's true for many others. To think that a tiny, little office in the Student Union could be the center of so many unforgettable moments...there were many beginnings, many endings, much drama, and above all, much laughter. Who would've thought that a closet-sized room would hold so many memories...some of which I cannot even mention here! LOL! Yes, yes, some things are meant to stay on the DL...
The organization itself has a rich history...and this year marks the 40th anniversary. I won't go into the details simply because those who read this blog already know it...but it blows my mind to think that out of a student strike in 1967 sparked a new era in which PACE was formed and where a college of Ethnic Studies was founded. While PACE has definitely had its ups and downs and its cycle of being social and political, we have to remember its roots. We have to remember the struggles that the founding members went through just to have an organization established. As was read in an email from founder Pat Salavar, he had no idea how far PACE would go. He had no idea that it would last more than three years...and look at it now- 40 years and going strong!
I will say this...I am proud to have been part of PACE. I was lucky enough be serve in the leadership as CORE (Cultural, Internship, and Finance) and even luckier still, to serve with my best friends. As I told Keyopes this past weekend, it really was my peers who inspired me to step up in those leadership roles. Never in my life would I have thought I'd be able to do it, but my friends pushed me and encouraged me...and for that, I am forever thankful.
College was most definitely the time where I was the most politically active and aware. It was the time in which I was most active in the Pilipino community, aside from my involvement in Pilipino folkdancing. I learned SO MUCH about my history and most importantly, I learned so much about myself as a person and as a Pinay. These years in PACE formed me into the person I am...along with great friends, it really was the best years of my life. I look fondly back at those days and I am proud to say that the friends that I had then are still the same friends I have today. What a blessing!
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It amazes me that it's been 10 years since the 30th Anniversary! I think what made that event so wonderful was the fact that we actually had many of the founding members present: Pat Salavar, Judge Ronald Quidachay, Alex Soria, and of course, Dan Begonia and Dan Gonzalez to name a few. This time around, only the Dans were in attendance...and they were presented with a Lifetime Achievement Award.
The oldest CORE in attendance were actually Keyopes, Dr. C, and myself. We had a good time reminiscing, but all the same, wishing that more of the gang was there. The event was held at Ristorante Portofino in Pacifica...a nice lil' restaurant right by the water. It was a night of appetizers, drinks, slideshows, stories, and lots of laughter....lot of networking going on as well. It's neat to see how much PACE has grown (and well, how much has changed...).
Here a few pics!
Ristorante Portofino in Pacifica
Setting sun
.JPG)
Keyopes, Uncle Dan Gonzalez, Uncle Dan Begonia, MnM, and Dr. C
.JPG)
the Camantigues and Prof. Begonia
.JPG)
Pictorials...should we have done a PROM pose?!
.JPG)
Generation gap, my ass! We still look GOOD! Lol!
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