Can It Really Be?!

...the end of summer school already?! It's almost bittersweet because while the six-week long program ends tomorrow, I get a brief two weeks of rest and relaxation (NOT!) before the new school year begins. Seriously, where did the summer go?

Admittedly so, I enjoyed working with these incoming 3rd graders. I just don't think I accomplished all that I wanted to in these six weeks. Yes, it was a tough transition at first...yes, it was tiring...and damn those long ass field trip days! But this particular group of kids made it all worth it. They're cute, funny, silly, and still have that adorable innocence about them...they remind me why I fell in love with teaching in the first place.

The past week has been difficult with the passing of my Lolo. Because he was in the Philippines, all of my mom's brothers and sisters flew back for the funeral. And because yours truly was the only available driver, I've been to and from SFO way too many times to count. What can I say...I am just a chauffeur. I really wanted to go back, but due to the fact that I DO NOT have my passport AND couln't quite afford the $1300 airfare, I was among the few to stay behind.

The first batch of family are now coming back...the return to "regular life" after a funeral is always surreal in many ways. It hasn't quite hit me 100% that Lolo is gone, but all I know is that he's no longer suffering and that he's in a better place. Hell, he's probably up there in his Senior Center in the sky, wearing his famous bolo along with that suave smile and twinkle in his eyes, and dancing up a storm. He lived a long life and I am just thankful that I was able to have him for 34 years.

As my summer quickly comes to an end, I'm hoping to have at least one more summer adventure before school starts...stay tuned for updates!

Everyone is Entitled...

...to play hooky a couple times from work...and claim it as a "Mental Health Day"...

...to having ice cream AT LEAST once a day...

...to buying new shoes (or books!) to make you feel better...

...to sleep well into Saturday afternoon...

...to some guilty pleasures, whatever it may be...

...to have a meltdown now and then...

...to a girls' nite out every so often...

...to some ME time...

...to find love and be loved...

Why?

Why am I feeling ho-hum? I should be ecstatic about tomorrow, right? It's not that I'm sad...it's not that. I think it's that freakin' psychological crap that I tend to pull on myself that's getting me somewhat down. I think it's that idiotic part of me that goes outta the way to "remember" certain days.

Is it because I'm being super-analytical? This is what I get for immersing myself into a Sex in the City marathon! Ha! Yes, a girlfriend let me borrow the entire series on dvd and I am just catching up. How's it been? Enlightening, to say the least! Lol! So this is what I've been missing out on?! Lordy! And hey, when my girls call me "Charlotte," I'm beginning to understand why...but I'm not TOTALLY like her...am I???

Anyways, all of the drama about dating, being single, and just relationships in general has gotten into my head. Too much so, in fact. And with crap anniversaries in the wings, it's messing with my mind. I hate this shit.

Dammit...is it only Wednesday??? One more day until the weekend...

Hell...I KNOW it will get better...'tis a phase, I'm sure...blah, blah, blah...