Life is Good...I'm Good...It's All Good...
...and it's about freakin' time!
Ya'll know how big of a dork I am when it comes to remembering specific days. In the past, it's usually gotten me in trouble because I would go from happy-go-lucky to miss moody in a quick flash. For as long as I can remember, I've always been one to remember anniversaries, whether if it was for something worth remembering or not...in most cases, it was not.
July 3 is a big day for me...HUGE actually...how about GINORMOUS MILESTONE?! To others, yes, 'tis the day before our country's birthday, but for yours truly, it will be one year since I signed my divorce papers!
Without getting into the nitty gritty of how the past few years of how my life have been, let's just say that I had to go through some REALLY bad shit to get to the good place where I am now...and for those who know, it was B-A-D. But fast-forward five long-ass years (was it really that long ago???), I can honestly say that I am good...that life is good.
Back in April, I attended an all women's retreat at my church. I was hesitant to go, but I found the courage to go and I went knowing no one. Pretty bold, I thought. Seeing that I was a "newbie," one of the first questions people ask is, "Well MnM, how did you come to know the Lord?" Sounds so Bible-thumpy, but really, it wasn't like that at all. I go into my spiel about how I was born and raised Catholic, how I questioned my faith, blah blah blah, and how I got married, went through the shit I did, found strength in God, struggled with forgiveness, and eventually decided to give my life to Christ. I always tell people that I honestly believe that I had to go through the relationship and marriage with Doh in order to come to that point to see my need for Christ in my life. And if I had to do it all over again...I would. Well, I met so many wonderful and amazing women that weekend that I didn't realize how often I shared my story/testimony...and it took one woman to say, "Wow, you seem so okay with your divorce now" for me to realize that yah, I AM okay. Ask me a few years ago about my failed marriage and it would've been instant tears...but now, it's something that I've accepted and something that I've really come to terms with. And yes people, I AM okay!
So let me just try to convey in a nutshell, if I could, how good God has been and how God works in mysterious ways...
...after this retreat, I had decided that I was done with the whole dating scene. I'd been on so many 1st dates that I think I may have been coffeed-out, know what I'm saying? I figured, if it wasn't in the cards, if it wasn't meant to be, why force the issue? Maybe I was meant to be single for a while, y'know? This is what went through my mind. But hey, since I was "subscribed" to one of those dating sites (and I can't believe I actually admitted that on this blog...lol), I figured, let me just finish up the month and I'll be done-done. Well lo and behold, I got an email from a guy...a teacher...and after talking with him on the phone, decided to meet him. It really was one of those things...I had no expectations and honestly, I kinda just went with it.
Here I was about to give up dating altogether...and for the Music Maestro, he swore that he'd never date anyone from da city simply because it was too far from the South Bay...but we met and what a great first date we had! From there came the second, third, fourth, fifth....and well, y'all know where it goes from here. Two months later and I can say that I'm at the happiest that I've been IN A LONG TIME...and it's all thanks to the Music Maestro...
Corny, I know, but yah, that's it...that's my story...and that's why LIFE IS GOOD for MnM these days.
Happy 1st Year Anniversary to me and to FREEDOM! I'm damn proud of myself for coming this far!
Monday, June 30, 2008
Friday, June 27, 2008
Summer...where art thou???
Can someone please remind me what in God's name made me sign up to teach summer school this year? I mean, did I somehow get into a phase of self-afflicting pain? Did I not think that the past year was not as bad as I thought? How could the desire to catch up on much needed sleep that I've been dreaming about for the last ten months be forgotten? How?! Why?!
This past week has seemed like an eternity. Summer school JUST started...and I seriously can't believe how relieved I am that it's Friday.
IT'S ONLY THE FIRST WEEK!!!
And I've got five...FIVE...more weeks to go...
I'll admit...the incoming 3rd graders are totally adorable. Not only are they teeny tiny, but they are genuinely sweet. You can definitely see that sweet innocence in them and that truly reminds me of why I love working with young kids. Yesterday, we went on our first field trip to the Exploratorium. Ya'll know that the Exploratorium rocks, right? As many times as I've gone there, I still find myself amazed. Now if I feel like that, what more for an 8-year old kid, yah? One of my little boys called for me, "Miss MnM! Miss MnM! Come here, you HAVE to see this!"...all the while grabbing my hand and dragging me across to a particular exhibit. It was adorable! This one boy is a total cutie pie...and I was somewhat bummed to learn that he only attends Cornerstone for the summer program; for the regular school year, he goes somewhere else. That's the case for quite a few of the kids and it's the case for the ones that anyone would want in their class. Awwww....
For the summer school program, I'm teaching Reading/History/Writing for half a day. Basically, I teach the same thing to two 3rd grade classes. Plus, there's no homework and no tests.
So...what's so terrible about it? Well, okay...not much. I think because this is my first time teaching grade school summer school that it's more work than I anticipated. There are no lesson plans to follow, no particular curriculum set, and I bascially have the freedom to choose what I want to teach. Sounds simple, but it's not. I didn't really have time to do research and prepare since the regular school year let out. Once school was done, I went to Catalina. After Catalina, I got sick. Before I knew it, summer school started...and btw, I'm STILL sick! (I've felt like I'm dying actually...yah, yah, I do need to see a doctor...). This sounds awful, but I feel like I am just teaching on the fly. I hate being this unprepared and at the same time, it's somewhat difficult for me to pinpoint specifically what I want to teach in just six weeks. Maybe it's 'cuz I'm still way under the weather to be in the right state of mind to plan. Sickness and meds can do that to someone, eh?
In any case, thank God it's Friday! Annnnnd....next week is a short week with 4th of July coming up- WERD!
Ahhhh...'tis sad really. I've spent the entire school year counting down the days until summer. Now that it IS summer, I'm slowly counting down the days until summer school is over. *sigh* It's not that bad, I admit, but I think I actually miss sleep.
One week down...five more to go....
MnM's Shout-Outs
*To the David-Gomes fam- congratulations and welcome to baby Kairo! My lil' cousin and our newest addition to our fam, Kairo came into the world on the "happiest day of the year"- June 20. Proud mama is doin' fine...
*To the Chiu fam- Mrs. Eri gave birth to a baby boy, Darren, the same day as my auntie! Love and congratulations...
*To baby Lauren...happy 7-month birthday! love from your favorite auntie....
*To E: happy belated birthday!
*To J: yah, it's cheesy...and??? Lol...c'mon now, be happy for me, won't you, homie? ;-)
*To the Music Maestro: hi sweets...miss you! <3
Can someone please remind me what in God's name made me sign up to teach summer school this year? I mean, did I somehow get into a phase of self-afflicting pain? Did I not think that the past year was not as bad as I thought? How could the desire to catch up on much needed sleep that I've been dreaming about for the last ten months be forgotten? How?! Why?!
This past week has seemed like an eternity. Summer school JUST started...and I seriously can't believe how relieved I am that it's Friday.
IT'S ONLY THE FIRST WEEK!!!
And I've got five...FIVE...more weeks to go...
I'll admit...the incoming 3rd graders are totally adorable. Not only are they teeny tiny, but they are genuinely sweet. You can definitely see that sweet innocence in them and that truly reminds me of why I love working with young kids. Yesterday, we went on our first field trip to the Exploratorium. Ya'll know that the Exploratorium rocks, right? As many times as I've gone there, I still find myself amazed. Now if I feel like that, what more for an 8-year old kid, yah? One of my little boys called for me, "Miss MnM! Miss MnM! Come here, you HAVE to see this!"...all the while grabbing my hand and dragging me across to a particular exhibit. It was adorable! This one boy is a total cutie pie...and I was somewhat bummed to learn that he only attends Cornerstone for the summer program; for the regular school year, he goes somewhere else. That's the case for quite a few of the kids and it's the case for the ones that anyone would want in their class. Awwww....
For the summer school program, I'm teaching Reading/History/Writing for half a day. Basically, I teach the same thing to two 3rd grade classes. Plus, there's no homework and no tests.
So...what's so terrible about it? Well, okay...not much. I think because this is my first time teaching grade school summer school that it's more work than I anticipated. There are no lesson plans to follow, no particular curriculum set, and I bascially have the freedom to choose what I want to teach. Sounds simple, but it's not. I didn't really have time to do research and prepare since the regular school year let out. Once school was done, I went to Catalina. After Catalina, I got sick. Before I knew it, summer school started...and btw, I'm STILL sick! (I've felt like I'm dying actually...yah, yah, I do need to see a doctor...). This sounds awful, but I feel like I am just teaching on the fly. I hate being this unprepared and at the same time, it's somewhat difficult for me to pinpoint specifically what I want to teach in just six weeks. Maybe it's 'cuz I'm still way under the weather to be in the right state of mind to plan. Sickness and meds can do that to someone, eh?
In any case, thank God it's Friday! Annnnnd....next week is a short week with 4th of July coming up- WERD!
Ahhhh...'tis sad really. I've spent the entire school year counting down the days until summer. Now that it IS summer, I'm slowly counting down the days until summer school is over. *sigh* It's not that bad, I admit, but I think I actually miss sleep.
One week down...five more to go....
MnM's Shout-Outs
*To the David-Gomes fam- congratulations and welcome to baby Kairo! My lil' cousin and our newest addition to our fam, Kairo came into the world on the "happiest day of the year"- June 20. Proud mama is doin' fine...
*To the Chiu fam- Mrs. Eri gave birth to a baby boy, Darren, the same day as my auntie! Love and congratulations...
*To baby Lauren...happy 7-month birthday! love from your favorite auntie....
*To E: happy belated birthday!
*To J: yah, it's cheesy...and??? Lol...c'mon now, be happy for me, won't you, homie? ;-)
*To the Music Maestro: hi sweets...miss you! <3
Monday, June 23, 2008
How Cheesy Would I Sound If....
...I said that I've had this stupid goofy grin permanently glued to my face...
...the days seem brighter and sunnier since we met...
...just one thought of him makes my day...
...I get all giggly whenever I get a text message....
...I actually go buy dog greeting cards now...
...I honestly do miss his dog, Roscoe...(when did My start loving dogs??? i know!)
...I bust out my phone or camera to show pictures of us...
...I love telling people about what a great guy he is...
...all it takes is a look ...from him to know...
I know, I know...throw up all you want, but all I gotta say is that I'm loving every minute with my Music Maestro...
Be happy for me, won't you? ;-)
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