You unimaginable bastard! I've no words to clearly convey how appalled I truly am. What fucking nerve you have to consciously break those girls' hearts! In your mind, you probably think that you are doing them a favor, staying away with that out of sight, out of mind mentality, but guess again shithead? You have wounded them in one of the worst possible ways where they will carry the knowledge that you are what you are- a liar. I know that you're a believer that blood is thicker than water. Whatever happens, they will always be your blood, but blood or not, you've let them down and that is how they will remember you. What did they ever do to be rewarded with such selfishness? You had no right to be careless with their hearts...how dare you! How could you live with yourself knowing the damage you've done? You were careless with my heart once before and I was a damn fool to give you chance after chance to show me that you had changed. You changed alright...for the worse.

You are a definite runnerup for the asshole of the century award and if there were something higher than that, or in this case, lower, you'd get it. Your carelessness, stupidity, lack of respect for yourself and others have caused so much pain. Do you rejoice in that? You are so fucked in the head because you were willing to gamble with the emotions of the most innocent people who love you, who stood by you, who stood up for you, and who would do anything for you. But you know what? You gambled an unlucky hand....you went all in and you lost everything. And what are you left with now?

Life is all about choices. No one in this world is perfect. We are all bound to make mistakes, some over and over again. But the lesson is to learn from those mistakes. You? Nah, not you. You don't like to take shit from anyone. You don't like it when other people point out what went wrong because you can't stand being wrong....hell, you're a grown-ass man, right? That's what you're always saying! But if you were half the man that I thought you were, you wouldn't be in this pathetic situation that you're in. Instead of trying to dig yourself out, you'd rather keep digging in. And you know why? It's because it's the only way you know how. Keep running away from your problems and your responsibilites...the farther away, the better. In time, people will forget all the shit you did and all the heartache you caused...or so you believe.

The truth always comes out, mutherfucker...ALWAYS. You can hide from it, but it will seek you out.

I went to church yesterday and I prayed for you. There was one key point that stood out and resonated: "Everyone is best served when you are you."

Basically it comes down to this- when God was doing His thang, creating the world and such, He already had a vision of what the world should look like and WHO and WHAT His children would be. He's known all along the person who you'd become. We do a disservice to God, to yourself, and to others when we are not who we should be. I am a firm believer that He wanted us all to be good...and because He loved us so much, He gave us free will to make our own choices. You can choose to be a good person or not. You can choose to love or not. You can choose to lie or not. You can choose to make better choices...or not.

You have chosen otherwise and now you have to deal with the consequences. Just when I think you can't fuck up anymore, you do. And boy, do you disappoint!

You have left me speechless yet again...and my heart breaks, but not for you. I cry for the pain you've caused to the most undeserving...and yet, I rejoice that they finally know the truth. I hope that everyone will come to know the scum of the earth that you are.