Life is Good...I'm Good...It's All Good...

...and it's about freakin' time!

Ya'll know how big of a dork I am when it comes to remembering specific days. In the past, it's usually gotten me in trouble because I would go from happy-go-lucky to miss moody in a quick flash. For as long as I can remember, I've always been one to remember anniversaries, whether if it was for something worth remembering or not...in most cases, it was not.

July 3 is a big day for me...HUGE actually...how about GINORMOUS MILESTONE?! To others, yes, 'tis the day before our country's birthday, but for yours truly, it will be one year since I signed my divorce papers!

Without getting into the nitty gritty of how the past few years of how my life have been, let's just say that I had to go through some REALLY bad shit to get to the good place where I am now...and for those who know, it was B-A-D. But fast-forward five long-ass years (was it really that long ago???), I can honestly say that I am good...that life is good.

Back in April, I attended an all women's retreat at my church. I was hesitant to go, but I found the courage to go and I went knowing no one. Pretty bold, I thought. Seeing that I was a "newbie," one of the first questions people ask is, "Well MnM, how did you come to know the Lord?" Sounds so Bible-thumpy, but really, it wasn't like that at all. I go into my spiel about how I was born and raised Catholic, how I questioned my faith, blah blah blah, and how I got married, went through the shit I did, found strength in God, struggled with forgiveness, and eventually decided to give my life to Christ. I always tell people that I honestly believe that I had to go through the relationship and marriage with Doh in order to come to that point to see my need for Christ in my life. And if I had to do it all over again...I would. Well, I met so many wonderful and amazing women that weekend that I didn't realize how often I shared my story/testimony...and it took one woman to say, "Wow, you seem so okay with your divorce now" for me to realize that yah, I AM okay. Ask me a few years ago about my failed marriage and it would've been instant tears...but now, it's something that I've accepted and something that I've really come to terms with. And yes people, I AM okay!

So let me just try to convey in a nutshell, if I could, how good God has been and how God works in mysterious ways...

...after this retreat, I had decided that I was done with the whole dating scene. I'd been on so many 1st dates that I think I may have been coffeed-out, know what I'm saying? I figured, if it wasn't in the cards, if it wasn't meant to be, why force the issue? Maybe I was meant to be single for a while, y'know? This is what went through my mind. But hey, since I was "subscribed" to one of those dating sites (and I can't believe I actually admitted that on this blog...lol), I figured, let me just finish up the month and I'll be done-done. Well lo and behold, I got an email from a guy...a teacher...and after talking with him on the phone, decided to meet him. It really was one of those things...I had no expectations and honestly, I kinda just went with it.

Here I was about to give up dating altogether...and for the Music Maestro, he swore that he'd never date anyone from da city simply because it was too far from the South Bay...but we met and what a great first date we had! From there came the second, third, fourth, fifth....and well, y'all know where it goes from here. Two months later and I can say that I'm at the happiest that I've been IN A LONG TIME...and it's all thanks to the Music Maestro...

Corny, I know, but yah, that's it...that's my story...and that's why LIFE IS GOOD for MnM these days.

Happy 1st Year Anniversary to me and to FREEDOM! I'm damn proud of myself for coming this far!