I Gotta Admit...
*...that I had a pretty good day at work today...and it was all because ONE student wasn't there. My "challenging" kid has been living up to his reputation and while I am trying my damndest, I don't feel that I'm handling him very well. He makes me want to tear my hair out and 9 out of 10 times, he is the reason why I am not having a good day. He makes me doubt my skills as a teacher because I feel that I am failing him. He's had a traumatic early childhood, but when he acts up and gets physically violent and defiant, I lose my cool. But without him in the classroom today, so much was accomplished...and today was a good day.
*...I'm getting old! Lol...yes, yes, it happens to us all, but damn, I am SO feeling it! I've got aches and pains all over my body and I just realized something...my hair is graying! I've had a bad back for years, but when the weather gets cold like it's been, even a double dose of Motrin can't help. Last night I had a pounding headache, achy back, and my knee...remember how the kneecap popped out? It's been feeling funky lately. And the latest thing...I think I may have carpal. My wrists and forearms feel tweaked and I can't even open a water bottle without wincing. Feeling old...
*...I am a sucker for Irish accents...so much so that it may get me in trouble. I just don't want to go down that path that leads to nowhere but heartache...lol...if I should even call it that! I'm pretty sure I'm on a one-way street all on my own, but sometimes I can't help myself. S-U-C-K-E-R.
*...I really enjoyed my Starbucks today...along with the company. It was great to catch up and compare notes, so to speak. But more than that, I gotta admit that while I'm glad you are "ridiculously happy" in your life right now, a part of me was somewhat disappointed. Can't quite explain, but nevertheless, it was great to see you...looking forward to hanging again soon.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Blast From the Past
In a span of one week, I've either received a phone call, a text, or have run into someone that I haven't seen in a helluva long time! That saying of "everything happens in threes" rings so true!
- Got a call from 'Part2'...lol...my original "Summer School" twin! Even though she moved from the Bay years ago and despite us losing touch for years at a time, whenever we do get back in touch, it's as if time never passed. We catch up on each other's lives, but our closeness has never wavered and it's as if the two best friends from elementary school never parted ways. Sometime in the summer, I got a call from her cousin, also an old classmate of mine, and he did tell me that she was expecting her second child. We made plans to meet up, but our plans fell through. But he did pass my number to 'Part2', but it was only last week that she got a hold of me. In the 30minutes or so that we talked, I told her about my divorce and she told me about her new baby girl. Again, one would never guess that it's been years since we last spoke. Coincidentally, she called me today to let me know that there's been a death in her family. She'll be coming to the Bay for the funeral, and though it's under such sad circumstances, it will be great to see her again.
- For the past couple of weeks, I've been getting these random texts and I've been clueless as to whom has been sending them. They'd never be personal texts to me; rather, it'd be forwards. I finally had to ask, "who is this?" because I was curious and it turned out to be a friend of a friend who happened to change cell numbers. Apparently, I didn't make the mass email/text when the changes were made...lol...mystery solved!
- When it's been years since you've last someone, you're not quite sure if it's truly them unless you hear someone utter their name...or in my case, unless you see their nametag! Ran into F while I was shopping and as I stood in line, I couldn't help but stare. Was it him? Was it not? As he passed me, I took a quick glimpse at his nametag and at the same time, he noticed me and did that whole, "Hey! I know you!" thing. It was a trip because as I was talking to him, I kept thinking, "This fool does NOT remember my name!" Lol! It was very cool to run into him since the last time was from my SF State days...'tis always fun to think back to those college days and how we were all young and stupid...but now that we're older, it'll be cool to catch up and see where our lives have taken us thus far.
MyKidz
When I think of my current class, I get bummed. Why? Because it's so long until summer vacation! Damn, that's awful! It's not that I don't love my students...because I do. It's just that I'm having a hard time LIKING them most of the time. There's a difference.
We just had a field trip to City Hall and the Main Library downtown. Thankfully, the weather was cooperative and no one got lost or sick. A few students were left behind because they had missing assignments...and of course, I had to deal with their angry parents afterwards, but that's another post. But see, to ME, I believe that field trips are a PRIVILEGE. They are such a great learning tool and an experience that I wish every kid could participate in. I LOVE the opportunity for these kids to have a taste on the world outside the safety of our school walls...because A LOT of them are so sheltered...and egads, so spoiled. But still, these special trips are reserved for the kids who work hard and who deserve it. Maybe I'm being harsh here, but if you can't turn in all of your work, if you don't turn in your permission slip and money by the dealdine, if you are causing trouble ALL THE TIME, my policy is that you WILL be left behind.
But see, it doesn't end there. While we are on the field trip, I still expect my students to follow the rules. Yes, they are excited and whatnot, but still. And then for these very same kids to COMPLAIN about little things is beyond me! I see it in their diva faces...the world revolves around them...and they DESERVE whatever it is their heart desires.
Sorry...with that kind of attitude, I've no problem shooting you down. Plus, when I see you treating your parents like c-r-a-p, talking back, and even blaming them for your stupid and careless mistakes, I WILL PUT YOU IN YOUR PLACE. Shit...when did 8-year olds get free reign over their parents??? While I will never, ever place a hand on a child in anger, it doesn't stop me from thinking that some of the kids nowadays truly deserve a good-ass whoopin...hands down.
Anyways...the field trip itself was incredible. I never tire of visiting City Hall. It's such a magnificent and beautiful historic building...and the day that we happened to go, it was being prepared for a Gala Ball to commemorate 75 years of the San Francisco Ballet. City Hall is called the "People's Palace"...and I couldn't help thinking that it would be almost like a fairytale to attend an elegant evening there. How corny, I know! Just walking down the grand staircase in the domed rotunda would be almost dreamlike...lol...ok, I'll stop. Aside from me enjoying the beauty of City Hall, my class was "ok." They don't impress me much...and I don't think they really care to. That sucks.
How many more months of school???
In a span of one week, I've either received a phone call, a text, or have run into someone that I haven't seen in a helluva long time! That saying of "everything happens in threes" rings so true!
- Got a call from 'Part2'...lol...my original "Summer School" twin! Even though she moved from the Bay years ago and despite us losing touch for years at a time, whenever we do get back in touch, it's as if time never passed. We catch up on each other's lives, but our closeness has never wavered and it's as if the two best friends from elementary school never parted ways. Sometime in the summer, I got a call from her cousin, also an old classmate of mine, and he did tell me that she was expecting her second child. We made plans to meet up, but our plans fell through. But he did pass my number to 'Part2', but it was only last week that she got a hold of me. In the 30minutes or so that we talked, I told her about my divorce and she told me about her new baby girl. Again, one would never guess that it's been years since we last spoke. Coincidentally, she called me today to let me know that there's been a death in her family. She'll be coming to the Bay for the funeral, and though it's under such sad circumstances, it will be great to see her again.
- For the past couple of weeks, I've been getting these random texts and I've been clueless as to whom has been sending them. They'd never be personal texts to me; rather, it'd be forwards. I finally had to ask, "who is this?" because I was curious and it turned out to be a friend of a friend who happened to change cell numbers. Apparently, I didn't make the mass email/text when the changes were made...lol...mystery solved!
- When it's been years since you've last someone, you're not quite sure if it's truly them unless you hear someone utter their name...or in my case, unless you see their nametag! Ran into F while I was shopping and as I stood in line, I couldn't help but stare. Was it him? Was it not? As he passed me, I took a quick glimpse at his nametag and at the same time, he noticed me and did that whole, "Hey! I know you!" thing. It was a trip because as I was talking to him, I kept thinking, "This fool does NOT remember my name!" Lol! It was very cool to run into him since the last time was from my SF State days...'tis always fun to think back to those college days and how we were all young and stupid...but now that we're older, it'll be cool to catch up and see where our lives have taken us thus far.
MyKidz
When I think of my current class, I get bummed. Why? Because it's so long until summer vacation! Damn, that's awful! It's not that I don't love my students...because I do. It's just that I'm having a hard time LIKING them most of the time. There's a difference.
We just had a field trip to City Hall and the Main Library downtown. Thankfully, the weather was cooperative and no one got lost or sick. A few students were left behind because they had missing assignments...and of course, I had to deal with their angry parents afterwards, but that's another post. But see, to ME, I believe that field trips are a PRIVILEGE. They are such a great learning tool and an experience that I wish every kid could participate in. I LOVE the opportunity for these kids to have a taste on the world outside the safety of our school walls...because A LOT of them are so sheltered...and egads, so spoiled. But still, these special trips are reserved for the kids who work hard and who deserve it. Maybe I'm being harsh here, but if you can't turn in all of your work, if you don't turn in your permission slip and money by the dealdine, if you are causing trouble ALL THE TIME, my policy is that you WILL be left behind.
But see, it doesn't end there. While we are on the field trip, I still expect my students to follow the rules. Yes, they are excited and whatnot, but still. And then for these very same kids to COMPLAIN about little things is beyond me! I see it in their diva faces...the world revolves around them...and they DESERVE whatever it is their heart desires.
Sorry...with that kind of attitude, I've no problem shooting you down. Plus, when I see you treating your parents like c-r-a-p, talking back, and even blaming them for your stupid and careless mistakes, I WILL PUT YOU IN YOUR PLACE. Shit...when did 8-year olds get free reign over their parents??? While I will never, ever place a hand on a child in anger, it doesn't stop me from thinking that some of the kids nowadays truly deserve a good-ass whoopin...hands down.
Anyways...the field trip itself was incredible. I never tire of visiting City Hall. It's such a magnificent and beautiful historic building...and the day that we happened to go, it was being prepared for a Gala Ball to commemorate 75 years of the San Francisco Ballet. City Hall is called the "People's Palace"...and I couldn't help thinking that it would be almost like a fairytale to attend an elegant evening there. How corny, I know! Just walking down the grand staircase in the domed rotunda would be almost dreamlike...lol...ok, I'll stop. Aside from me enjoying the beauty of City Hall, my class was "ok." They don't impress me much...and I don't think they really care to. That sucks.
How many more months of school???
Saturday, January 19, 2008
In No Particular Order...
Seems like ages since the last time I posted...and it's not because there hasn't been anything blog-worthy to share...it's more like the "I should really subscribe to my own internet service instead of relying on a connection to some random neighbor.." Lol. And because I am never sure of how long I will be connected, here's a quick run-down of what's been goin' down with MnM in the past few weeks in no particular order.
Some birthdays have come, gone, and are quickly approaching. Quick shout-outs to Chelle, Ana, Ethan's Mommy, Nico-man, Soleil in MN, Jadon's mama, MY mama...and for tomorrow, my dad and Mr. Kam. My Lolo's 93rd is coming up and so is Bina who's turning 11...wow, how quickly she's grown up! And if Kuya Sam were still with us, he would've turned 38 on the 21st...I miss you much, rest in peace...
The weather has been up and down, rainy and windy, sunny and clear, but always bone-chilling cold in the night. Thankfully we haven't had any terrorizing storms as of late and I can only hope that we're done with 'em. I've succumbed to being that sucker for not making it out to the beach for a walk/jog because of the cold, BUT I did buy myself a balance ball so I could still get my exercise on at home. Unfortunately, I got hit with body aches, headaches, coughing, sore throat, and runny nose earlier in the week...went to work ANYWAY, but paid for it midweek. Had to go home early on Tuesday and was out the entire day on Wednesday. I nursed whatever I had with chicken soup (thanks Mom!), tea, NYQUIL (knocks you the f-out!), and good ole' fashioned (and much needed)sleep. I must've been out for 20+ hours! I'm good to go and I'm up and about now...being sick SO bites.
School has been...gosh, what's the word? Um...challenging. I haven't been feeling the love lately...not sure if it's the love of teaching that's waning or if it's the kids. As tough as my kids have been in the past and despite the not-so-good days, I've always felt a connection with my kids early on in the school year. But as it is- five months now- there ain't one to speak of...and it saddens me. I don't feel like I'm getting through to these kids and to be quite frank, 3/4 of them are spoiled with bad attitudes up the wazoo! I had two really bad weeks in a row- not one day was a good one- and I just got fed up. Last Thursday, the entire class practiced being silent. That's right, S-I-L-E-N-T. Plus, they had so much work to do that they didn't have time to speak. Call it harsh punishment or whatever, these kids deserved what they got and all I gotta say is that they had better learned from it. Or else. Can you believe it, but I'm already looking forward to summer vacation?! (*On one of those bad days, I got a call from Nico. His mom didn't know he had called me, but here we were having the funniest conversation! He had called to see how I'm doing and to tell me that he missed me. Aw, did I feel loved or what?! If only he knew how much his call cheered me up! Love that kid!)
In the news: the Sunset! Yessir, my hood has been making it on the news as of late. Sometime last week, there were two incidents involving the MUNI streetcars- 1) a car was hit as it was backing out, apparently didn't notice or see the approaching streetcar...nevermind that it's BIG, LONG, LOUD, and ORANGE...2) a man fell off the boarding area, got caught underneath, AND was dragged for twenty blocks....TWENTY! And here's my most recent that freaks the hell outta me- a body of man was found covered beneath some sand at Ocean Beach. If ya'll are familiar with the parking lot, you know that they are numbered. Well, the body was found closest to #17...nevermind the fact that is the exact spot that I pass each time I go walking. Gives me the creeps...OH, and just the other night, the familiar sounds of the police helicopters were roaming above, probably with searchlights on. Nice.
Other random stuff...bought the cutest boots at DSW only to find out that they're not the most comfortable. (and yes, I DID try them on and walked around in them at the store!) My Apu is in the hospital AGAIN. Seems like she's been in and out every month... Been watching a bunch of DVDs lately: Bend It Like Beckham, A Lot Like Love, Shakespeare in Love, and Malena. Finished reading the Darlington pick, "Eat Love Pray." A tough memoir to stomach because of the issues with divorce and love of self...it was almost as if I was reading about myself in many parts. I also reread "God's Blogs" because it's a quick read and yet, its short excerpts speak volumes. I've just started on "Atonement," but I'm getting impatient because I want to see the movie already. Attended Michael's art showing at BacioCafe last Sunday bringing along with me Jen, Andrew, and son Joshua. Had my unfortunate nightmare again that had plagued me for so long in the past...wondered WHY and WHAT triggered me to have it...and decided it was because I had to pay yet another final invoice to my freakin' lawyer AND the fact that it's been a year since my townhome in Woodbury was foreclosed. Speaking of home, my lil' place is getting cozier and now that I've got myself a microwave (it's red!), life is good. Lastly, I'm still fascinated by all things Ireland and fancy myself going there and having a romantic love affair with a pub singing local with the accent that just melts my heart, but for now, the dream must be set aside for the time being. Sometimes the saying, "We'll always have what we had" just doesn't cut it, but if it's all there is to it, then I guess it'll have to do...
Seems like ages since the last time I posted...and it's not because there hasn't been anything blog-worthy to share...it's more like the "I should really subscribe to my own internet service instead of relying on a connection to some random neighbor.." Lol. And because I am never sure of how long I will be connected, here's a quick run-down of what's been goin' down with MnM in the past few weeks in no particular order.
Some birthdays have come, gone, and are quickly approaching. Quick shout-outs to Chelle, Ana, Ethan's Mommy, Nico-man, Soleil in MN, Jadon's mama, MY mama...and for tomorrow, my dad and Mr. Kam. My Lolo's 93rd is coming up and so is Bina who's turning 11...wow, how quickly she's grown up! And if Kuya Sam were still with us, he would've turned 38 on the 21st...I miss you much, rest in peace...
The weather has been up and down, rainy and windy, sunny and clear, but always bone-chilling cold in the night. Thankfully we haven't had any terrorizing storms as of late and I can only hope that we're done with 'em. I've succumbed to being that sucker for not making it out to the beach for a walk/jog because of the cold, BUT I did buy myself a balance ball so I could still get my exercise on at home. Unfortunately, I got hit with body aches, headaches, coughing, sore throat, and runny nose earlier in the week...went to work ANYWAY, but paid for it midweek. Had to go home early on Tuesday and was out the entire day on Wednesday. I nursed whatever I had with chicken soup (thanks Mom!), tea, NYQUIL (knocks you the f-out!), and good ole' fashioned (and much needed)sleep. I must've been out for 20+ hours! I'm good to go and I'm up and about now...being sick SO bites.
School has been...gosh, what's the word? Um...challenging. I haven't been feeling the love lately...not sure if it's the love of teaching that's waning or if it's the kids. As tough as my kids have been in the past and despite the not-so-good days, I've always felt a connection with my kids early on in the school year. But as it is- five months now- there ain't one to speak of...and it saddens me. I don't feel like I'm getting through to these kids and to be quite frank, 3/4 of them are spoiled with bad attitudes up the wazoo! I had two really bad weeks in a row- not one day was a good one- and I just got fed up. Last Thursday, the entire class practiced being silent. That's right, S-I-L-E-N-T. Plus, they had so much work to do that they didn't have time to speak. Call it harsh punishment or whatever, these kids deserved what they got and all I gotta say is that they had better learned from it. Or else. Can you believe it, but I'm already looking forward to summer vacation?! (*On one of those bad days, I got a call from Nico. His mom didn't know he had called me, but here we were having the funniest conversation! He had called to see how I'm doing and to tell me that he missed me. Aw, did I feel loved or what?! If only he knew how much his call cheered me up! Love that kid!)
In the news: the Sunset! Yessir, my hood has been making it on the news as of late. Sometime last week, there were two incidents involving the MUNI streetcars- 1) a car was hit as it was backing out, apparently didn't notice or see the approaching streetcar...nevermind that it's BIG, LONG, LOUD, and ORANGE...2) a man fell off the boarding area, got caught underneath, AND was dragged for twenty blocks....TWENTY! And here's my most recent that freaks the hell outta me- a body of man was found covered beneath some sand at Ocean Beach. If ya'll are familiar with the parking lot, you know that they are numbered. Well, the body was found closest to #17...nevermind the fact that is the exact spot that I pass each time I go walking. Gives me the creeps...OH, and just the other night, the familiar sounds of the police helicopters were roaming above, probably with searchlights on. Nice.
Other random stuff...bought the cutest boots at DSW only to find out that they're not the most comfortable. (and yes, I DID try them on and walked around in them at the store!) My Apu is in the hospital AGAIN. Seems like she's been in and out every month... Been watching a bunch of DVDs lately: Bend It Like Beckham, A Lot Like Love, Shakespeare in Love, and Malena. Finished reading the Darlington pick, "Eat Love Pray." A tough memoir to stomach because of the issues with divorce and love of self...it was almost as if I was reading about myself in many parts. I also reread "God's Blogs" because it's a quick read and yet, its short excerpts speak volumes. I've just started on "Atonement," but I'm getting impatient because I want to see the movie already. Attended Michael's art showing at BacioCafe last Sunday bringing along with me Jen, Andrew, and son Joshua. Had my unfortunate nightmare again that had plagued me for so long in the past...wondered WHY and WHAT triggered me to have it...and decided it was because I had to pay yet another final invoice to my freakin' lawyer AND the fact that it's been a year since my townhome in Woodbury was foreclosed. Speaking of home, my lil' place is getting cozier and now that I've got myself a microwave (it's red!), life is good. Lastly, I'm still fascinated by all things Ireland and fancy myself going there and having a romantic love affair with a pub singing local with the accent that just melts my heart, but for now, the dream must be set aside for the time being. Sometimes the saying, "We'll always have what we had" just doesn't cut it, but if it's all there is to it, then I guess it'll have to do...
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Ho-Hum Weekend
I hope ya'll are keeping dry, safe, and warm during these stormy days. Da Bay has been hit with monster rains and intense winds powerful enough to split and uproot trees. The damage of the aftermath near my neck of the woods is eerie- branches scattered everywhere, gigantic trees split down the center, and leaves covering the roads like freshly fallen snow.
Friday morning's drive to work practically gave me a stomach ache. It reminded me of the Minnesota winters and traveling in the snow. Not only was I decked out for the weather (heavy jacket, boots, gloves, scarf, and hat), but driving in the torrential rain gave me the same exact feeling as we'd travel down those slick snow-covered roads in Woodbury, MN. Being surrounded by frozen lakes on either side of the road, my stomach churned with anxiety and with fervent prayers that we would make it safely to our destination. All it would take was one slip that could send our car sliding out of control off the road and into the lake. Of course, if the lake wasn't completely frozen over, then into the bone-chilling water we would go! This worrisome feeling, this panic-stricken paranoia, this fear of a tragic slow death by drowning consumed me to the point where I would feel sick to my tummy. It never failed each time we ventured out...and this is how I felt last Friday on my way to work. Okay, so I'm not surrounded by frozen lakes, but the trees that line the sides of the roads hovered ominously. Their branches were swaying so violently that I was half-expecting all of them to crash down...which some of them did! My prayers during my lil' commute was this: "Please God, let me get to work safely...don't let any trees crash down on my car...please let the tread of my tires be okay so that I don't spin out of control...and please get that ass in back of me to stop tailing me!" Thankfully, I did get to work safely and on time.
The storm didn't let up for the entire day and for many parts of the Bay, that meant no electricity. Fortunately, loss of power didn't affect my fam or me, but we were prepared. Despite the rain, I went to Target after school. As I was browsing, I happened to pass by the flashlight section and it was completely wiped out! Empty!
Saturday's storm was horrid, but in the afternoon, we were treated to a short reprieve. Although the temps were still ass-biting cold (lol...Sis, you like that? Thank Jane for me for that one!), I headed to the beach to check out the waves. My weatherbug was been blinking every so often since yesterday and it warned of high surf and possible flooding. The Great Highway was closed and it was neat to see runners and bikers alike taking advantage of all the free space. (Oh, and just a sidenote: I am not a hardcore runner, nor do I desire to ever be. In fact, I am trying to get out of that mode where the cold weather deters me from walking at all. It's painful at first...having that cold wind in your face and having it cut through your body, but once you get warmed up, the pain slowly dissipates. I often get that guilty feeling when I've decided NOT to go and then I see all these people running their hearts out. But did I feel that guilt seeing hardcore runners out in the storm? Running in that pouring rain...it's maddening, really! It's freaking H-A-R-D-C-O-R-E, that's what it is! But as much as I'd like to continue getting in shape, running in a storm and risking pneumonia is not a priority...) I'll tell you, I love living so close to the beach and hearing the waves is just so calming...BUT, when they say monster waves, they aren't kidding! It's pretty scary....AWESOMELY so. But as I marveled at the sun breaking through the clouds (and after taking a few pics!), I thought about the movie, "The Day After Tomorrow" and how we were in the eye of the storm. With global warming and its adverse effects, the reality of that movie is, in my opinion, a huge possibility. I could go on about that, but I'll save that for another post...
When it's cold and dreary out, all you want to do is stay in bed and cuddle underneath the covers, right? After some hours of putting together a microwave cart and rearranging my kitchen (I don't want to get into that right now...lol), I threw in "Bend It Like Beckham." I've never seen this before, although I've wanted to buy it for sometime. All I knew was that it was a movie about soccer (football!) and how an Indian girl defies her family for her love of the game.
I LOVE this movie! Not only is it a girl empowerment movie, but for many other reasons, too: 1) it has Keira Knightly...I dig her!, 2) the producer is the same one who did "Bride and Prejudice"...there's even a Bollywood scene, too!, 3) they show parts of England and Germany...Europe, a future destination for me, 4) all the soccer/futbol scenes is inspiring...makes me want to run laps (NOT in a storm...) and do situps! and lastly, 5) Jonathan Rhys Meyers...hubba, hubba...the coach from Ireland (helloooo!!!)with the s-e-x-y accent...need I say more?
(I mean...I COULD, but I won't...). LOL...yah, it's official...I'm crazy!
I hope ya'll are keeping dry, safe, and warm during these stormy days. Da Bay has been hit with monster rains and intense winds powerful enough to split and uproot trees. The damage of the aftermath near my neck of the woods is eerie- branches scattered everywhere, gigantic trees split down the center, and leaves covering the roads like freshly fallen snow.
Friday morning's drive to work practically gave me a stomach ache. It reminded me of the Minnesota winters and traveling in the snow. Not only was I decked out for the weather (heavy jacket, boots, gloves, scarf, and hat), but driving in the torrential rain gave me the same exact feeling as we'd travel down those slick snow-covered roads in Woodbury, MN. Being surrounded by frozen lakes on either side of the road, my stomach churned with anxiety and with fervent prayers that we would make it safely to our destination. All it would take was one slip that could send our car sliding out of control off the road and into the lake. Of course, if the lake wasn't completely frozen over, then into the bone-chilling water we would go! This worrisome feeling, this panic-stricken paranoia, this fear of a tragic slow death by drowning consumed me to the point where I would feel sick to my tummy. It never failed each time we ventured out...and this is how I felt last Friday on my way to work. Okay, so I'm not surrounded by frozen lakes, but the trees that line the sides of the roads hovered ominously. Their branches were swaying so violently that I was half-expecting all of them to crash down...which some of them did! My prayers during my lil' commute was this: "Please God, let me get to work safely...don't let any trees crash down on my car...please let the tread of my tires be okay so that I don't spin out of control...and please get that ass in back of me to stop tailing me!" Thankfully, I did get to work safely and on time.
The storm didn't let up for the entire day and for many parts of the Bay, that meant no electricity. Fortunately, loss of power didn't affect my fam or me, but we were prepared. Despite the rain, I went to Target after school. As I was browsing, I happened to pass by the flashlight section and it was completely wiped out! Empty!
Saturday's storm was horrid, but in the afternoon, we were treated to a short reprieve. Although the temps were still ass-biting cold (lol...Sis, you like that? Thank Jane for me for that one!), I headed to the beach to check out the waves. My weatherbug was been blinking every so often since yesterday and it warned of high surf and possible flooding. The Great Highway was closed and it was neat to see runners and bikers alike taking advantage of all the free space. (Oh, and just a sidenote: I am not a hardcore runner, nor do I desire to ever be. In fact, I am trying to get out of that mode where the cold weather deters me from walking at all. It's painful at first...having that cold wind in your face and having it cut through your body, but once you get warmed up, the pain slowly dissipates. I often get that guilty feeling when I've decided NOT to go and then I see all these people running their hearts out. But did I feel that guilt seeing hardcore runners out in the storm? Running in that pouring rain...it's maddening, really! It's freaking H-A-R-D-C-O-R-E, that's what it is! But as much as I'd like to continue getting in shape, running in a storm and risking pneumonia is not a priority...) I'll tell you, I love living so close to the beach and hearing the waves is just so calming...BUT, when they say monster waves, they aren't kidding! It's pretty scary....AWESOMELY so. But as I marveled at the sun breaking through the clouds (and after taking a few pics!), I thought about the movie, "The Day After Tomorrow" and how we were in the eye of the storm. With global warming and its adverse effects, the reality of that movie is, in my opinion, a huge possibility. I could go on about that, but I'll save that for another post...
When it's cold and dreary out, all you want to do is stay in bed and cuddle underneath the covers, right? After some hours of putting together a microwave cart and rearranging my kitchen (I don't want to get into that right now...lol), I threw in "Bend It Like Beckham." I've never seen this before, although I've wanted to buy it for sometime. All I knew was that it was a movie about soccer (football!) and how an Indian girl defies her family for her love of the game.
I LOVE this movie! Not only is it a girl empowerment movie, but for many other reasons, too: 1) it has Keira Knightly...I dig her!, 2) the producer is the same one who did "Bride and Prejudice"...there's even a Bollywood scene, too!, 3) they show parts of England and Germany...Europe, a future destination for me, 4) all the soccer/futbol scenes is inspiring...makes me want to run laps (NOT in a storm...) and do situps! and lastly, 5) Jonathan Rhys Meyers...hubba, hubba...the coach from Ireland (helloooo!!!)with the s-e-x-y accent...need I say more?
(I mean...I COULD, but I won't...). LOL...yah, it's official...I'm crazy!
Thursday, January 03, 2008
"I’m pregnant…pass the potatoes."
(Molly Ringwald in 80’s flick "For Keeps")
First of all, NO…I'm not talking about myself. Good Lord.
It was the funniest thing. During lunch the other day, my co-worker was telling us about an upcoming event for the 3rd Grade including all the paperwork involved when all of a sudden, without changing her tone of voice and seemingly continuing her train of thought, blurted out that she was pregnant. It was so unexpected that we all had to do a "Huh? What?" double-take of sorts. As we then began to grasp what was said and excitedly started asking questions, she pulls another one of us by saying, "I'm having two." TWINS! Wowzers!
I have to step in here for a sec. I mean, while I do understand that everyone has different personalities, this is so NOT what I'm used to. I had this similar discussion with BFF as I was there when she announced to her family that she, herself, was expecting. BFF's hubby has just graduated and I was invited to the family shindig. We were at a restaurant, seated at a round table, and albeit that her sister already knew, when the news was broken, there was hardly a peep above a whisper that was spoken. Even from the way BFF announced it…."I’m expecting…" was soooooooo calm and quiet. Her mom had a look like, "What is it that you're expecting?" When the soon-to-be grandparents finally realized what she had said, it was STILL quiet...they were elated, of course, but quiet nonetheless. This announcement from my co-worker was no different...and I find it a little funny. Why?
Okay…let me explain. If it was ME who was announcing that I was pregnant, a noise patrol officer (if one existed) would have to start making arrests. Alright, so everyone's family is not as loud as mine, but man, one would not be able to hear themselves think amid the sea of hysterical and chaotic laughter and excitement. We are THAT loud, I shit you not. What can I say? We're just excitable people!
Another example of how I cannot contain my excitement and happiness...another co-worker, Erica, announced that she was expecting...btw, there is a GRIP of lil' Cornerstone babies being born! Anyways...a few of us were talking and she leans her head and comes in a bit closer and asks, "Can you react calmly?" And c'mon, when you hear those words, you KNOW the news is going to be big. I asked her why and she repeats her question, but this time with a big smile on her face. By this time, I already knew, but HAD to ask to confirm. Can MnM react calmly?!
How can anyone react calmly to such good news? Seriously?!
At least with Erica, there was some sort of warning...a preview. With yesterday's news, I think the field trip and pregnancy announcement was uttered in one single breath. Then, okay, by the way, I’m having two. HUGE NEWS people!
Well...maybe I'm just silly, excitable, and naturally happy like that...in any case, congrats to all the soon-to-be and new moms at Cornerstone!
(Molly Ringwald in 80’s flick "For Keeps")
First of all, NO…I'm not talking about myself. Good Lord.
It was the funniest thing. During lunch the other day, my co-worker was telling us about an upcoming event for the 3rd Grade including all the paperwork involved when all of a sudden, without changing her tone of voice and seemingly continuing her train of thought, blurted out that she was pregnant. It was so unexpected that we all had to do a "Huh? What?" double-take of sorts. As we then began to grasp what was said and excitedly started asking questions, she pulls another one of us by saying, "I'm having two." TWINS! Wowzers!
I have to step in here for a sec. I mean, while I do understand that everyone has different personalities, this is so NOT what I'm used to. I had this similar discussion with BFF as I was there when she announced to her family that she, herself, was expecting. BFF's hubby has just graduated and I was invited to the family shindig. We were at a restaurant, seated at a round table, and albeit that her sister already knew, when the news was broken, there was hardly a peep above a whisper that was spoken. Even from the way BFF announced it…."I’m expecting…" was soooooooo calm and quiet. Her mom had a look like, "What is it that you're expecting?" When the soon-to-be grandparents finally realized what she had said, it was STILL quiet...they were elated, of course, but quiet nonetheless. This announcement from my co-worker was no different...and I find it a little funny. Why?
Okay…let me explain. If it was ME who was announcing that I was pregnant, a noise patrol officer (if one existed) would have to start making arrests. Alright, so everyone's family is not as loud as mine, but man, one would not be able to hear themselves think amid the sea of hysterical and chaotic laughter and excitement. We are THAT loud, I shit you not. What can I say? We're just excitable people!
Another example of how I cannot contain my excitement and happiness...another co-worker, Erica, announced that she was expecting...btw, there is a GRIP of lil' Cornerstone babies being born! Anyways...a few of us were talking and she leans her head and comes in a bit closer and asks, "Can you react calmly?" And c'mon, when you hear those words, you KNOW the news is going to be big. I asked her why and she repeats her question, but this time with a big smile on her face. By this time, I already knew, but HAD to ask to confirm. Can MnM react calmly?!
How can anyone react calmly to such good news? Seriously?!
At least with Erica, there was some sort of warning...a preview. With yesterday's news, I think the field trip and pregnancy announcement was uttered in one single breath. Then, okay, by the way, I’m having two. HUGE NEWS people!
Well...maybe I'm just silly, excitable, and naturally happy like that...in any case, congrats to all the soon-to-be and new moms at Cornerstone!
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
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Saturday, December 29, 2007
7 Weird/Random Things About MnM
Okay...this is late in coming. Got tagged by Twin Rho, but it being hell without the luxury of internet AND the fact that I've had to really think about my responses is what took me so long. 'Tis a funny thing about the internet...I feel so DISconnected without it and when I do have access to it, I feel all my time is semi-wasted as I try and "catch up." Yet, without it, I have caught up with other luxuries that I've let fallen by the wayside for too long...like reading. Oh yes, and sleeping...eating...correcting papers. But I digress...
A few rules about this random facts thingy...and c'mon, play along, won't you?
1. Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird things about yourself.
3. Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
1. Whenever I'm driving anywhere, I'm always looking at license plates. I think it started around the time when I started driving. But after looking at the license plates, I take it one step further by committing it to memory by coming up with some random mnemonics. Extra points if there happens to be out-of-state cars in the area and whoa, let's not forget about personalized plates...then it becomes even MORE interesting (in my mind anyways...). As bizarre as it may sound, it's almost an obsession.
2. I seriously cannot stand the fact that people do not know how to drive on the Great Highway. 35mph people...no freakin' need to tail my ass...you ain't goin' nowhere but forward on this two lane road and really, stop wasting gas by braking- the lights are TIMED!
3. I HAVE to make sure the closet doors are securely closed before going to bed. Credit that damn "Poltergeist" movie for this one, shit, I won't even go into WHY. Hell...the same goes for my reason for not liking clowns.
4. I'm a big crybaby. I cry at everything- commercials, movies, cards, books, songs, sunsets, sunrises, memories. What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic, I'm corny, and I'm easily touched...so sue me...but can you pass the tissue?
5. I'm proud to have called Minnesota my home for a few years. It may not have seemed like it at the time (because I was SO homesick for CA). I loved that I got to experience living in the Midwest and everything that came with it- from the weather to the God-lovin' peoples to the living out in the boonies thing. I miss it every now and then...and I sure do wish I was able to have a white Christmas.
6. I'm a fast typist. Even I impress myself! Lol!
7. I have ESP. Not in the sense that I could predict tomorrow's Lotto numbers, but call it my "6th Sense" if you will. Thoughts of an event or a person or something totally random will "pop" into my mind and whaddaya know, it will happen. But it's usually immediate, like within the first couple of seconds of the thought. It's pretty eerie, but it happens SO OFTEN that many times, I think nothing of it. Some people call it coincidence, but in the 25+ years that it's been happening, I embrace it as my ESP.
Okay...even though I know ya'll won't do it, I have to choose seven people...and seeing that Twin Rho and J would've been part of that group, I choose you: Ethan's Mommy, Mrs. Voodoo, Keyopes, the Weekender, RyceGirlie, msbLiSs, and BFF.
Okay...this is late in coming. Got tagged by Twin Rho, but it being hell without the luxury of internet AND the fact that I've had to really think about my responses is what took me so long. 'Tis a funny thing about the internet...I feel so DISconnected without it and when I do have access to it, I feel all my time is semi-wasted as I try and "catch up." Yet, without it, I have caught up with other luxuries that I've let fallen by the wayside for too long...like reading. Oh yes, and sleeping...eating...correcting papers. But I digress...
A few rules about this random facts thingy...and c'mon, play along, won't you?
1. Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird things about yourself.
3. Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
1. Whenever I'm driving anywhere, I'm always looking at license plates. I think it started around the time when I started driving. But after looking at the license plates, I take it one step further by committing it to memory by coming up with some random mnemonics. Extra points if there happens to be out-of-state cars in the area and whoa, let's not forget about personalized plates...then it becomes even MORE interesting (in my mind anyways...). As bizarre as it may sound, it's almost an obsession.
2. I seriously cannot stand the fact that people do not know how to drive on the Great Highway. 35mph people...no freakin' need to tail my ass...you ain't goin' nowhere but forward on this two lane road and really, stop wasting gas by braking- the lights are TIMED!
3. I HAVE to make sure the closet doors are securely closed before going to bed. Credit that damn "Poltergeist" movie for this one, shit, I won't even go into WHY. Hell...the same goes for my reason for not liking clowns.
4. I'm a big crybaby. I cry at everything- commercials, movies, cards, books, songs, sunsets, sunrises, memories. What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic, I'm corny, and I'm easily touched...so sue me...but can you pass the tissue?
5. I'm proud to have called Minnesota my home for a few years. It may not have seemed like it at the time (because I was SO homesick for CA). I loved that I got to experience living in the Midwest and everything that came with it- from the weather to the God-lovin' peoples to the living out in the boonies thing. I miss it every now and then...and I sure do wish I was able to have a white Christmas.
6. I'm a fast typist. Even I impress myself! Lol!
7. I have ESP. Not in the sense that I could predict tomorrow's Lotto numbers, but call it my "6th Sense" if you will. Thoughts of an event or a person or something totally random will "pop" into my mind and whaddaya know, it will happen. But it's usually immediate, like within the first couple of seconds of the thought. It's pretty eerie, but it happens SO OFTEN that many times, I think nothing of it. Some people call it coincidence, but in the 25+ years that it's been happening, I embrace it as my ESP.
Okay...even though I know ya'll won't do it, I have to choose seven people...and seeing that Twin Rho and J would've been part of that group, I choose you: Ethan's Mommy, Mrs. Voodoo, Keyopes, the Weekender, RyceGirlie, msbLiSs, and BFF.
Friday, December 28, 2007
National Treasure: Book of Secrets
Two thumbs up! If you liked the first National Treasure movie, you'll love this movie. When it comes to movies, I'm pretty easy about 'em. There really aren't many movies that I don't like...aside from all of the movies that I simply REFUSE to see that includes all horror/slasher movies. It's funny because growing up, I never had much of a liking for history. It wasn't until my last year in high school that I became so engrossed in our study of the Vietnam War. From there, I began to notice how fascinating the past was...and of course there's the learning from the past so as not to commit the same mistakes twice, etc, but seriously, I regret not paying more attention in school back in the day.
Without going into the storyline, I will say how I love how the story jumps around to the different locations - from Paris to London to Mt.Rushmore in South Dakota. Yes, yes, a giggly MnM sat there excitedly saying, "I was there! I was there!" Out of all the states that I was able to pass through during my cross-country drive from MN to CA, South Dakota was- hands down- the most interesting state....compared to Wyoming and Nebraska, that is. Mt. Rushmore is truly a sight to behold!
In any case, as it is with enjoyable movies, I was sad to see it end. I wish all movies were at least 3 hours long! lol! OH...I forget to mention....saw the preview for Prince Caspian...the return to NARNIA! I'm so excited!
'Twas a nice relaxing day to spend with my sis, BADMama and the fam....plus, we also ran into Triple D and BeBeBallerina's parents...so really, it was a family affair all around!
Two thumbs up! If you liked the first National Treasure movie, you'll love this movie. When it comes to movies, I'm pretty easy about 'em. There really aren't many movies that I don't like...aside from all of the movies that I simply REFUSE to see that includes all horror/slasher movies. It's funny because growing up, I never had much of a liking for history. It wasn't until my last year in high school that I became so engrossed in our study of the Vietnam War. From there, I began to notice how fascinating the past was...and of course there's the learning from the past so as not to commit the same mistakes twice, etc, but seriously, I regret not paying more attention in school back in the day.
Without going into the storyline, I will say how I love how the story jumps around to the different locations - from Paris to London to Mt.Rushmore in South Dakota. Yes, yes, a giggly MnM sat there excitedly saying, "I was there! I was there!" Out of all the states that I was able to pass through during my cross-country drive from MN to CA, South Dakota was- hands down- the most interesting state....compared to Wyoming and Nebraska, that is. Mt. Rushmore is truly a sight to behold!
In any case, as it is with enjoyable movies, I was sad to see it end. I wish all movies were at least 3 hours long! lol! OH...I forget to mention....saw the preview for Prince Caspian...the return to NARNIA! I'm so excited!
'Twas a nice relaxing day to spend with my sis, BADMama and the fam....plus, we also ran into Triple D and BeBeBallerina's parents...so really, it was a family affair all around!
The Gifts of Christmas
Another Christmas has come and gone. With New Year's just around the corner, one can't help but think about how the year has been. December alone has been a busy month- not just because of last minute shopping or the chaotic rush of the last few weeks of school- but because this month has brought about so many emotions dealing with everything from news of a new baby, divorce (not mine for a change...), and death. But despite all of the changes that we have to deal with concerning each one, there's something to be learned and to be thankful for, isn't there?
After going through my own divorce, it's definitely something that I would never ever wish upon anyone. It's messy, difficult, and just downright sad. Of course, each couple has their own set of reasons as to what leads them down this path and I'm not one to say that we all fall into the same category, but understandably so, I can sympathize at how painful that decision could be. After being married, I realize that it doesn't matter how long or how short the relationship was, pain is pain...heartache is heartache. It's taken me a long time to get over that part of my life and I think in some way, it will always BE there. But as they say, time is the great healer. I've accepted what has happened and the fact that it HAD to happen. What's done is done...it's time to move on. After four years of dealing with my marital issues, I can say that I've finally let it go. It was time.
While some are just emotionally stronger than others, again, I don't wish the big D on anyone. Seeing any loved one dealing with this brings back the pain of my own, but it's not with sadness anymore. It's more like lessons learned. It's my hope that my experience can only help in the dealing of it...perhaps even be an example that yes, through time, the days won't seem so dark, life won't be so sad, and that things WILL get better.
In an earlier post, I mentioned the passing of Lolo Buddy. His death right before the holidays just seemed cruel, but at the same time, seemed apropos. In many ways, his passing brought so many people together, albeit it was under sad circumstances, still. I'm just thankful that his family was with him during his final moments.
As they say, with a death comes new life...when one passes, another is born. I think that's definitely the case here! My newly married auntie announced at Christmas that she is expecting a baby! Our clan continues to grow...lol. Talk about a surprise and wow...what a wonderful gift.
I pray that ya'll had a wonderfully blessed Christmas...and just because I think it's a beautiful story, here's the story of the Birth of Christ.
The Birth of Jesus
In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. (This was the first census that took place while Quirinius was governor of Syria.) And everyone went to his own town to register.
So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.
The Shepherds and the Angels
And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."
When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about."
So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told. ~Luke 2 (NIV)
Another Christmas has come and gone. With New Year's just around the corner, one can't help but think about how the year has been. December alone has been a busy month- not just because of last minute shopping or the chaotic rush of the last few weeks of school- but because this month has brought about so many emotions dealing with everything from news of a new baby, divorce (not mine for a change...), and death. But despite all of the changes that we have to deal with concerning each one, there's something to be learned and to be thankful for, isn't there?
After going through my own divorce, it's definitely something that I would never ever wish upon anyone. It's messy, difficult, and just downright sad. Of course, each couple has their own set of reasons as to what leads them down this path and I'm not one to say that we all fall into the same category, but understandably so, I can sympathize at how painful that decision could be. After being married, I realize that it doesn't matter how long or how short the relationship was, pain is pain...heartache is heartache. It's taken me a long time to get over that part of my life and I think in some way, it will always BE there. But as they say, time is the great healer. I've accepted what has happened and the fact that it HAD to happen. What's done is done...it's time to move on. After four years of dealing with my marital issues, I can say that I've finally let it go. It was time.
While some are just emotionally stronger than others, again, I don't wish the big D on anyone. Seeing any loved one dealing with this brings back the pain of my own, but it's not with sadness anymore. It's more like lessons learned. It's my hope that my experience can only help in the dealing of it...perhaps even be an example that yes, through time, the days won't seem so dark, life won't be so sad, and that things WILL get better.
In an earlier post, I mentioned the passing of Lolo Buddy. His death right before the holidays just seemed cruel, but at the same time, seemed apropos. In many ways, his passing brought so many people together, albeit it was under sad circumstances, still. I'm just thankful that his family was with him during his final moments.
As they say, with a death comes new life...when one passes, another is born. I think that's definitely the case here! My newly married auntie announced at Christmas that she is expecting a baby! Our clan continues to grow...lol. Talk about a surprise and wow...what a wonderful gift.
I pray that ya'll had a wonderfully blessed Christmas...and just because I think it's a beautiful story, here's the story of the Birth of Christ.
The Birth of Jesus
In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. (This was the first census that took place while Quirinius was governor of Syria.) And everyone went to his own town to register.
So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.
The Shepherds and the Angels
And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."
When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about."
So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told. ~Luke 2 (NIV)
Friday, December 21, 2007
P.S. I Love You
Talk about a tear-jerker!
First off, I already knew, without a doubt, that I was going to see this film on opening day. Second, loved the fact that I got to see it with my sis, BADMama...couldn't imagine seeing it with anyone else at the moment who would really understand inner goings of MnMz mind. Third, so glad that I had read the book FIRST...and although I have to re-read it again, it may very well be that the movie is better than the book....a rarity, I know! (Plus, I just HAD to buy another copy of the book with the movie poster of Gerard Butler on it....'cuz hell, I could look at him all day...). Fourth....well, let me just say (and this may sound somewhat ironic), but while I do believe that all things happen for a reason because God intended, I can still be superstitious in ways in which I believe in SIGNS...however big or small they may be. So fourth, this movie points to some signs...not sure whether they are significant or what, but still, signs they are to me. Lastly.....it's IRELAND. As many of you know, I am in love with IRELAND. Just seeing the backdrop of the amazingly beautiful landscape of the Irish countrysides just takes my breath away! And Lordy...the accent, oh damn, the accent....just melts my insides.
For those of you who haven't seen the preview or read the book, the basic premise is about a couple (Hilary Swank and Gerard Butler) who are totally in love with each other....but tragedy hits and Gerard Butler's character passes away. He was "the cute Irish guy who likes to sing." As his wife deals with his death, she is surprised to find that he had arranged letters to be sent to her with specific instructions...even after his passing. The entire movie goes on as she follows the wishes of her dead husband. It's sweet, really....awfully romantic....to the point of tears flowing down with each scene. Yah, I'm a sucker...I know.
And dammit, did I mention how FINE Gerard Butler is?! He's not even Irish, but d-a-m-n....he makes me melt!
Anyways, the storyline has total chickflick written all over it. I'm determined more than ever to go to Ireland now....of course along with the plan to go to Italy and France, that is. It was a crying movie, for sure (and sometimes everyone needs a good cry)....so plan on bringing some tissue.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
It's Been A While....
Yes, so apparently I have the habit of being MIA these days. To be quite honest, it really is out of my hands! Being in my own lil' crib, I have all the time in the world to blog, but danggit, if only my internet connection was on 24/7! Same old story, I know, but limited funds don't allow for me to subscribe just yet. It's ghetto, I know! So if you can imagine, I wake up each morning, head to my laptop, do a little "oh please work, oh please work" lil' chant, and wait those agonizing seconds as the green bar at the bottom of my screen loads. More often than not, it gets to about bar five before that dreaded "cannot display page- please check internet connection" pops up. Hate that shit. It really isn't cool to wake up all anxious like that only to get all frustrated and peeved...gets me swearing up a storm, I tell you! As it is, whenever I DO get connection, I never know for how long the gift will last...lol...and so, let me type away as fast as I can in order to get a posting up....
December Review
School is out for Christmas vacation...thank God! In December alone, we only really had two weeks in session....but those two weeks were pure hell! The last week alone was torture- we had our 3rd Grade Christmas program on Wednesday, our Christmas luncheon on Thursday, and of course, the last day on Friday where all the kiddies are just hyped for vacation to come. 'Tis almost as bad as the actual last day of school...almost.
Christmas programs in itself are a lot of work- so much to prepare, so much practice, and quite honestly, not enough teaching time in the classroom. When I first started teaching, there were six 3rd grade classes. That's a grip of lil' kids, I tell you! But it was also six teachers who each took a responsibility to help make it a success. This year, we have four classes...you'd think it would be easier to organize. You'd THINK. Think again!
I'd rather not get into the details...as it is, the program is over anyways. (Praise the Lord!) But I just had to share the task that I put upon myself. Each year, we've had to borrow costumes from different grade levels and the same old costumes were in rotation. I really don't think these costumes were ever cleaned and it makes me uncomfortable to have my students wear them, know what I'm saying? SO...I took it upon myself and brought the idea up to the other teachers: why don't I sew a whole set of costumes for our grade level? WHAT WAS I THINKING?
Ok...it really wasn't so terrible....and it really is MY BAD for starting the damn project so late. BUT nevertheless, I was able to punch out an entire Nativity scene that included costumes for Mary, Joseph, three wisemen, and three shepherds. Count 'em...EIGHT! Hey...nevermind that I was still staying late afterschool to work with the drama kids......nevermind that I still had to plan activities for my class....and shit, nevermind that I do have a life to lead...HELLO?
AND.....it would've helped if ALL FOUR teachers in our grade level were around to put in some time and effort. 3 out of 4 helps....but dammit, all 4 would've been fabulous. Anyways....moving on.
Even though the Nativity scene took center stage for about 10 minutes near the end of the program, I have to say....they looked GOOD! Let me boast for a sec, but there was a moment during the show when I just stared at how awesome they looked...and I swear, I wanted to give myself a pat on the back! Now let me just say...those costumes are far from perfect. If you looked at the seams and the hems, they were crooked and coming apart. Hell....I did my best at 3am! Seriously though....sleep was something totally foreign to me for those two weeks....and again, let me just say that I'm SO GLAD I'm done.
Another Moment to Share....
Since we're on the topic of MnM being so glad to be on vacation...there was a day where I completely lost it at school. Lost it, as in, I was brought to tears!
Now I've had bad days with my kids.....in fact, I've had some downright shitty days...but NEVER in all the years that I've taught have I been pushed to the limit to tears! I had to leave my classroom and let it out...OMG, it was so bad. I've never felt so disappointed, angry, frustrated, and lost with a bunch of kids before...and that really makes me sad. It doesn't help when I have one kid who equals 10 bad kids.
I can't put one finger on it, on what make me explode and what made me lose it. It could be a combination of everything- the show, lack of sleep, kids not listening- but at the same time, it could be the fact that these kids are just so spoiled. They don't get it! I mean, yes, yes, they are in school so that I could teach them how to be, but shit, it's like they cannot do anything unless it is word for word instruction. It's as if these kids are freakin' spoon-fed at home...and the worst thing is...the kids have their parents wrapped around their little fingers. So conniving! Argh! Oh yes, I forget to mention that I do have some liars in my class (...and I despise liars....), kids who forge their parents' signatures, and kids with the most rotten attitude. Yes, I'm talkin' about 3rd graders here....and it's pushing me to the limit.
Ya'll know I'd never, but some of them just need a good ass-whoopin', if you ask me!
How many more months until the end of school??? Pray for me....
Saying Goodbye....
This past Monday, my family said goodbye to Lolo Buddy. He passed away on Dec. 11th from cancer and various complications. Lolo had been in the V.A. hospital for almost three years now and each time we visited him, it seemed like he was getting worse. Last last Saturday, my mom, two aunties, and my sis came to visit my lil' place and together, we took the 5-minute drive to visit him. We didn't know that it would be the last time we'd see him alive. His body had deteriorated even more since the last time and because of all the pain he was suffering, was on a morphine drip. They tell me that he was also suffering from dementia, but I know that he did recognize us all when we were there. I did have a moment with him and again, I know that he knew who I was...and gosh, I was so very thankful to have that brief exchange with him.
We had gotten word that his health had turned for the worse and that he probably wouldn't make it to Christmas. On Dec. 11th, my mom was waiting for her younger sis to drive her to visit him. But before they headed to the hospital, they made a quick stop at McDonalds for my lil' cousin. They arrived at the V.A. Hospital twenty minutes after Lolo passed....they just missed his final moments.
The funeral was very emotional...and yet, while everyone was sad to see him go, we were all happy to see his suffering end. A few of us were able to say a few words about Lolo Buddy, myself included.
It's always hard to lose a loved one, but especially at special times of the year like Christmas. But his death brought so many family together.....family we rarely see, if but once a year. Instead of being sad over his passing, I am thankful to have had Lolo Buddy a part of my life. His memory will never fade and he will be missed....and I know that I will see him again someday.
Rest in peace, Lolo Buddy....we miss you and love you....
Yes, so apparently I have the habit of being MIA these days. To be quite honest, it really is out of my hands! Being in my own lil' crib, I have all the time in the world to blog, but danggit, if only my internet connection was on 24/7! Same old story, I know, but limited funds don't allow for me to subscribe just yet. It's ghetto, I know! So if you can imagine, I wake up each morning, head to my laptop, do a little "oh please work, oh please work" lil' chant, and wait those agonizing seconds as the green bar at the bottom of my screen loads. More often than not, it gets to about bar five before that dreaded "cannot display page- please check internet connection" pops up. Hate that shit. It really isn't cool to wake up all anxious like that only to get all frustrated and peeved...gets me swearing up a storm, I tell you! As it is, whenever I DO get connection, I never know for how long the gift will last...lol...and so, let me type away as fast as I can in order to get a posting up....
December Review
School is out for Christmas vacation...thank God! In December alone, we only really had two weeks in session....but those two weeks were pure hell! The last week alone was torture- we had our 3rd Grade Christmas program on Wednesday, our Christmas luncheon on Thursday, and of course, the last day on Friday where all the kiddies are just hyped for vacation to come. 'Tis almost as bad as the actual last day of school...almost.
Christmas programs in itself are a lot of work- so much to prepare, so much practice, and quite honestly, not enough teaching time in the classroom. When I first started teaching, there were six 3rd grade classes. That's a grip of lil' kids, I tell you! But it was also six teachers who each took a responsibility to help make it a success. This year, we have four classes...you'd think it would be easier to organize. You'd THINK. Think again!
I'd rather not get into the details...as it is, the program is over anyways. (Praise the Lord!) But I just had to share the task that I put upon myself. Each year, we've had to borrow costumes from different grade levels and the same old costumes were in rotation. I really don't think these costumes were ever cleaned and it makes me uncomfortable to have my students wear them, know what I'm saying? SO...I took it upon myself and brought the idea up to the other teachers: why don't I sew a whole set of costumes for our grade level? WHAT WAS I THINKING?
Ok...it really wasn't so terrible....and it really is MY BAD for starting the damn project so late. BUT nevertheless, I was able to punch out an entire Nativity scene that included costumes for Mary, Joseph, three wisemen, and three shepherds. Count 'em...EIGHT! Hey...nevermind that I was still staying late afterschool to work with the drama kids......nevermind that I still had to plan activities for my class....and shit, nevermind that I do have a life to lead...HELLO?
AND.....it would've helped if ALL FOUR teachers in our grade level were around to put in some time and effort. 3 out of 4 helps....but dammit, all 4 would've been fabulous. Anyways....moving on.
Even though the Nativity scene took center stage for about 10 minutes near the end of the program, I have to say....they looked GOOD! Let me boast for a sec, but there was a moment during the show when I just stared at how awesome they looked...and I swear, I wanted to give myself a pat on the back! Now let me just say...those costumes are far from perfect. If you looked at the seams and the hems, they were crooked and coming apart. Hell....I did my best at 3am! Seriously though....sleep was something totally foreign to me for those two weeks....and again, let me just say that I'm SO GLAD I'm done.
Another Moment to Share....
Since we're on the topic of MnM being so glad to be on vacation...there was a day where I completely lost it at school. Lost it, as in, I was brought to tears!
Now I've had bad days with my kids.....in fact, I've had some downright shitty days...but NEVER in all the years that I've taught have I been pushed to the limit to tears! I had to leave my classroom and let it out...OMG, it was so bad. I've never felt so disappointed, angry, frustrated, and lost with a bunch of kids before...and that really makes me sad. It doesn't help when I have one kid who equals 10 bad kids.
I can't put one finger on it, on what make me explode and what made me lose it. It could be a combination of everything- the show, lack of sleep, kids not listening- but at the same time, it could be the fact that these kids are just so spoiled. They don't get it! I mean, yes, yes, they are in school so that I could teach them how to be, but shit, it's like they cannot do anything unless it is word for word instruction. It's as if these kids are freakin' spoon-fed at home...and the worst thing is...the kids have their parents wrapped around their little fingers. So conniving! Argh! Oh yes, I forget to mention that I do have some liars in my class (...and I despise liars....), kids who forge their parents' signatures, and kids with the most rotten attitude. Yes, I'm talkin' about 3rd graders here....and it's pushing me to the limit.
Ya'll know I'd never, but some of them just need a good ass-whoopin', if you ask me!
How many more months until the end of school??? Pray for me....
Saying Goodbye....
This past Monday, my family said goodbye to Lolo Buddy. He passed away on Dec. 11th from cancer and various complications. Lolo had been in the V.A. hospital for almost three years now and each time we visited him, it seemed like he was getting worse. Last last Saturday, my mom, two aunties, and my sis came to visit my lil' place and together, we took the 5-minute drive to visit him. We didn't know that it would be the last time we'd see him alive. His body had deteriorated even more since the last time and because of all the pain he was suffering, was on a morphine drip. They tell me that he was also suffering from dementia, but I know that he did recognize us all when we were there. I did have a moment with him and again, I know that he knew who I was...and gosh, I was so very thankful to have that brief exchange with him.
We had gotten word that his health had turned for the worse and that he probably wouldn't make it to Christmas. On Dec. 11th, my mom was waiting for her younger sis to drive her to visit him. But before they headed to the hospital, they made a quick stop at McDonalds for my lil' cousin. They arrived at the V.A. Hospital twenty minutes after Lolo passed....they just missed his final moments.
The funeral was very emotional...and yet, while everyone was sad to see him go, we were all happy to see his suffering end. A few of us were able to say a few words about Lolo Buddy, myself included.
It's always hard to lose a loved one, but especially at special times of the year like Christmas. But his death brought so many family together.....family we rarely see, if but once a year. Instead of being sad over his passing, I am thankful to have had Lolo Buddy a part of my life. His memory will never fade and he will be missed....and I know that I will see him again someday.
Rest in peace, Lolo Buddy....we miss you and love you....
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Born a Fool...Always a Fool...just the story of my life...
Fool Again by Westlife
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dx2mUkZcFpI
Fool Again by Westlife
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dx2mUkZcFpI
Monday, November 26, 2007
The Popeye's Chicken Did It!
...so I was talking to Sha last night...catching up a bit on how she's been doing, how her Thanksgiving went, and how she's been feeling since, well, her baby is due anyday now. Last week, she was already dilated a centimeter and according to some veteran moms, many believe that the other 9 cm would be quick. As we were chatting, she was chowing down on some Popeye's chicken and she was saying how spicy whatever it was that she was eating. I told her, "Spicy? Girl, that's going to make the baby come out for sure!"
I got a text early this morning at 5:15am:
"I'm @ Stanford. Still in labor. Drugs- great!"
Wouldn't you know it...girlfriend went into labor not too long after we talked! Lol!
A huge congratulations to the Sha and Vic on your lil' bundle of joy...after 9 hours of labor, Lauren Paige was born at 10:11am, 6lbs 6oz and 19in long. Yay...I'm an auntie! =)
...so I was talking to Sha last night...catching up a bit on how she's been doing, how her Thanksgiving went, and how she's been feeling since, well, her baby is due anyday now. Last week, she was already dilated a centimeter and according to some veteran moms, many believe that the other 9 cm would be quick. As we were chatting, she was chowing down on some Popeye's chicken and she was saying how spicy whatever it was that she was eating. I told her, "Spicy? Girl, that's going to make the baby come out for sure!"
I got a text early this morning at 5:15am:
"I'm @ Stanford. Still in labor. Drugs- great!"
Wouldn't you know it...girlfriend went into labor not too long after we talked! Lol!
A huge congratulations to the Sha and Vic on your lil' bundle of joy...after 9 hours of labor, Lauren Paige was born at 10:11am, 6lbs 6oz and 19in long. Yay...I'm an auntie! =)
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Much to be Thankful For...
A happy belated Thanksgiving to all! Just when I thought I was getting pretty good at updating, I had to go and get my own place...and as my luck would have it, I am still without internet connection! I tell you, you really don't know how dependent you are on the internet until you are without it...I've felt so disconnected to everything for the past few days, it's driven me crazy!
Thanksgiving has come and gone...and many are still recovering from the craziness of Black Friday...lol...not me! Not this year anyways. While Turkey Day is traditionally a big family party day, this year was the exception. This year found many of us scattered about doing different things and being in different places....and to be quite honest, I was depressingly alone for the most of it. There was a lunch gathering at my Apu's house...and yes, I did have my fill of turkey and mashed potatoes...it was a short, but sweet visit with a few relatives in attendance. For the rest of the night, I spent it quietly at home lying under the covers in my still new bed reading a book. I had this urge to be out and about, to be among family and friends eating until we couldn't eat anymore, drinking up and laughing the night away talking story...but being in my new place wasn't so bad.
A lot of things have been on my mind lately...and of course, with it being Thanksgiving and all, it's the perfect time to reflect about life.
Last Saturday, I headed to Stonestown for some last minute shopping for my godson's baptism where I happened to run into one of my co-worker friends. We chatted briefly, but there was something about the way she looked at me that caught me off guard. She had this sympathetic look and even asked me if I was okay. Confused, I answered that yah, I was feeling fine. When I saw her at school on Monday, she asked me again if I was okay. I had to ask why she was so concerned. And she told me that she was worried how I was handling the upcoming holidays...because she remembered how hard it was for me last year to even take a simple stroll through the mall.
I literally had to take a moment to think back and it hit me, wow...she was right. In fact, it just wasn't the holidays that was difficult, it was the entire year!
2006 was the year of FIRSTS....the first New Year's, Valentine's Day, my birthday, Easter, July 4th, Thanksgiving, and Christmas....all without the hubby. Each holiday that passed was like a knife cutting through my heart...and as Thanksgiving and Christmas rolled around, I just wanted to disappear and die. I was exhausted from the pain and I was tired of trying to act like everything was okay when it really wasn't. Leaving him was, hands down, the hardest decision I have ever made in my life thus far...and as 2006 creeped by day to day, everything about it was "another day without him."
It was rough, I won't lie. My family, friends, and co-workers will attest to that. And I tried...really tried...to move on the best that I could. Each day was a struggle. Getting up every morning in my parents' house was a reminder of what I had left behind in Minnesota....and every night would end in tears and a desperate plea for a sign that I did the right thing.
Thanksgiving 2006: a family-filled evening....and lots and lots of wine. Lol. I pretty much had it in my mind to drink my sorrows away. I didn't get mad drunk, but I did have one glass too many that I remember just feeling chill and relaxed. This time last year, I was still very bitter about the divorce, but on that night, I didn't want to think about my sorry situation. I just wanted to drink...and I did.
2005 was a bad year....but 2006 was just plain shit. 2007 started off awful....even though I spent New Year's with my family, I felt so alone and depressed. I have often thought that I needed a shrink. Perhaps seeking psychological counseling would do me some good...but wouldn't you know it, it was always the financial part of it that held me back. Damn Rando for screwing up our finances! And of course it is me, myself, and I who is taking care of this financial shithole that he was dug us into...thanks dude.
But somewhere along the way, the pain began to hurt a little less each day. It's true when they say that time is the healer It's not a cure-all of any sort because the pain still remains, but the blows are not as damaging as it was when everything first went down. I still cried at night, but it wasn't as frequent; I'd still get melancholy hearing a song on the radio, but I wouldn't dive into the deep depression of before. Things were beginning to look up...and I believe it was only because I allowed it to.
I HAD to go through the shitty stages of depression. I HAD to withdraw from social interactions because at the time, I couldn't handle being around people...much less married couples. The trouble with me is that when my troubles with the hubby first began, I automatically wanted to fix it and by wanting that so badly, I forced myself to accept things as they were. I went from "WTF?" to "Okay dear..." I never let it truly sink in until it was too late. So 2006 was the year of just dealing with it...and again, what a screwed up year that was.
But as Thanksgiving 2007 has come and gone, and with my co-worker's sympathetic concerns fresh in my mind, I realized something so very important...
I'm OKAY.
2007 started off slow, but it quickly gained momentum. Moreso since the big D was finalized, everything else has somehow found its place. The divorce is official; I ran a half-marathon; AND I moved out. Dipping into the waters of the dating pool has been fun and interesting, to say the least, but dammit, the fact that I'm putting myself out there says a lot. OH...and plus, now I've got stories to tell! LOL!
I'm damn proud of where I am today...and not only that, but I am a much happier person. I know that all things happen for a reason and that God has a bigger plan for me. I had to go through what I did for a purpose....and starting from scratch, with literally $20 in my pocket, has helped me appreciate even the littlest things that I used to take for granted. I have been given a second chance at happiness and I'm not going to waste one second of it.
The last time I spoke to now ex-hubby, it started off bad...tempers flared, things were said, blah blah, blah...but one of the last things I said to him was that I forgave him. And I meant it with my whole heart. It takes so much energy to be and stay angry with someone...it's literally exhausting! But I was tired of being angry and bitter....and I didn't want to have all of these negative vibes inside of me. What was done was done...it was now time to move on. I will always be sad as to how things ended, but there's no use in living in the past and wishing for what if's. As I said the words, "I forgive you," it was like a burden was miraculously lifted; it was as if the dark cloud that had been permanently planted above my head finally gave way to the sun. While I may have said it before, saying it this time around felt different. I don't wish him ill-will anymore...lol...yes, wished many things upon him for a while. Hey, I was entitled! But now, all I wish him is good luck.
So Ran, if you're reading this or if your peoples are reading this, maybe you could pass the message along. Ran, I hope you are well. I hope you're moving on and doing something with your life. I hope and pray that you will be able to forgive yourself and concentrate on the three greatest things you have in your life- your kids. I wish they could know how much I love them still and how I would have loved to be part of their lives. We all live and learn...and I hope that you find your happiness one day.
Again, there is much to be thankful for...I'm grateful for my family and friends who have supported me throughout this entire process- I seriously would not have stayed sane without you. I would not have been able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Last, but definitely not least, all praise and thanks goes to God above...my source of strength, of comfort, and of love. With you, all things are possible...
Happy belated Thanksgiving ya'll...hope you enjoyed the long weekend, ate and drank plenty, and gave thanks for all the blessings...peace.
A happy belated Thanksgiving to all! Just when I thought I was getting pretty good at updating, I had to go and get my own place...and as my luck would have it, I am still without internet connection! I tell you, you really don't know how dependent you are on the internet until you are without it...I've felt so disconnected to everything for the past few days, it's driven me crazy!
Thanksgiving has come and gone...and many are still recovering from the craziness of Black Friday...lol...not me! Not this year anyways. While Turkey Day is traditionally a big family party day, this year was the exception. This year found many of us scattered about doing different things and being in different places....and to be quite honest, I was depressingly alone for the most of it. There was a lunch gathering at my Apu's house...and yes, I did have my fill of turkey and mashed potatoes...it was a short, but sweet visit with a few relatives in attendance. For the rest of the night, I spent it quietly at home lying under the covers in my still new bed reading a book. I had this urge to be out and about, to be among family and friends eating until we couldn't eat anymore, drinking up and laughing the night away talking story...but being in my new place wasn't so bad.
A lot of things have been on my mind lately...and of course, with it being Thanksgiving and all, it's the perfect time to reflect about life.
Last Saturday, I headed to Stonestown for some last minute shopping for my godson's baptism where I happened to run into one of my co-worker friends. We chatted briefly, but there was something about the way she looked at me that caught me off guard. She had this sympathetic look and even asked me if I was okay. Confused, I answered that yah, I was feeling fine. When I saw her at school on Monday, she asked me again if I was okay. I had to ask why she was so concerned. And she told me that she was worried how I was handling the upcoming holidays...because she remembered how hard it was for me last year to even take a simple stroll through the mall.
I literally had to take a moment to think back and it hit me, wow...she was right. In fact, it just wasn't the holidays that was difficult, it was the entire year!
2006 was the year of FIRSTS....the first New Year's, Valentine's Day, my birthday, Easter, July 4th, Thanksgiving, and Christmas....all without the hubby. Each holiday that passed was like a knife cutting through my heart...and as Thanksgiving and Christmas rolled around, I just wanted to disappear and die. I was exhausted from the pain and I was tired of trying to act like everything was okay when it really wasn't. Leaving him was, hands down, the hardest decision I have ever made in my life thus far...and as 2006 creeped by day to day, everything about it was "another day without him."
It was rough, I won't lie. My family, friends, and co-workers will attest to that. And I tried...really tried...to move on the best that I could. Each day was a struggle. Getting up every morning in my parents' house was a reminder of what I had left behind in Minnesota....and every night would end in tears and a desperate plea for a sign that I did the right thing.
Thanksgiving 2006: a family-filled evening....and lots and lots of wine. Lol. I pretty much had it in my mind to drink my sorrows away. I didn't get mad drunk, but I did have one glass too many that I remember just feeling chill and relaxed. This time last year, I was still very bitter about the divorce, but on that night, I didn't want to think about my sorry situation. I just wanted to drink...and I did.
2005 was a bad year....but 2006 was just plain shit. 2007 started off awful....even though I spent New Year's with my family, I felt so alone and depressed. I have often thought that I needed a shrink. Perhaps seeking psychological counseling would do me some good...but wouldn't you know it, it was always the financial part of it that held me back. Damn Rando for screwing up our finances! And of course it is me, myself, and I who is taking care of this financial shithole that he was dug us into...thanks dude.
But somewhere along the way, the pain began to hurt a little less each day. It's true when they say that time is the healer It's not a cure-all of any sort because the pain still remains, but the blows are not as damaging as it was when everything first went down. I still cried at night, but it wasn't as frequent; I'd still get melancholy hearing a song on the radio, but I wouldn't dive into the deep depression of before. Things were beginning to look up...and I believe it was only because I allowed it to.
I HAD to go through the shitty stages of depression. I HAD to withdraw from social interactions because at the time, I couldn't handle being around people...much less married couples. The trouble with me is that when my troubles with the hubby first began, I automatically wanted to fix it and by wanting that so badly, I forced myself to accept things as they were. I went from "WTF?" to "Okay dear..." I never let it truly sink in until it was too late. So 2006 was the year of just dealing with it...and again, what a screwed up year that was.
But as Thanksgiving 2007 has come and gone, and with my co-worker's sympathetic concerns fresh in my mind, I realized something so very important...
I'm OKAY.
2007 started off slow, but it quickly gained momentum. Moreso since the big D was finalized, everything else has somehow found its place. The divorce is official; I ran a half-marathon; AND I moved out. Dipping into the waters of the dating pool has been fun and interesting, to say the least, but dammit, the fact that I'm putting myself out there says a lot. OH...and plus, now I've got stories to tell! LOL!
I'm damn proud of where I am today...and not only that, but I am a much happier person. I know that all things happen for a reason and that God has a bigger plan for me. I had to go through what I did for a purpose....and starting from scratch, with literally $20 in my pocket, has helped me appreciate even the littlest things that I used to take for granted. I have been given a second chance at happiness and I'm not going to waste one second of it.
The last time I spoke to now ex-hubby, it started off bad...tempers flared, things were said, blah blah, blah...but one of the last things I said to him was that I forgave him. And I meant it with my whole heart. It takes so much energy to be and stay angry with someone...it's literally exhausting! But I was tired of being angry and bitter....and I didn't want to have all of these negative vibes inside of me. What was done was done...it was now time to move on. I will always be sad as to how things ended, but there's no use in living in the past and wishing for what if's. As I said the words, "I forgive you," it was like a burden was miraculously lifted; it was as if the dark cloud that had been permanently planted above my head finally gave way to the sun. While I may have said it before, saying it this time around felt different. I don't wish him ill-will anymore...lol...yes, wished many things upon him for a while. Hey, I was entitled! But now, all I wish him is good luck.
So Ran, if you're reading this or if your peoples are reading this, maybe you could pass the message along. Ran, I hope you are well. I hope you're moving on and doing something with your life. I hope and pray that you will be able to forgive yourself and concentrate on the three greatest things you have in your life- your kids. I wish they could know how much I love them still and how I would have loved to be part of their lives. We all live and learn...and I hope that you find your happiness one day.
Again, there is much to be thankful for...I'm grateful for my family and friends who have supported me throughout this entire process- I seriously would not have stayed sane without you. I would not have been able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Last, but definitely not least, all praise and thanks goes to God above...my source of strength, of comfort, and of love. With you, all things are possible...
Happy belated Thanksgiving ya'll...hope you enjoyed the long weekend, ate and drank plenty, and gave thanks for all the blessings...peace.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
The Longest Shortest Week
It shouldn't make sense, but it does. Monday was Veteran's Day, a day in which MnM took advantage of the beautiful weather to go running. As Queen Procrastinator, I took the liberty of waiting until Monday to work on my report cards. As chance would have it, Mrs. Voodoo and her Mango Man called and asked if I wanted to head to IKEA. Seeing that I haven't hung out with them in a while AND knowing what endless bargains lay in store for me there, I had to go. Lol! Keeping in mind that I am on a budget, I had to resist that temptation of putting this or that in the cart and stick to only the necessities. To my surprise, Mrs. Voodoo would NOT let me pay and insisted that my pick of the litter would be their housewarming gifts to me...THANKS YOU GUYS!!!
After we were IKEA'd out, we headed to the Bay Street shopping area in Emeryville...and wow! This was really the first time I've walked around and it really is nice. Plus with Christmas coming up, everything is all lit up so beautifully. Hahah...me and pretty lights! (I'm easily impressed...). Once the shopping, browsing, and talking story was done, we headed back into da city.
Sometime after the IKEA run, I started to feel really hot. My head started pounding, my stomach was hurting, and my energy level just dropped. I worked on report cards for a bit, but after a while, I couldn't take it anymore and headed to bed. The following morning, I woke up freezing! Even with two blankets AND a space heater, my entire body felt chilly.
I called work and told them I wasn't coming in. As nice as it would've been to relax, this week was SO NOT the week to be sick because of Parent-Teacher conferences. I basically had to reschedule the entire day which means that this coming Monday and Tuesday, I am in for a long day after school. Oh joy...
The conferences that I did have after returning to school on Wednesday were actually very cool. I think I speak for all the teachers in that we can only hope for supportive parents. Having that ONE difficult one could easily make or break the school year. I'm dreading one conference with a parent who has the potential to be THAT parent...
I don't care who you are...no one is perfect in this world. But if you throw the fact that you are a Christian in my face and tell me that your son can do no wrong because he is a Christian, but at the same time find the energy to talk shit about another kid in the class? I'm sorry, the respect factor has been lost. This "holier-than-thou" attitude of some Christians really piss me off! Your kid may seem "perfect" in your eyes, but he's still 8 years old. A child so young cannot discern right from wrong ALL THE TIME just because he is a Christian. Goodness gracious me...
On a lighter note, while it's the mother who can be a handful, the father is actually really nice. Nice, but beginning to be that creepy, sorta nice. Lol! I've basically known this family for quite a while from my afternoon program days. I taught the oldest daughter and I would see the dad pick her up almost every day. Throughout the years, he'd always say hello and we'd have little conversations here and there. But now that his youngest and only son is in my class, he's in my classroom often. Sometimes I'll be writing the homework on the board (and I have to use a step-stool 'cuz I'm so damn short...), and when I'm about to step down, he'll be right behind me! I mean, I wouldn't even know he was there and he'll just say "Good morning" and walk away. Strange, I tell you! I actually try and avoid unnecessary conversation if at all possible now. But just this past Friday, he came up to me and handed me an envelope. Turns out that he works for Gap and gave me a whole bunch of Friends & Family Discount! That was really nice of him, right? Now if only his wife could be so cool... In any case, this conference just so happens to be my last one on Tuesday. Wish me luck, ya'll!
Ireland
As of late, I've had this affinity towards anything having to do with Ireland. Hmmm...I wonder why??? Ha. My sis, BADMama, told me about this music group from Ireland- WESTLIFE. I feel like I've heard of them, but never took the time to see what they were about. Turns out that Simon Cowell put them together years ago! (hmmm...just like IL DIVO!). Anyways, they're a pop band that many would probably compare to the BSB and they've got some really good songs (if you like pop...) AND goshdarnit...they are fine! Lol...a little eye candy don't hurt anyone, right? I've been spending time on youtube just watching their videos and man...hubba hubba! Plus watching their interviews and hearing their accents....hothothothothot!
....totally random factoid from my sis and BruthaMan....they seem to think that WHEN (not if...) I do find that someone special, it's going to be someone non-Filipino...now if there's ever a time that they had ESP, I have to say- I'm down with that....and hell, if he happens to be from Ireland...all the better! ;-)
It shouldn't make sense, but it does. Monday was Veteran's Day, a day in which MnM took advantage of the beautiful weather to go running. As Queen Procrastinator, I took the liberty of waiting until Monday to work on my report cards. As chance would have it, Mrs. Voodoo and her Mango Man called and asked if I wanted to head to IKEA. Seeing that I haven't hung out with them in a while AND knowing what endless bargains lay in store for me there, I had to go. Lol! Keeping in mind that I am on a budget, I had to resist that temptation of putting this or that in the cart and stick to only the necessities. To my surprise, Mrs. Voodoo would NOT let me pay and insisted that my pick of the litter would be their housewarming gifts to me...THANKS YOU GUYS!!!
After we were IKEA'd out, we headed to the Bay Street shopping area in Emeryville...and wow! This was really the first time I've walked around and it really is nice. Plus with Christmas coming up, everything is all lit up so beautifully. Hahah...me and pretty lights! (I'm easily impressed...). Once the shopping, browsing, and talking story was done, we headed back into da city.
Sometime after the IKEA run, I started to feel really hot. My head started pounding, my stomach was hurting, and my energy level just dropped. I worked on report cards for a bit, but after a while, I couldn't take it anymore and headed to bed. The following morning, I woke up freezing! Even with two blankets AND a space heater, my entire body felt chilly.
I called work and told them I wasn't coming in. As nice as it would've been to relax, this week was SO NOT the week to be sick because of Parent-Teacher conferences. I basically had to reschedule the entire day which means that this coming Monday and Tuesday, I am in for a long day after school. Oh joy...
The conferences that I did have after returning to school on Wednesday were actually very cool. I think I speak for all the teachers in that we can only hope for supportive parents. Having that ONE difficult one could easily make or break the school year. I'm dreading one conference with a parent who has the potential to be THAT parent...
I don't care who you are...no one is perfect in this world. But if you throw the fact that you are a Christian in my face and tell me that your son can do no wrong because he is a Christian, but at the same time find the energy to talk shit about another kid in the class? I'm sorry, the respect factor has been lost. This "holier-than-thou" attitude of some Christians really piss me off! Your kid may seem "perfect" in your eyes, but he's still 8 years old. A child so young cannot discern right from wrong ALL THE TIME just because he is a Christian. Goodness gracious me...
On a lighter note, while it's the mother who can be a handful, the father is actually really nice. Nice, but beginning to be that creepy, sorta nice. Lol! I've basically known this family for quite a while from my afternoon program days. I taught the oldest daughter and I would see the dad pick her up almost every day. Throughout the years, he'd always say hello and we'd have little conversations here and there. But now that his youngest and only son is in my class, he's in my classroom often. Sometimes I'll be writing the homework on the board (and I have to use a step-stool 'cuz I'm so damn short...), and when I'm about to step down, he'll be right behind me! I mean, I wouldn't even know he was there and he'll just say "Good morning" and walk away. Strange, I tell you! I actually try and avoid unnecessary conversation if at all possible now. But just this past Friday, he came up to me and handed me an envelope. Turns out that he works for Gap and gave me a whole bunch of Friends & Family Discount! That was really nice of him, right? Now if only his wife could be so cool... In any case, this conference just so happens to be my last one on Tuesday. Wish me luck, ya'll!
Ireland
As of late, I've had this affinity towards anything having to do with Ireland. Hmmm...I wonder why??? Ha. My sis, BADMama, told me about this music group from Ireland- WESTLIFE. I feel like I've heard of them, but never took the time to see what they were about. Turns out that Simon Cowell put them together years ago! (hmmm...just like IL DIVO!). Anyways, they're a pop band that many would probably compare to the BSB and they've got some really good songs (if you like pop...) AND goshdarnit...they are fine! Lol...a little eye candy don't hurt anyone, right? I've been spending time on youtube just watching their videos and man...hubba hubba! Plus watching their interviews and hearing their accents....hothothothothot!
....totally random factoid from my sis and BruthaMan....they seem to think that WHEN (not if...) I do find that someone special, it's going to be someone non-Filipino...now if there's ever a time that they had ESP, I have to say- I'm down with that....and hell, if he happens to be from Ireland...all the better! ;-)
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
I Got Tagged!
Thanks Twin!
1. Name one person who made you laugh last night. --my sis, BADMama
2. What were you doing at 0800? --Walking with Ethan's Mommy down to our classrooms with coffee and breakfast in hand.
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? --Getting frustrated with the "free" internet connection...lol.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? --"For the love of God!" and "Are you kidding me?" (in reference to this internet connection...)
6. How many beverages did you have today? --three (coffee, Powerade, and chocolate soy milk)
7. What color is your hairbrush? --I use a comb
8. What was the last thing you paid for? --some groceries from Safeway
9. Where were you last night? --home...although I did leave to get some El Burrito for din-din
10. What color is your front door? --brown
11. Where do you keep your change? --in my wallet, but when it gets too full, I put 'em all in a vase
12. What's the weather like today? --it was actually a really nice day- sunny and warm
13. What's the best ice-cream flavor? --Mitchell's Mango...duh!
14. What excites you? --finding parking close to my new place in the Sunset...lol.
15. Do you want to cut your hair? --i do need a trim, so yes.
16. Are you over the age of 25? --I've been honey...
17. Do you talk a lot? --yes, i think so.
18. Do you watch the O.C.? --no
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? --plenty of 'em!
20. Do you make up your own words? --yes
21. Are you a jealous person? --unfortunately
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'. --Ana
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'. --Kai
24. Who's the first person on your received call list? --Ethan's Mommy
25. What does the last text message you received say? --"Got it today...pity I missed that now!"
26. Do you chew on your straw? --ha, i do...bad habit
27. Do you have curly hair? --no, but it's naturally wavy (same as Twin Rho!)
28. Where's the next place you're going to? --um...the bathroom..lol
29. Who's the rudest person in your life? --gee...the list goes on...lol
30. What was the last thing you ate? --toast bread with peanut butter
31. Will you get married in the future? --i hope so!
32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks? --Love Actually
33. Is there anyone you like right now? --yes
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? --about an hour ago
35. Are you currently depressed? --nah...no reason to be
36. Did you cry today? --almost...got a paper cut!
37. Why did you answer and post this? --'cuz I'm a s-u-c-k-e-r for these surveys! lol!
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey.--Ethan's Mommy, Sha, RyceGirl, Triple D, and Triangoolar.
Thanks Twin!
1. Name one person who made you laugh last night. --my sis, BADMama
2. What were you doing at 0800? --Walking with Ethan's Mommy down to our classrooms with coffee and breakfast in hand.
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? --Getting frustrated with the "free" internet connection...lol.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? --"For the love of God!" and "Are you kidding me?" (in reference to this internet connection...)
6. How many beverages did you have today? --three (coffee, Powerade, and chocolate soy milk)
7. What color is your hairbrush? --I use a comb
8. What was the last thing you paid for? --some groceries from Safeway
9. Where were you last night? --home...although I did leave to get some El Burrito for din-din
10. What color is your front door? --brown
11. Where do you keep your change? --in my wallet, but when it gets too full, I put 'em all in a vase
12. What's the weather like today? --it was actually a really nice day- sunny and warm
13. What's the best ice-cream flavor? --Mitchell's Mango...duh!
14. What excites you? --finding parking close to my new place in the Sunset...lol.
15. Do you want to cut your hair? --i do need a trim, so yes.
16. Are you over the age of 25? --I've been honey...
17. Do you talk a lot? --yes, i think so.
18. Do you watch the O.C.? --no
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? --plenty of 'em!
20. Do you make up your own words? --yes
21. Are you a jealous person? --unfortunately
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'. --Ana
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'. --Kai
24. Who's the first person on your received call list? --Ethan's Mommy
25. What does the last text message you received say? --"Got it today...pity I missed that now!"
26. Do you chew on your straw? --ha, i do...bad habit
27. Do you have curly hair? --no, but it's naturally wavy (same as Twin Rho!)
28. Where's the next place you're going to? --um...the bathroom..lol
29. Who's the rudest person in your life? --gee...the list goes on...lol
30. What was the last thing you ate? --toast bread with peanut butter
31. Will you get married in the future? --i hope so!
32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks? --Love Actually
33. Is there anyone you like right now? --yes
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? --about an hour ago
35. Are you currently depressed? --nah...no reason to be
36. Did you cry today? --almost...got a paper cut!
37. Why did you answer and post this? --'cuz I'm a s-u-c-k-e-r for these surveys! lol!
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey.--Ethan's Mommy, Sha, RyceGirl, Triple D, and Triangoolar.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Damn Them All!
...the Internet for keeping me up late last night...
...my new bed for being so comfy that I slept in two more hours than I should have...
...the weather for being so perfect that I HAD to take advantage of it to take a light jog...
...my eagerness to run that I forgot to apply sunblock...shiet, I'm going to pay for that one...
...my stupidity for not bringing any water/Powerade with me...I saw stars again!...
...the corner store with the $5 credit card minimum...dude, I just need a drink so I don't pass out!...
...the corner store (again!) for having the NEW Peanut Butter Twix candy that I had to buy TWO...there goes my workout! Double Damn!...
...the 6 blocks I live from the beach...just when you think the workout is done, there's still that extra distance to get back home...ugh...
...the break that I took after the marathon...the couple of weeks of NOT running has made a huge difference! I feel that I'm almost back to square one...almost. Must....keep...up...with...it...
...the report cards...double, triple, quadruple d-a-m-n...
*Why the hell are these things conspiring against me??? I need a coffee to think this through...LOL!*
...the Internet for keeping me up late last night...
...my new bed for being so comfy that I slept in two more hours than I should have...
...the weather for being so perfect that I HAD to take advantage of it to take a light jog...
...my eagerness to run that I forgot to apply sunblock...shiet, I'm going to pay for that one...
...my stupidity for not bringing any water/Powerade with me...I saw stars again!...
...the corner store with the $5 credit card minimum...dude, I just need a drink so I don't pass out!...
...the corner store (again!) for having the NEW Peanut Butter Twix candy that I had to buy TWO...there goes my workout! Double Damn!...
...the 6 blocks I live from the beach...just when you think the workout is done, there's still that extra distance to get back home...ugh...
...the break that I took after the marathon...the couple of weeks of NOT running has made a huge difference! I feel that I'm almost back to square one...almost. Must....keep...up...with...it...
...the report cards...double, triple, quadruple d-a-m-n...
*Why the hell are these things conspiring against me??? I need a coffee to think this through...LOL!*
MnM's NOT Holiday
I admit it. I procrastinate. Big time. And that is why on this Veteran's Day holiday...while others are relaxing, doing their thang, going shopping, playing at the park, and whatnot, MnM will be (SHOULD be...) working on report cards. Parent-teacher conferences are all this week...and honestly, there are a couple of parents whom I am d-r-e-a-d-i-n-g to meet with.
Apparently not everyone has the day off...lol...a perk of being a teacher.
I am hoping that it will rain tomorrow. That way, I won't be tempted to head to the beach. lol! I'm in for a couple of all-nighters...wish me luck ya'll...
I admit it. I procrastinate. Big time. And that is why on this Veteran's Day holiday...while others are relaxing, doing their thang, going shopping, playing at the park, and whatnot, MnM will be (SHOULD be...) working on report cards. Parent-teacher conferences are all this week...and honestly, there are a couple of parents whom I am d-r-e-a-d-i-n-g to meet with.
Apparently not everyone has the day off...lol...a perk of being a teacher.
I am hoping that it will rain tomorrow. That way, I won't be tempted to head to the beach. lol! I'm in for a couple of all-nighters...wish me luck ya'll...
Sunday, November 11, 2007
The Most Confusing Day...
Today had the potential to be one of those really great days. After an entire day of rain yesterday, I was surprised to wake up to sunny skies. This weather has been so unpredictable lately...even more, it's disillusioning...gads, is that a word? Anyways, as nice as it looked out, it felt freakin' cold.
My bed was delivered today...thanks Mom! Not that I minded sleeping on the couch...it's mighty comfy. I did, however, really hate sleeping on the daybed at my parent's house. The mattress lost its firmness years ago and every move, every turn, every breath, it would creak! Yes, yes, be thankful that I even had anything to sleep on, but still, it wasn't the most comfortable for my already bad back.
So I was supposed to hang out with a friend today...but because of miscommunication via texting (..."miscommunitexting..?"), it went from yes, we're hanging out today to the totally opposite end of the spectrum. Within a few hours time, I seriously thought this person didn't want anything to do with me! WTF went wrong? It all started with a text gone awry...WHY we didn't just call each other up to confirm plans is beyond me! What was supposed to be a cool day to hang out turned out to be back-and-forth texts from hell. Lol...I laugh about it now, but at the time, each time I'd get a text, my reaction would be like, "Where the hell did THAT come from?"
I tell you, as convenient texting is, it's impossible to distinguish tone. Just like instant messaging, right? A completely innocent text could easily be construed for something totally different than from what you originally meant it to mean. That is exactly what happened today...and it wasn't cute. It was damn near confusing and I'll admit, disheartening.
I decided to see this person anyways...and we both admitted that we were confused as to WHAT exactly went down. After talking about it and laughing it off the next minute, it hit me how much time we wasted all because of miscommunitexting...ha, I should coin that term...that is, if it hasn't been invented yet! It was a useless and unnecessary "argument"...if we can even call it that. While it could've been a great day to hang out, the day wasn't completely wasted. We ended up going to dinner and laughing about the whole thing over drinks. Still...for that brief period, I was in a complete state of confusion.
The lesson? Do not rely on texting...CALL the person up. It will avoid any unnecessary miscommunication.
And hell, it will probably save time and heartache in the end...LOL!
Today had the potential to be one of those really great days. After an entire day of rain yesterday, I was surprised to wake up to sunny skies. This weather has been so unpredictable lately...even more, it's disillusioning...gads, is that a word? Anyways, as nice as it looked out, it felt freakin' cold.
My bed was delivered today...thanks Mom! Not that I minded sleeping on the couch...it's mighty comfy. I did, however, really hate sleeping on the daybed at my parent's house. The mattress lost its firmness years ago and every move, every turn, every breath, it would creak! Yes, yes, be thankful that I even had anything to sleep on, but still, it wasn't the most comfortable for my already bad back.
So I was supposed to hang out with a friend today...but because of miscommunication via texting (..."miscommunitexting..?"), it went from yes, we're hanging out today to the totally opposite end of the spectrum. Within a few hours time, I seriously thought this person didn't want anything to do with me! WTF went wrong? It all started with a text gone awry...WHY we didn't just call each other up to confirm plans is beyond me! What was supposed to be a cool day to hang out turned out to be back-and-forth texts from hell. Lol...I laugh about it now, but at the time, each time I'd get a text, my reaction would be like, "Where the hell did THAT come from?"
I tell you, as convenient texting is, it's impossible to distinguish tone. Just like instant messaging, right? A completely innocent text could easily be construed for something totally different than from what you originally meant it to mean. That is exactly what happened today...and it wasn't cute. It was damn near confusing and I'll admit, disheartening.
I decided to see this person anyways...and we both admitted that we were confused as to WHAT exactly went down. After talking about it and laughing it off the next minute, it hit me how much time we wasted all because of miscommunitexting...ha, I should coin that term...that is, if it hasn't been invented yet! It was a useless and unnecessary "argument"...if we can even call it that. While it could've been a great day to hang out, the day wasn't completely wasted. We ended up going to dinner and laughing about the whole thing over drinks. Still...for that brief period, I was in a complete state of confusion.
The lesson? Do not rely on texting...CALL the person up. It will avoid any unnecessary miscommunication.
And hell, it will probably save time and heartache in the end...LOL!
School Update
School on Friday was "interesting." It was apparent that everyone was on edge and more alert as usual. Turns out that employee was "let go," but something tells me that this isn't the end. While the school staff has not been formally told about what's going on, I did talk to one of the higher-ups of Administration...and I do not agree with how everything was handled. First of all, it's been established that this employee has not been taking her perscribed medication. This has resulted in major mood shifts and bouts of paranoia where she believes that everyone is against her. I wasn't aware, but earlier in the year, her husband passed away. She had been seen talking to herself, but some are thinking that she is talking to her deceased spouse. She has also been warning people to stop bugging her husband because he's so busy...this showing that perhaps she has not accepted or is still trying to deal with the loss of her husband. With this mental and emotional instability, I do believe that her presence at school puts the safety of the students and staff in jeopardy.
At the same time, I firmly believe that she is in need of some serious help and support....her being fired (in the presence of a police officer) doesn't make matters better. She probably feels betrayed after having worked at school for so many years, too. I think suspension would've been better...give her a mini-vacation, use that time to hold an emergency staff meeting, and really look into any possible solutions. But now, on top of her instability, we're thinking anger, bitterness, and possibly hate. Okay, they asked for her keys upon terminating her, but does that guarantee that she won't be back? That's what I'm worried about.
Thankfully we have this three-day holiday...maybe emotions will cool down, maybe not. All I know is that Admin could've handled this better. As thankful as I am knowing that she won't be around the students, I am saddened for her. I continue to pray that she gets the proper help through the right channels and that she will not take her anger out on anyone.
MnM's Crib
I spent the night at my place for the very first time on Friday...I was stoked! As I slowly move the rest of my belongings in, the place gets a tad cozier each time. Spending the night was an impulsive decision and I wasn't quite prepared...for example, it would've been PERFECT if I had brought my lil' portable heater because it was DAMN COLD. Lol!
I woke up with the intention of going running (since I'm so close to the beach and all...), but dude, it was raining! Rain the entire day isn't a total loss- to be honest, it's actually romantic. Just makes you want to stay in your pj's all day lounging in bed...
Blockbuster Night
Not that I go to Blockbuster anymore...hell, I don't even do the NetFlix thing...but I have built up my own lil' DVD collection and tonight was the perfect night to hang out and watch. While I may not have my own TV and DVD player, my laptop has served its purpose well in that department. I popped in "Best Man"- always a good laugh out loud comedy with some drama and a kick ass soundtrack. I can't tell you how many times I've watched this movie, but somehow, I haven't gotten sick of it.
"Love Actually" was my other choice. I swear, I love this movie! It would seem perfect to watch this during Christmas...and I'll probably watch it again next month. But man..."...love is all around me..." could be somewhat depressing. But not as depressing as it was LAST Christmas! No, there really is nothing for me to be depressed about simply because this year, 2007, has been MY year...and 2008 is going to be even better.
It's such a feel good movie...and it gets me every time. I ESPECIALLY love that one scene with Keira Knightly where her husband's best friend comes to the door with all of the written signs that basically declares his love for her. And he does it without any hope or expectation in return...he does it because it's Christmas (and at Christmas, you tell the truth...). It melts my heart! Make me wish that someone could look at me the way he looks at her...
When I first watched "Love Actually" for the first time, I remember thinking that there were too many little stories to follow...but it just goes to show how LOVE can be felt on so many different levels and capacities.
Anyways...with the Christmas holidays coming up, it makes me wonder what things I should share "because it's Christmas." I would definitely be putting myself out there...and yet, I should do so without hope or agenda. No matter what the outcome, I should take the chance...just because.
School on Friday was "interesting." It was apparent that everyone was on edge and more alert as usual. Turns out that employee was "let go," but something tells me that this isn't the end. While the school staff has not been formally told about what's going on, I did talk to one of the higher-ups of Administration...and I do not agree with how everything was handled. First of all, it's been established that this employee has not been taking her perscribed medication. This has resulted in major mood shifts and bouts of paranoia where she believes that everyone is against her. I wasn't aware, but earlier in the year, her husband passed away. She had been seen talking to herself, but some are thinking that she is talking to her deceased spouse. She has also been warning people to stop bugging her husband because he's so busy...this showing that perhaps she has not accepted or is still trying to deal with the loss of her husband. With this mental and emotional instability, I do believe that her presence at school puts the safety of the students and staff in jeopardy.
At the same time, I firmly believe that she is in need of some serious help and support....her being fired (in the presence of a police officer) doesn't make matters better. She probably feels betrayed after having worked at school for so many years, too. I think suspension would've been better...give her a mini-vacation, use that time to hold an emergency staff meeting, and really look into any possible solutions. But now, on top of her instability, we're thinking anger, bitterness, and possibly hate. Okay, they asked for her keys upon terminating her, but does that guarantee that she won't be back? That's what I'm worried about.
Thankfully we have this three-day holiday...maybe emotions will cool down, maybe not. All I know is that Admin could've handled this better. As thankful as I am knowing that she won't be around the students, I am saddened for her. I continue to pray that she gets the proper help through the right channels and that she will not take her anger out on anyone.
MnM's Crib
I spent the night at my place for the very first time on Friday...I was stoked! As I slowly move the rest of my belongings in, the place gets a tad cozier each time. Spending the night was an impulsive decision and I wasn't quite prepared...for example, it would've been PERFECT if I had brought my lil' portable heater because it was DAMN COLD. Lol!
I woke up with the intention of going running (since I'm so close to the beach and all...), but dude, it was raining! Rain the entire day isn't a total loss- to be honest, it's actually romantic. Just makes you want to stay in your pj's all day lounging in bed...
Blockbuster Night
Not that I go to Blockbuster anymore...hell, I don't even do the NetFlix thing...but I have built up my own lil' DVD collection and tonight was the perfect night to hang out and watch. While I may not have my own TV and DVD player, my laptop has served its purpose well in that department. I popped in "Best Man"- always a good laugh out loud comedy with some drama and a kick ass soundtrack. I can't tell you how many times I've watched this movie, but somehow, I haven't gotten sick of it.
"Love Actually" was my other choice. I swear, I love this movie! It would seem perfect to watch this during Christmas...and I'll probably watch it again next month. But man..."...love is all around me..." could be somewhat depressing. But not as depressing as it was LAST Christmas! No, there really is nothing for me to be depressed about simply because this year, 2007, has been MY year...and 2008 is going to be even better.
It's such a feel good movie...and it gets me every time. I ESPECIALLY love that one scene with Keira Knightly where her husband's best friend comes to the door with all of the written signs that basically declares his love for her. And he does it without any hope or expectation in return...he does it because it's Christmas (and at Christmas, you tell the truth...). It melts my heart! Make me wish that someone could look at me the way he looks at her...
When I first watched "Love Actually" for the first time, I remember thinking that there were too many little stories to follow...but it just goes to show how LOVE can be felt on so many different levels and capacities.
Anyways...with the Christmas holidays coming up, it makes me wonder what things I should share "because it's Christmas." I would definitely be putting myself out there...and yet, I should do so without hope or agenda. No matter what the outcome, I should take the chance...just because.
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